Chapter 38
A Melting Point
Olli
I’d imagined telling Kodi I was her childhood friend at least a dozen times.
A lot of those scenarios ended with a kiss, but none of them involved her crying.
The way grief paled her face as she sorted through the letters made a hole open up in my stomach.
When I’d realized she’d forgotten about me, I felt unimportant.
But that clearly wasn’t the case. She cared.
She missed me. Missed all the things we could’ve had if I’d just gotten her address right.
And while a part of me wanted to talk to her, apologize, reconnect, tell each other all the things we’d missed, the way Kodi kissed me made that completely impossible.
In the garden, I kissed her like I was trying to sear the memory of me into her mind, her heart.
I wanted her to be consumed with thoughts of me.
I wanted to prove I couldn’t stop thinking about her.
And now Kodi was kissing me like she was making up for lost time.
Like she wanted to take everything I had to give.
And then her hands went from my hair to cross behind my back and once again, she pulled herself up and wrapped her legs around me and all sense was lost.
“Kodi, if you don’t want to be in my bed in the next ten seconds, you —”
“Yes,” she gasped, pulling back to look me in the eyes, the brown glistening. “Yes, take me, fuck me. I want — I don’t know, I want so much right now and those suspenders have been killing me all night.”
“Ha,” I huffed, situating so her weight was on my arms and she didn’t have to cling so tightly to me.
Though her grip didn’t loosen as I turned us towards the bedroom.
“You think you haven’t been killing me this whole time?
The sports bras, this dress, you’ve killed me in so many different styles and I’d happily die again to see more. ”
Kodi pulled herself closer, a smile curving her lips as she kissed my neck. “Is that why you told me to change that first day?”
“I didn’t tell you to change,” I grunted, body shaking at the feel of her lips on me. “You asked if your outfit was bothering me and I told the truth.”
“No,” she said through a breathy laugh. “The truth was you wanted me.” She tightened her legs to grind against my cock hardening, the friction igniting an inferno inside me.
“Yes,” I hissed, stopping in the middle of the hall to pin her against the wall so I could return the favor, rubbing my erection against her hot cunt. Kodi’s head fell back, thunking against the wall, and I dragged my tongue up her neck then nipped at her earlobe.
“Fuck, Kean,” she said, body shaking in my arms. And knowing that was just a preview to how she’d respond to all I wanted to do to her tonight made me snap.
“No. No more calling me Kean. You say my name from now on, okay?” I pulled back to look her in the eyes, but kept my weight on her, let her feel every hard inch of me, feel how much I needed her.
Kodi’s face softened, the heat in her eyes turning to warmth as she brought a hand to my face, stroking her thumb over my beard.
“Olli,” she said, voice just above a whisper. “Are your tests clear and up to date? Because if you get me any hotter without fulfilling the promise of filling me, I’m gonna fucking combust.”
I threw my head back and laughed, my body shaking. The sexual nature aside, it wasn’t something the Kodi I knew would say. But it was very much the thing the Kodi I know now would say. And that reminder that I was learning more about her made my heart warm.
I pressed a kiss to her cheek before pulling her away from the wall to continue to the bedroom.
“Yes, all of that is clear. You?”
“Uh-huh,” she whimpered, arm wrapping back behind my neck so she could pull herself tighter against me.
“And you want this?” I asked, pausing as we reached the door of my bedroom.
“Olli,” she groaned in frustration. She moved her hands to my collar and yanked so my lips met hers for a sloppy, heated kiss that would have made my knees buckle if not for all my years training specifically to stay on my feet.
“I don’t just want this, I fucking need it.
And if I was just a little less horny, I’d appreciate the check in and consent.
But honestly any delay to skin-to-skin contact is annoying at this point. ”
I kissed her neck, just under her ear, and stepped into my room, crossing a line that I had thought I’d never even get close to.
“Now.” I paused at the foot of my bed, lowering Kodi down, appreciating the curves of her body pressed against mine. Then, when her ass hit the bed with a soft bounce, I asked, “Where do you want me to start?”
Looking down at her on my bed, I was truly at a loss for where to begin. There were so many options and I wanted them all equally badly.
“Oh.” Kodi’s face went red. Her teeth sunk into her bottom lip and her shoulders straightened, a new sort of confidence sharpening her eyes as they raked over my body. “Well, where did you start when you imagined fucking me while you touched yourself?”
