Chapter Fourteen
~ Zephyr ~
I stopped in the doorway of the study, bare feet on the wide-plank floor, turquoise sparkles catching the low light from the desk lamp, and my brain did what it always did when Ari was involved: ran at full speed, generated several thousand words of commentary, and offered exactly none of it to the room.
He hadn’t heard me. Or he had heard me and decided I wasn’t interesting enough to acknowledge, which was fair, because I’d spent most of the afternoon explaining why his cousin was a financial idiot with the emotional maturity of a bag of rocks, and I wouldn’t want to talk to me either.
His vest was off, white shirt unbuttoned halfway down his chest, sleeves rolled to the elbow, forearms exposed under the amber lamp. The forearms deserved their own zoning category. Thick, scarred, the kind of forearms that made architecture seem like an afterthought.
The lighter sat still in his palm. Not clicking. Just there, metal catching the low light, held the way some men held prayer beads or worry stones or whatever the fuck normal people used to keep their hands busy when the world was about to change.
Tomorrow was the conclave. It would be a room full of men who had watched the Romanos bleed and done nothing, and Ari standing in the middle of it with a family name that still smelled like smoke and a five-foot-five blond who treated financial forensics like a contact sport.
I leaned against the doorframe. Longer than was professionally defensible. The kind of lean that said I’m watching you and I have opinions about it and also, quietly, I have been watching you for weeks and the watching has become its own kind of problem.
The dark pressed against the glass behind him, the grounds beyond the courtyard lost to shadow, and the contrast did things to the lines of his back that my professional vocabulary did not have a category for.
I crossed the room.
Not quickly. Not slowly. I knew exactly what I was doing and was doing it anyway because the alternative was worse, and I had never been good at worse. The floorboards creaked under my bare feet.
The turquoise sparkles caught the low light, small defiant points of color against the dark floor, and somewhere in the back of my brain, a very small voice said you are making a decision and a much larger voice said shut up, I know.
I stopped close. Close enough that the cedar-and-coffee scent of him hit with the intensity of aromatherapy. Close enough that I had to tilt my chin up to hold his eye contact, which was its own kind of problem because Ari’s eye contact was not something you held casually.
It was something you survived.
He turned from the window. Slowly. The kind of slow that suggested he had been aware of me the entire time and had simply chosen not to acknowledge it until he was ready, which was exactly the kind of control that made my chest do something complicated every time I witnessed it.
His eyes found mine. Black. Dark. Giving nothing away and somehow giving everything at once.
“I’m going to kiss you now.” My voice came out even. Steadier than it had any right to be, given that my cardiovascular system was currently doing something that resembled an interpretive dance. “You’re welcome to object, but you should know I have excellent reflexes and will simply try again.”
He looked at me. One long, still moment. The lighter sat motionless in his palm. No opening or closing.
His hand came up. Slow. Deliberate. His palm settled along my jaw, thumb warm against my cheek, the calluses rough against my skin in a way that registered somewhere below my sternum.
He kissed me first.
Not the way I’d expected. Not aggressive, not demanding—controlled, careful. His mouth was warm. His beard scraped my chin, the roughness of it sending a signal to my nervous system that bypassed every filter I had installed.
My internal monologue went silent.
Completely. Irrevocably. The silence of a mind that had been running at full speed since approximately age sixteen and had just discovered that the off switch existed and Aristoteles Romano’s mouth was the mechanism.
No commentary. No analysis. No snarky one-liners about forearms or lighter mechanics or the fact that I was standing in a study at midnight with a crime boss’s thumb on my cheek and my professional boundaries in a ditch somewhere.
Just warmth. His mouth against mine, the steady pressure of a man who treated kissing the way he treated everything—with the focused attention of someone who had decided that thoroughness was more important than speed.
Then his hand slid from my jaw to the back of my neck. His fingers threaded through my hair, grip firm, anchoring, like he was worried I might try to leave and had decided to remove that option from the menu.
His other hand found my hip. Pulled me in. Two hundred and twenty-five pounds of focused intent, and my body registered the shift in gravity with the enthusiasm of something that had been waiting for this input and was now compiling a very detailed report.
