Chapter 33
Amyra
Present
How did my life turn upside down so suddenly?
The man I believed never even saw me as a woman is now confessing that he has been in love with me all along. I thought I had been sidelined in his heart, quietly existing on the edges, but here he is, admitting how deeply his feelings for me grew in silence.
What is happening right now?
Everything I believed to be true has collapsed in an instant, and my entire life suddenly feels like a lie I can’t seem to digest. All those months of tears and unresolved emotions now feel meaningless.
And despite standing in a moment I once dreamed of, why does happiness refuse to settle in my heart? Instead, it’s drowned by shock, overwhelm, and a deep sense of distress.
Something clicks in my mind, and my heart turns unbearably heavy with guilt and sorrow.
Reyansh broke up with Aditi. Which means… I am the reason he left my sister.
After everything she endured, she believed her relationship with Reyansh would finally bring happiness into her life, something long-lasting. But what did he do? Falling in love with me shattered the only good thing she had, leaving her drowning in misery.
If not for me, he might never have drifted away from Aditi. He might never have broken her heart.
What kind of terrible sister destroys her own sister’s life when she’s finally on the verge of having something good?
I am the reason behind their break-up.
I should have kept my distance from Reyansh. I should have stayed away, far enough to prevent this mess. And yet, despite her own heart bleeding, she still supported Reyansh’s decision to confess his feelings for me.
And what did I do in return? I stole her boyfriend.
“Ames! Please stop weeping!” My eyes force open as I feel his hand touch my shoulder. I immediately step back, putting distance between us.
“How dare you, Reyansh!”
“How dare you play with our feelings?” My voice comes out raw and fractured, thick with frustration, while my tears refuse to stop.
“Ames, I’m sorry for what I did, but trust me, it wasn’t my intention—”
“Stop making excuses,” I snap. “You’re the one who dismissed your promise as silly, called it childish rambling, announced your interest in dating Aditi in front of the entire family, earned her approval, dragged her into a relationship, dated her for eight months, and now you suddenly claim you never had feelings for her?
And worse, you say you fell in love with me?
What kind of nonsense is this, Mr. Reyansh Thakur? ”
I scream, my throat burning with the force of it. In the next moment, I clutch his shirt collar, pulling him closer, my blazing gaze locking onto his guilt-filled eyes.
“How can you be so heartless? How can you play with my emotions and Aditi’s?
Do you even realise what this will do to her, someone who already lost her parents so young?
She was finally close to achieving her career dream.
How is she supposed to move on now? And how could you even think about me when you were already dating my sister?
We’ve been best friends our entire lives, so how does eight months change everything? ”
“It didn’t start eight months ago, Amyra.”
My grip loosens. I release his collar, staring at him with widened eyes and a violently thumping heart.
“What are you talking about?”
“It’s always been you, Amyra. Not just for eight months, but it has been there for many years. Maybe since the moment we became best friends. I don’t know exactly when it began, but I know this much: I’ve loved you for a long time. I just realised it too late. And do you know why?”
Tears cascade down my cheeks because this should have been my dream come true, and yet my heart feels too full, too broken, to hold it all.
I have always been his only choice. And I never even knew.
“It’s true that I only saw you as my best friend when I announced my liking for Aditi and brushed off the childhood promise as something foolish.
But once I stepped into that relationship, reality slowly began to hit me.
The moment I realised I had to prioritise my girlfriend over you, frustration crept in.
Being in a relationship came with boundaries that limited my interaction with you, and it felt like I was losing a part of myself.
At first, I dismissed those feelings, telling myself it was just my habit of looking out for you.
But soon, I understood it wasn’t just care, but it was love.
Possessiveness triggered by love. Every time you distanced yourself, I panicked, and my frustration grew.
My feelings were of endless love for you, accompanied by jealousy whenever I saw you with someone else.
Karan may have brought my emotions to the surface, but it was you all along.
The fear of losing you was unbearable, and now I stand here, heartbroken, knowing I’ve always chosen you without even realizing it.
At one stage, I even distanced myself from you, so I could focus on Aditi instead.
But it only worsened my mental state. I felt lost, dull, and empty when I kept myself away from you.
And during the B&T Green Horizon Drive event, it finally hit me that being around you is my only source of happiness and peace.
That’s when I understood the emotions I feel for you aren’t mild or controllable.
They’re intense, instinctive, and overwhelming.
That’s when I recognised them for what they truly were!
My constant anxiety and anger when you're with Karan stem from my desire for you.
Loving you from a distance has been torture, and hiding my feelings has become unbearable.
I realized I needed to break up with Aditi before I could express my love for you.
I tried to discuss this with Aditi before our Singapore trip, but she sensed my intentions and asked me to wait.
We met again three days ago, and despite the pain, we ended our relationship.
I know I was wrong to shatter your sister’s heart. But don’t you think life is too short to settle for compromises and suppress our true feelings? There was no future in that relationship, so I chose selfishness, and I broke up because I want you in my life forever.
So, will you forgive me and accept me, Amyra?”
I can’t believe he didn’t pause or falter even once during that long confession. His eyes hold unwavering admiration, raw honesty, and sincerity shining through them. His voice never dipped, never shook, revealing just how serious he is about every word he spoke.
This is the moment I once dreamed of for years, something I had striven to forget, when he started dating my sister.
And now, he’s awakening the emotions I buried deep within me.
The urge to reciprocate his love, to surrender and fall into his arms, feels dangerously tempting.
But on the other side, guilt burns through my mind like fire, the guilt of being the reason behind his and Aditi’s break-up.
If only he were not so confused! If only he hadn’t dated my sister! Our lives could have been simpler, calmer, and happier.
And I can’t erase the emotional torment of the past few months, the sleepless nights, the constant anxiety, and the way my peace slowly slipped away. I still remember the ache of seeing him with Aditi, the quiet heartbreak that followed me every time.
Reyansh has done with his confession and is looking for a response.
But how should I respond? I am not very clear as to what would be a proper response.
It is a sensitive matter, and I can’t forget everything that happened, nor can I be desperate and shamelessly accept the man who just broke my sister’s heart while claiming he loved me all along.
How will I even face her now?
Reyansh has messed up everything. He should have been more mindful, more careful before creating this chaos in our lives.
For now, I only need silence. Time to think, to breathe, to process without making impulsive decisions as he did.
I may love him beyond reason, but that doesn’t mean I can forgive mistakes that wrecked three lives.
I would rather stay away from him than become the reason for my sister’s disappointment.
I don’t know if I’m right or wrong, but I can’t accept him, at least not now. It feels unbearably wrong. Maybe we all need time to look back, to reflect, and to choose better.
“Ames.”
His whisper pulls me back to reality. And I finally speak the truth my heart has been holding onto, the truth that needs closure.
“I’m sorry, Reyansh. It is a surprise for me to hear from you that you loved me all along but did not realise it when you announced you wanted to date Aditi.
You have been dating Aditi for the past eight months, and now you say you had a break-up.
I don’t know how poor Aditi is feeling right now.
All this is too much for me to take in. I’m not in the right state of mind to think and make any decision right now.
Maybe, after a few days, I don’t know. Right now, I need space… and peace. Just leave me alone.”
Without waiting for his response or watching his reaction, I walk out of the cabin, head straight to my cubicle, and sink into my chair, my eyes burning as fresh tears blur my vision.
Everything feels unreal. The future looks hazy, uncertain.
If we were meant to be together from the very beginning, why does our journey feel so painfully repelling?
I just hope time gives me the answers soon.