Letter #86
Skylenna
Dear Dessin,
I can’t soothe my own babies.
It’s only been three days since I’ve given birth, but I just feel…
lost. My heart wilts when I look into our son’s sleepy eyes, and I see Kane.
Or when Sapphire sleeps, it reminds me of the concentration on your face when you solve a problem.
These similarities make me yearn for you in the time I lie awake to breastfeed every two hours.
Chekiss helps me around the clock. Niles and Marilynn are in the trenches with their own baby boy, Niklaus, but still make time to help when they can.
Ruth and Warrose are here often too. But it’s not the same.
We were robbed, weren’t we? These moments with our newborns we will never get back.
Sometimes I imagine you changing Sapphire’s diaper in the nursery.
Sometimes I picture Kane sleep deprived with me, cracking jokes about the hardships of having twins.
When I do sleep, I see your face, and when I jolt awake, I can still smell your clothes. I can’t stop crying. Please come back. I need you. Your babies need you. How am I supposed to go on without you?
My love for you doesn’t fade, it only grows more painful.
Sincerely,
Your Soulmate,
Skylenna