I grabbed the front of his shirt, the fabric warm from his skin, and my fingers closed around it with the grip of a man whose options had narrowed to hold on or hit the floor, and I had strong opinions about floors.
The kiss did not stay controlled.
His mouth opened against mine. Warm. Insistent. His tongue found mine, and the sound I made was low, involuntary, the noise of a man whose internal monologue had been replaced by something considerably more primal.
The desk lamp threw its small circle of light across the study. Old paper. Cedar. The smell of books that had been sitting on shelves longer than I had been alive, and beneath it, the cleaner, warmer scent of Ari’s skin, the base note of a man who did not wear cologne because he did not need to.
His hand was on the back of my neck. His other hand held tight on my hip, fingers pressing through the thin fabric of my shirt with the specific pressure of someone who had decided that the distance between us was unacceptable and was now correcting it.
I held his shirt. White-knuckled.
Ari’s beard scraped my jaw. His mouth found the corner of my lips, then my lower lip, and the attention he paid to that specific area was something my nervous system filed under “highly relevant data”.
I was so done for.
Completely. Irrevocably. The kind of done for that came with no reverse gear and no off-ramp and the distinct, terrible realization that I did not, in fact, want either of those things.
His thumb moved against my hip. A small circle, warm through the fabric, and the gesture was so deliberate, so specific, that my breath caught in a way that had nothing to do with the kiss and everything to do with the fact that Ari touched the way he did everything—like he meant it.
The study around us. The lamp’s circle of light. The smell of old paper and cedar and the quiet hum of a building that had been standing for four centuries and had just witnessed something it hadn’t been designed to accommodate.
I held his shirt as he started moving us.
He held me.
And somewhere in the dark beyond the window, tomorrow waited, patient and inevitable, and for the first time in longer than I could remember, I did not care.
We made it approximately twelve feet before Ari decided that the hallway wall was a structural feature worth testing.
One moment I was walking, the next I was against plaster with two hundred and twenty-five pounds of focused intent pinning me in place, and my brain did a quick recalculation of several previously held assumptions about physics and personal space.
His mouth found mine. Harder now. The controlled carefulness from the study had evaporated, replaced by something warmer and considerably less patient.
His hand was still on the back of my neck, fingers tight in my hair, and his other arm braced against the wall beside my head, the muscle in his forearm flexing. His leg was between my thighs, holding me up.
The plaster was cold against my back. Ari was not cold.
Ari was the exact opposite of cold, his chest pressed against mine through the thin fabric of my shirt, his heartbeat steady against my sternum in a rhythm that suggested his cardiovascular system was considerably more composed than mine, which was frankly offensive given the circumstances.
I discovered, with the clarity of a man who was being thoroughly kissed against a hallway wall, that this was everything I had suspected it would be and also approximately three standard deviations more intense than my risk assessment had allowed for.
File that permanently. Category: worth it.
His beard scraped my jaw. His mouth moved to my throat, and the sound I made was not dignified, but it was enthusiastic, and Ari’s response was to bite—not hard, but the kind of bite that was totally possessive.
We made it to the staircase. Four centuries of dark walnut, smooth from generations of hands, the banister worn to a patina that caught the low light from the sconces on the wall.
I paused at the bottom step and looked up. The staircase stretched above us, quiet and patient, and the arithmetic of climbing it while being thoroughly distracted by Ari presented a logistical challenge that my coordination center was not currently equipped to handle.
“Architectural inconvenience,” I said. My voice came out rougher than I’d intended, which was Ari’s fault entirely. “Four centuries of Italian craftsmanship and nobody thought to install an elevator. Shameful oversight. I’m adding it to the invoice.”
Ari’s hand found the small of my back. Warm through the fabric, fingers pressing with the specific pressure of someone who had decided that commentary was a secondary concern.
“Stop talking.” His voice was low, rough, something barely controlled.
“Make me.”
He did.
His mouth covered mine. One hand on my jaw, tilting my head back, and the kiss was thorough in a way that suggested Ari treated challenges the way he treated everything—as problems to be solved rather than inconveniences to be negotiated.