Chapter 9 #2
Rand had been loitering in the doorway of the forge, waiting for Ferguson to refine the curve on a brace that would anchor the engine into the carriage and, meanwhile, idly scanning the village street, when he saw Felicia exit the inn on the artist’s arm.
“Damn it—he’s back.” Eyes narrowing, Rand had pushed away from the archway against which he’d been leaning.
His hands gripping his hips, he’d watched as, at the far end of the street, Felicia had firmly dismissed Mayhew and, parting from him, had continued on alone, walking with her usual free stride along the lane in the direction of the Hall.
She hadn’t seemed distressed in any way. As for Mayhew, he seemed pleased. Rubbing his hands together, the artist was smiling as he turned toward the inn.
Rand watched Mayhew walk back to the inn and disappear inside.
A litany of possible actions—reactions—scrolled through Rand’s mind. In the end, the considerations that stopped him from marching down the street, into the inn, and making it indisputably clear to Mayhew that Felicia Throgmorton was spoken for were twofold.
The first—and most telling with respect to protecting the invention—was that as Rand had led Mayhew to believe he was a family friend passing through, Mayhew would not be expecting Rand to still be at Throgmorton Hall.
Mayhew, Rand judged, came from a circle only slightly below his own; he knew how Mayhew would have interpreted his words—he would have assumed that, seven days on, Rand would be gone by now.
That raised the interesting question of whether Mayhew had retreated for a few days, waiting until he assumed Rand would have left, in order to ensure a clear run at the Hall.
Simply by asking around in the village, Mayhew could have learned that, other than the absentminded brother who toiled away in the workshop every day, occasionally blowing things up, there was no true male protector residing at the house.
The more Rand thought of it, the more he felt that it would be wise to allow Mayhew to remain unaware of Rand’s continuing presence. Unless Mayhew thought to ask Ferguson, he was unlikely to learn that Rand was still about.
The second consideration that held him back from confronting Mayhew was more personal. Felicia herself might not—yet—understand where she stood vis-à-vis Rand. They hadn’t yet progressed to the point of a declaration.
To his mind, the kiss they’d shared last night had certainly raised the prospect, but he hadn’t spoken.
Once again, he debated that decision, but waiting until after the exhibition, when there would be no urgent business-related pressure hanging over their heads—no possible consideration that might impinge on her decision to accept him, or that she might imagine had influenced his decision to ask for her hand—still seemed the best way forward.
Waiting to speak remained the better option.
The niggling understanding that he was uncertain enough of her—of his appeal to her—to want more time to convince her to be his, he pushed to the back of his mind.
“M’lord.”
Rand lowered his arms and turned as Ferguson came walking out from the depths of the forge, waving the re-formed brace.
“This is ready now. Good and strong—should do the job.”
Rand accepted the curved length of solid iron. “Put it on the Throgmorton tab.”
Ferguson nodded genially. “Aye. I’ll do that.” Rand had already assured the man he would stand guarantor for William John.
Rand had tied the horse he’d ridden from the Hall to the ring beside the forge door.
He moved around the bay and stowed the brace in the saddlebag.
Then, over the horse’s back, he looked at Ferguson, who had remained in the doorway.
“I want to give this fellow a run. Is there a way I can circle around”—he tipped his head—“to the west, preferably, that will eventually take me back to the Hall?”
“Oh aye. There’s a good run down the edge of Farmer Highgate’s fields. If you go that way”—Ferguson pointed away from the village—“then turn left and left again, you’ll come to it—a bridle path, it is. You won’t miss it.”
Rand thanked the blacksmith, then swung up to the bay’s broad back. He rode out of the yard, turned north, then, as directed, west. True to Ferguson’s word, Rand found the bridle path easily enough and took the circuitous route back to the Hall, giving the inn a very wide berth.
By the time he’d reached the Hall’s stables, Rand had started to question just why Felicia had, to all appearances, encouraged Mayhew. She’d gone into the inn with him; however innocent their meeting, Rand had to wonder why she’d agreed to it.
After leaving the bay in Shields’s capable hands along with orders to deliver the brace to the workshop, Rand strode across the lawn to the house with uncertainty itching just beneath his skin.
