Chapter 12
Alys came rushing into the chamber. “What on earth happened? You’ve not been in here long enough for—” She stopped when she took one look at Gwen.
“I don’t want to talk about it, Alys,” Gwen said quietly.
“Did he hurt you, child?”
“Nay. Leave me. Please.”
Alys sighed and gathered her blankets, then retreated to her pallet in the antechamber.
Gwen stared at the ruby red drops staining the sheet. It should have been her blood, but it was his. She straightened the coverlets and sank back onto the pillows. She felt strangely empty inside. Sleep would be a long time coming.
Richard didn’t know where he was going until he came to the door leading to the battlements. A walk in the cold air would do him good. He found himself alone on the castle walls, the guards having presumably retired to some corner to dice and drink.
Richard leaned against a merlon, propping his foot in an open crenel. Lights blazed in the town. Revelers’ voices stole to him on the night air. The celebration, his celebration, was in full swing in the Great Hall far below.
How in the hell could he have been so wrong about her? His hand strayed to his sword hilt and he caressed it out of habit. The weapon was as much a part of him as his own soul, the need to carry it deeply ingrained from years spent in the unforgiving borderlands.
He swore softly. Instinct had told him she was untouched when he went to her room two nights ago, but he had pushed it away. She was Llywelyn’s daughter for God’s sake! She was supposed to be immoral!
She could have been currying favor with Ned, though he doubted it. The King could not resist a beautiful woman. Richard should have known who was seducing whom, but he’d been too blinded by rage, too willing to believe the worst about his Welsh bride.
He slumped against the wall, sickened by his own misconceptions. She hated him and he deserved it.
The night grew still, the laughter and music gradually fading. He heard the clattering of horses’ hooves in the bailey as some of the guests departed for their lodgings in town. Many would be bedded in the hall below. Others, the important ones, would have their own chambers.
The castle lay in absolute silence when Richard finally decided to rouse himself. He had no idea how long he’d been there, but he threw back his head and laughed, the sound all the louder because it was the only one on the chill air.
What the hell was the matter with him? His wife was a virgin! He was going to be first and last. He should be celebrating his good fortune, not sulking in the shadows like a cat.
But first he must make this night up to her. She desired him. That much was plain in the way she’d responded to him in the past. His groin tightened. He would seduce her slowly, deliciously, until she could no longer resist.
He laughed. It shouldn’t take all that long. He was very skilled in the art of seduction.
She didn’t stand a chance.
He wound his way through the castle, heading for their chamber. Someone moved in the passage ahead. He stopped, drawing his dagger. The blade gleamed in the torchlight. He shrank into a shadow and waited.
Soon, a blonde head came into view. He sighed and sheathed the knife, stepping into the light once more.
“Jesú, Richard! What the devil are you doing here?”
“I might ask the same of you, Ned.”
Edward glanced at the door next to them. “Tired of your new wife already? Find a serving wench.”
Edward tapped on the door. A woman with pale hair answered. “Majesty,” she breathed, opening the door to admit him.
When Edward was well inside the room, she swept Richard with a knowing look. “So the little witch wasn’t worth the wait after all? ’Tis a pity . . .”
“Anne!” came Edward’s impatient voice from behind her. She smiled and closed the door.
Gwen slept badly, as she had known she would. She awoke several times after what seemed only to be minutes. Richard had not returned. Finally, she got up and wrapped her bedrobe around her.
The fire had burned down until only a soft glow remained. Alys snored on her pallet in the antechamber. Gwen crossed to one of the chairs and sat down.
She knew where Richard was. He had found another bed, one with a welcoming woman. She twisted a lock of hair.
Well, it was not as if she cared. The bastard had damn near raped her. She was glad he was gone.
But she couldn’t stop thinking about him. His raw male beauty nearly stole her breath away. She almost wished she had glimpsed the mysterious male organ, but she had been too frightened to look at it when he removed his braies. She tingled with the remembrance of where he had put that male weapon.
It was irritating actually. Why had it not felt as good then as the thought of it did now?
She had not expected him to stop when he did. Black Hawk de Claiborne was a cruel man. He should not have stopped. Jesú, it would be easier to hate him if he had not!
A soft tap came on the door. Gwen crossed to the entryway. Alys would never hear his knock.
She slid the bar from its cradle, then opened the door slowly. Richard slipped in and closed it behind him. She could barely see him in the murky antechamber. His dark form seemed but a shadow in the night, shapeless, a demon come to haunt her. Her worst nightmare.