“What?” I stammered, about to take a step back, but was stopped by Kodi hooking her fingers around my belt loops.
“You don’t have to be shy, I did it, too.”
“You did?” The idea of Kodi, alone in her bed, touching her sweet cunt to thoughts of me short-circuited my brain. I was suddenly too fucking hard to think.
I leaned down to crash my mouth against hers, kissing her with abandon, noting how she melted under the force and a little sigh left her mouth.
“I haven’t touched myself since we met again.” I crawled onto the bed, knees on either side of her as I gently pushed her down. “And I sure as hell haven’t let myself think about what I’d do with you if I ever got you in my bed. It was too much, I couldn’t allow myself to do that.”
“Oh.” The color on her cheeks darkened, the teasing confidence gone. “I did. A lot.”
“A lot?” I kissed her again, this time letting my teeth pull at her lower lip as I moved back. “How many times?”
“I plead the fifth,” she said, eyes rolling to the back of her head as I lowered my body on top of her. And when I grabbed her wrists in one hand and pinned them over her head, she gasped and lifted her hips to grind against my cock.
“Tell me,” I demanded.
“Um.” Her eyes fluttered as she thought and I lifted my hips away from her, thinking that’d get me an answer quicker. But instead, it made her whine and raise her hips to follow mine. “Olli, you’re being mean.”
“No, you’re being mean.” I thrust my pelvis back down, pinning her to the bed. “Tell me everything. I wanna know how many times you came thinking about me. What you imagined. All of it. And none of our clothes are coming off until you do.”
Kodi’s bottom lip pouted and I nipped at it.
“Ugh, at least a couple times a week since I started.”
I rewarded her honesty with a lick of the bite before moving to kiss her cheek, then her jaw, making a path down to her neck.
“More.”
“It started with … uh, angry fantasies? Like you were being a dick, overworking me, so I’d picture telling you off and you’d snap and kiss me. Or you’d ask how to get my forgiveness.”
I twisted my tongue in little circles over her collar bone. “And how would I do that?”
“Mostly by going down on me. In the office or the locker room.”
I let my head fall into the nape of her neck, overwhelmed by the thought of eating her out at all, let alone in the fucking locker room. If we waited a solid thirty minutes after a game, most everyone would be gone and as long as we were quiet —
“But you don’t have to do that tonight,” she said suddenly and my head snapped up. I stared at her, so enraged at the idea of not tasting her that it felt like steam would puff out of my nose.
“Don’t have to because you don’t want me to feel obligated to or because you don’t want me to?
” Kodi tried to shrug with her hands pinned up and I pushed up on my knees, shuffling around so I had one leg between hers.
I let go of her hands to grab her waist and grind her up my thigh.
Her head collapsed back, mouth dropped in a moan, fingers twisting together, still over her head.
“Tell me, Kodi. Give me one good reason why I can’t get a taste of this hot cunt that has my mouth watering.”
“Well —” She had to fight to get the word out. “I don’t want you to feel obligated to and …”
“And what?” I questioned when she took too long to finish the sentence. It was literal torment to feel the heat of her on my leg and not do anything with it.
“I don’t wanna feel obligated to suck your dick in return. I haven’t seen or smelled it yet, so … you know,” she said in a rush, eyes up at the ceiling so she couldn’t see the confusion on my face. I let go of her waist and grabbed her jaw, tilting it so she’d look at me.
“Kodi. You are under no obligation to do anything you don’t wanna do. I don’t want that, I don’t even want something you feel indifferent about. If all you want to do tonight, or ever, is to come all over my face, then I’ll be exceedingly happy, all right?”
Kodi’s body melted underneath me, the brown of her eyes so dark the color was nearly indistinguishable from her pupils.
“Ke— Olli, baby, that was the hottest shit I’ve ever heard.
Yes, please, eat me out, do whatever you want to me.
I trust you. I trust you to make me feel good, to wait for me to be ready for something.
All that good shit. Just don’t tear this dress, I borrowed it from Rosa.
I think she’d forgive me, given the circumstances, but —”
I slammed my mouth to hers again. Hearing Kodi say she trusted made my heart melt, the heat of needing her physically almost forgotten. Almost.
“Then let’s get this off so I can eat.”