He didn’t know Felicia that well; he’d never seen her in society.
Perhaps the artist, charming to his toes, was more to her taste than a gentleman who thought investments were exciting…
Abruptly, he halted, drew in a deep breath, then exhaled and, struggling not to clench his jaw, walked on.
There was that kiss in the dark last night. He shouldn’t—couldn’t—forget that. She’d responded. She’d been as intrigued as he with the prospects—with the promise.
He shouldn’t doubt her.
Not without evidence to the contrary.
Just because he didn’t trust women, especially not those clever enough to be manipulative, that didn’t mean he couldn’t trust her.
He reached the house, opened the side door, and stalked inside. Even as his long strides ate the carpet, at the back of his mind was the realization of what his present state—his churning thoughts—portended.
He knew how irrationally Ryder acted over Mary, and his big brother was the epitome of calm reason. This morass of uncertainty was, apparently, an unavoidable outcome of allowing oneself to fix on a particular lady, to place her above all others.
He’d already reached the point where Felicia was that for him—the lady he’d placed on his pedestal, the one lady he wanted for his own.
Johnson was crossing the front hall as Rand walked onto the tiles.
“Ah—Johnson. Do you happen to know where Miss Felicia is?”
“Indeed, my lord. She’s in the garden hall.” Johnson pointed past the breakfast parlor. “It’s toward the end of the corridor, my lord.”
“Thank you.” Rand drew in a breath, reminded himself to be calm—that he’d as yet said nothing to Felicia about her being his—then strode in search of her.
She was arranging peonies in a bowl when he walked into the narrow garden hall.
She looked up at him and smiled. “Has William John and his incessant muttering driven you upstairs?”
“No.” He leaned back against the bench alongside where she was working and crossed his arms. “I went into the village to have a brace reforged. I was waiting outside the blacksmith’s and saw you with that artist.”
Her gaze on her hands as she cupped and shifted blooms in the bowl, she nodded.
“Yes. Mayhew is back. He met me as I was coming out of the general store. He invited me to tea so he could impress me with the sketches he’s done over the last days.
” She paused, then glanced at Rand, briefly meeting his eyes.
“He must have been hard at work to have produced so many in just seven days. They were as good as his sketches of the Hall. I recognized some scenes from a hamlet near Basildon, so he must have traveled up there.”
He frowned. “So his story of having to do more sketches for the London News rings true?”
“So it seems.”
To his ears, she sounded equivocal, possibly unconvinced, but at the very least unimpressed.
“The reason he wanted to make a point of the quality of his work was to pave the way for him to request permission to return here and do more sketches of the house.”
He stiffened, muscles throughout his body hardening.
Before he could say anything, she straightened and, dusting her hands, faced him and met his eyes.
“I suggested he come for afternoon tea and speak with me and Flora about it. I know there’s no chance of winkling William John from the workshop—and we need him to finish the last adjustments as soon as possible, so better he isn’t distracted—but would you care to join us?
” She tipped her head, her eyes still on his.
“We could see what you make of Mayhew and his return.”
Her last comment, especially her use of “we,” shifted Rand’s perspective. He studied her expression, but wasn’t sure what he sensed. “You don’t believe him?”
She humphed and turned to lean back against the bench beside him. “I believe him about his ability to sketch—that’s beyond doubt. But as for the rest…I have to admit I’m not inclined to trust any charming gentleman who comes waltzing up our drive.”
Rand turned his head and stared at her.
Eventually feeling his gaze, she glanced at him, then her lips twitched and she faced forward again. “I trust you, but that’s for a lot of other reasons, and you’ve never tried to charm me, which in my book is a very large point in your favor.”
Faintly, he arched his brows. “Duly noted,” he murmured.
Belatedly, Felicia realized that this was the first time he and she had been alone since that amazingly distracting kiss in the night, yet rather than suffering from any feeling of awkwardness, she felt comfortable, at ease, and, yes, relieved.
Relieved he was there to share her concern over Mayhew and what his reappearance might mean.
“Is having Mayhew back, even for afternoon tea, a wise idea?”