Alys snorted.
Gwen jumped, nearly screaming.
The old woman coughed, then turned on her pallet, oblivious to all but her dreams. Gwen pressed her hand to her chest.
“You should have asked who it was,” he growled.
Gwen bristled. “Who else would be sneaking into this chamber in the wee hours of the morn?”
He went and sat in a chair, then poured wine from the flagon on the table. Gwen stopped just outside the antechamber, unsure of what to do next.
He watched her for some moments. “What are you doing out of bed?”
“I could not sleep.”
“Come here.”
Gwen hesitated.
“I won’t hurt you,” he said softly.
Rushes crackled under her feet, the faint scent of marjoram rising from them. She stopped in front of him. He pulled her onto his lap, tucking her into the bend of his arm before settling his mantle around her.
“’Tis too cold for you to be out of bed.”
“I am not cold, my lord.”
“Richard.”
“Richard,” she repeated. In truth, the heat he gave her was welcome. Discreetly, she snuggled closer.
“Drink some wine. ’Twill warm you,” he said, raising the goblet to her lips. She sipped, gazing at him over the rim.
She saw the passion flare in his eyes, felt it stir in his loins. Gwen pushed the wine away and tried to slide from his lap. He wrapped his arm around her, holding her tight.
“I cannot help how my body responds to you any more than the sun can help rising and setting. I gave you my word I would not touch you. Just sit awhile and it’ll stop, I promise.”
Gwen stilled. In a way, it thrilled her to know she caused such a reaction in him. “Where were you all night, my lord?”
He searched her face. “Where do you think I was?”
Gwen chewed her lip. She shouldn’t have asked. Now he would think she cared what he did. “I think you were probably with your leman,” she said imperiously.
He laughed softly. “Jealous?” His silver eyes seemed like smoke in the dim light of the chamber.
“Nay, of course not!”
“I do not believe you, Gwen.”
Gwen turned her head to escape his scrutiny. He was so infuriating! He put a finger under her chin and pulled her back.
“I am not jealous,” she repeated firmly.
“You would not have asked otherwise. Women always want to know just where it is a man has been when they care very much where he has been.”
“I do not know what you are talking about. I am not—”
“I want to kiss you,” he interrupted, setting the wine on the table. “Will you let me?”
Gwen lowered her lashes. She should tell him no. “Aye,” she said softly, raising her eyes to his once more. Her heart started to thunder. Yes, God help her, she did want him to kiss her.
His expression was unreadable. Slowly, his head descended. Gwen closed her eyes. Excruciating seconds passed.
His lips grazed hers.
She waited, expecting more, wanting more.
He did not return.
She opened her eyes reluctantly. “Why did you stop?” she asked, a touch breathless.
“You did not tell me I could keep going.”
“Oh.”
“Would you like me to kiss you again?”
“Yes.”
He kissed her harder, longer. Her heart pounded. He stopped, kissed her chin. “Again?” he whispered.
“Yes.” This game was sending coils of heat spiraling through her. The logical part of her brain was trying to tell the rest of her that this was madness, that she was playing with a fire that threatened to rage out of control and consume her.
His mouth became more demanding. His tongue caressed her lower lip. He stopped. “Again?”
“Yes,” she moaned, unable to stand the torture any longer, ignoring the warning signals in her mind.
His mouth descended. She parted her lips and his tongue slipped inside. He shuddered. His manhood came to life, bucking insistently against her. Gwen shifted, part nervous fear, part curiosity.
He groaned, kissing her harder, deeper.
She wound her arms around his neck. Their tongues met, stroked, melded. Just when she thought the fire would consume her, he stopped. He kissed the hammering pulse in her throat.
“I cannot keep kissing you,” he said thickly.
Gwen bit the inside of her cheek. She wasn’t sure she wanted this to end just yet. “Why not?”
His shaft leapt beneath her. “That is why. I am in danger of breaking my promise.”
Sweet Mary, she almost wanted him to. But she’d not give in so easily because it was exactly what he expected. What was the tale? Sacrificing virgins on the altar of his masculinity. Gwen took a deep breath. She was never going to do the things he expected. “Mayhap you are right then.”
His eyes narrowed for a second, then he sighed. “’Tis almost dawn, Gwen. We must get in bed before the women come to inspect the sheets.”
“We?”
“Yes, we, sweet. Do not worry, the only thing I will do is sleep.”
Aye, he needed sleep because he had been out bedding some other woman all night. Not that she cared, of course.