Chapter 14 #4
I refrained from pointing out the things Celeste already knew: that her own parents were alive and well, still in the Norcross foursquare in Rydal, still nursing the pain of having lost a succession of noble Labrador retrievers over the course of their long marriage, one of whom, years before, had darted out the front gate and was hit by a car in the springtime of her youth.
They were good people, Celeste’s people, and good things had happened to them.
I wouldn’t have wished it any other way.
What I didn’t appreciate was that Celeste took such issue with Maeve not coming into the city, when Maeve coming to be with us was the last thing she wanted.
“She’s too busy with her important job in frozen vegetables to come here for the day?
She expects you to drop everything—your business, your family—and run to her when she calls? ”
“I’m not going out there to cut her lawn. She does all this work that she doesn’t charge us for. Going out there seems like the least I could do.”
“Every single time?”
What was never said but was perfectly clear was that Maeve had no husband, no children, and so her time was less valuable. “You should be careful what you wish for,” I said. “I can’t imagine you’d be happier if Maeve came here once a month.”
And while I was sure we were careening towards a full-on argument, this sentence stopped Celeste cold. She put her face in her hands and then she started to laugh. “My god, my god,” she said. “You’re right. Go to Jenkintown. I don’t know what I’m saying.”
Maeve didn’t have to give me a reason why she hated New York: traffic, garbage, crowding, incessant noise, the omnipresent visible poverty, she could have her pick. When I finally asked her, after many years of wondering, she looked at me like she couldn’t believe I didn’t know.
“What?”
“Celeste,” she said.
“You gave up the entire city of New York to avoid Celeste?”
“What other reason would there be?”
Whatever injustices Maeve and Celeste had committed against each other years before had become abstractions.
Their dislike for each other was a habit now.
I could never help but think that had they met on their own, two women who had nothing to do with me, they would have liked each other very much; certainly they had at first. They were smart and funny and fiercely loyal, my sister and my wife.
They claimed to love me above all others, while never acknowledging the toll it took on me to watch them pick each other apart.
I blamed them both. They could have avoided it now.
The grudge could be set aside if they made the choice.
But they didn’t. They clung to their bitterness, both of them.
Even if Maeve didn’t come to the city as a rule, she recognized that rules came with exceptions.
She was there for May’s and Kevin’s First Communions, and every now and then she turned up for a birthday.
She was happiest when the children came to see the Norcrosses.
Maeve was always invited to dinner. She would take Kevin home with her for the night and then to work with her in the morning.
Kevin, who had no use for vegetables on his dinner plate, found them irresistible in frozen form.
He couldn’t get enough of the factory. He loved the order and precision of giant steel machines as applied to little carrots, he loved the chill that permeated the place, the people wearing sweaters in July.
He said it was because Mr. Otterson’s family was Swedish.
“Cold-weather people,” he said. He saw Mr. Otterson as the Willy Wonka of produce.
Once he was satisfied by a day of watching peas being sealed into plastic bags, Maeve would return him to his grandparents, where he would immediately call his mother and tell her he wanted to work in vegetables.
A day spent with May bore no resemblance to a day spent with Kevin.
May wanted to go through photo albums with her aunt page by page, resting her finger beneath every chin and asking questions.
“Aunt Maeve,” she’d say, “were you really so young?” May loved nothing more than to park in front of the Dutch House with her aunt, as if the pull to the past was an inherited condition.
May insisted that she, too, had lived there when she was very young, too young to remember.
She layered Fluffy’s stories about parties and dancing onto her own memories of childhood.
Sometimes she said she had lived above the garage with Fluffy and together they drank the flat champagne, and other times she was a distant VanHoebeek relative, asleep in a glorious bedroom with the window seat she’d heard so much about. She swore she remembered.
One night, Maeve called me after my daughter was asleep in her guest room. “When I told her the house had a swimming pool she was indignant. It’s so hot here. It must have been a hundred today, and May said, ‘I have every right to swim in that pool.’”
“What did you tell her?”
Maeve laughed. “I told her the truth, poor little egg. I told her she has no rights at all.”