Chapter 13 Painful Confession
Time passed long enough that I almost fell asleep against him.
Jian Xi finally spoke hoarsely, "Okay, Lin Duo, you can get up now..."
I woke up instantly, rubbed my eyes, and climbed off him.
Jian Xi sat up, his front clothes tugged into a mess by me, his pretty, firm abs exposed blatantly.
I swallowed, forced myself to look away, and bowed my head in repentance. "Jian Xi, I'm sorry. At first, I thought you were a girl, so I said those things without restraint."
"I really didn't know you were a guy. If I knew you were a guy, I'd have been proper and honest, absolutely not doing that..."
"Do you... do you understand what I mean?"
Jian Xi's buttoning paused.
He looked up.
His tone grew serious. "Those words... which ones?"
"Was it that you like me? Or you love me? Or you want to be family with me? Or... you want me to use my hand to help you..."
This kid was blurting everything out!
My face burned as I covered his mouth. "All, all of them!"
"I know some words carry strong suggestive tones."
"But think if it was between girls, wouldn't it be normal? So..."
Jian Xi's lips pressed into a line, the light in his eyes dimming bit by bit, even his shoulders slumping. "So, saying you love me, like me, only bought clothes for me, want to be family with me..."
"Those were just things you wanted to say to a girl, not to me, and no special meaning?"
I nodded heavily, steeling myself.
The air froze.
I keenly heard the "click" of Jian Xi's knuckles tightening.
Wuwu, doomed.
Mom had said.
Jian Xi had suffered all his life, abandoned, deceived, hated...
In the toughest times, he ate plain steamed buns soaked in water for two months straight.
Only after graduating college, working day and night, did his life barely improve.
So.
Later, I wanted to make up for him desperately.
But I never expected today's series of mishaps.
I sighed resignedly. "I'm sorry. I know you must feel played right now, very upset..."
"Anyway, I'm truly sorry. I'll think of ways to make it up to you quickly. As for those words, just pretend I never said them."
With that.
I recalled those explicit chat logs again and couldn't face staying.
I jumped up and ran out.