Chapter 5 Thayla
Thayla
“You’re as bad as a youngling. You’re not ill or injured immobile, so there’s no need for this.”
A very loud and groggy groan echoes around my room as I plaster my pillow to my ear.
“Get out of my head, V. It’s called a nap and that’s the third time you’ve disturbed it.”
“My last disruption was over an hour ago. Now your Valtrue member has returned home, so I’m ready to be introduced to them.”
“I’ll introduce them when I’m ready and done with my nap.”
I roll over onto my stomach and clutch the pillow around my head as if that’ll drown him out. I made the unfortunate mistake of filling him in when I came to my room a couple of hours ago.
V is obviously the type of creature who doesn’t care for naps or doing as he’s told. After I informed him of what happened, he admitted he knew who I was tied to all along but couldn’t be the one to tell me.
According to him, this Messenger has been given many different titles around the realm and through the millennia, but never a name. That’s why they’re rumored to be mythological.
Even if he wasn’t already informed that’s who I had a tie to in preparation to meet me, he would’ve sensed it. They’re above the level of power he and any other creature created by the Valories are.
I told him I couldn’t take any more information or big news and that I was taking a nap. He insisted I introduce him to the guys right then so they could get familiar with him. I said no, nap first.
He wasn’t happy with that answer.
A scream rips out of me when small but sharp pricks poke into my ass cheek. My legs get tangled in my blanket, so I can’t kick out, and I get lost underneath the pillow.
A loud, soothing hoot has my scream dying down and a growl replacing it. Once my mind and heart realize I’m not under attack, my arms fall limply beside me for a second before I calmly roll myself over.
“Careful. You almost squashed me.”
He flaps his wings to hover above me, then takes it upon himself to land right on my chest. He cocks his head to the side as those all-seeing eyes bore into my blinking ones.
“You wouldn’t get squished if you didn’t stab me in the ass with your claws and weren’t in my room without my permission. How did you even get in here and why are the curtains open?”
“The Goddess of Illusions’ power can’t keep me out, Thayla girl. I go wherever I please. Mostly. I opened the curtains a moment ago. The setting sun will help you wake up.”
“A moment ago? How long have you been in here?”
“Since I woke you the last time. I figured if the nuzzling didn’t work, I needed to be a little more forceful.”
“I’m sorry, are you saying I didn’t dream that something was rubbing my face?”
“I don’t know what you dreamed, but yes, I did rub my feathers down your face.”
I sit all the way up, forcing him to hop off my chest and onto my bed. My eyes narrow on him.
“What were you doing that whole time?”
“Watching you waste the day away.”
My feet kick out of the tangled blanket, and I sling my legs over the side of the bed with a huff. I spin back around to face him with my hands on my hips. He continues to cock his cute little head at me like he doesn’t know what to do with me.
I don’t know what to do with him when he’s in a form small enough he could sit in my palm.
“This relationship is moving far too fast for me. You can’t come into my room however and whenever you please, then stab me to wake me up.”
“You’ll simply have to catch up. You normal beings take far too long to accept things. It’ll be easier for you if you just pretend like you’ve known me your whole life so we can skip over all this pestering.”
Normal beings…I’m so far from that.
I stare at my ceiling, then stomp across my room to my bathroom. I don’t spare a glance at the disheveled state I’m in or at the new bruises decorating my body as I strip my clothes off.
That wasn’t a good, comforting nap.
It was one of those where you sweat in your sleep and feel even more tired when you wake up. The last thing I am is rested and ready to introduce my Valtrue to my meddling, no-boundaries Vedarya.
“There shouldn’t be boundaries between us. That causes disruption to our dynamic. I promise to always be honest with you whenever I can be, and I’ll never guide you in the wrong direction. If we start placing boundaries and I stop meddling, I’ll never be able to help you and your Valtrue properly.”
“Oh my Valories, I forgot you can read my freaking thoughts.”
“Unlike Seismet, I can’t read thoughts on command. Only when they’re directed at me or loud enough. Which they were a moment ago, might I add.”
You’ve got to be kidding me.
I gasp as the piercing cold water has every nerve in my body coming to life. I allow it to stay cold long enough to wake me up and rinse the sweat from my skin.
Once the calming flow of water and rhythmic washing of my hair gets my thoughts moving a little too fast, I focus back on the Vedarya, who I know is sticking his little claws all over my bed.
“So is this how it will be for you, Seismet, and me?”
“If you’re referring to our closeness, then yes.
Seismet and I will try to remember this is all new to you and it may be difficult for you to trust and believe us instantly.
We need you to remember, though, we are beings created for a purpose.
We spend our lives waiting and yearning for our purpose to show.
Seismet even more so as Veilatara only have one connection their entire lives.
He’s been waiting many years for one strong enough for him.
Whereas I’ve had multiple, but all are incredibly important to me and my survival in life. ”
Sadness sweeps through me at his words. Here I am, his Vedae, getting annoyed that he entered my room and woke me up, when he’s so happy and grateful to be here with me. He has no one to turn to.
Well, aside from Seismet and the other Veilatara, but still. He doesn’t have his kind anymore.
Ugh, and Seismet…I didn’t realize Veilatara only get one Godly Companion in their long lifetimes.
Poor ancient creature got stuck with me.
“I’m sorry, V, if I’ve come across as ungrateful for these honors. That wasn’t my intention at all. I’m just…overwhelmed.”
“Not only overwhelmed, but life has taught you not to trust anyone first. Your method is to hold mistrust until someone proves you right or wrong. It isn’t the worst trait in the realm to have, especially amongst gods, but not everyone should fall into that category instantly.”
“You couldn’t have let me downplay it?”
“Unfortunately, no. I believe Seismet has already told you this as the two of you have grown closer, but I’ll reiterate. We’re two of the only beings who will never judge or betray you. You can always be honest with us no matter what. Just as you should be honest with yourself.”
I close my eyes and tip my head back to let the water wash everything away.
It’s both freeing and scary to know I have two revered connections with whom I can be myself and completely honest.
I want that as much as I fear that.
Honestly, I don’t know how to navigate it, but I can admit that it’s tiring always questioning someone’s motives.
Today has been the perfect example of that. How quickly I allowed my fears and thoughts to change the way I viewed the guys has guilt, reasoning, shame, all of it, waring inside of me.
I can’t believe I thought the things I did about them.
I’m so fucking embarrassed and ashamed of myself.
I cut the water off and wrap my towel around me. A groan slips from between my lips when I realize I didn’t bring clothes in here. No matter how close V and I grow, I’ll never be at the point I can walk out in front of him naked.
After I brush my hair quickly, I leave the bathroom to head to my closet but stop short when I find him nuzzled into my pillow and a snort escapes me.
“Are you comfortable?”
“Quite.”
“Do you sleep in the meadows with Seismet?”
“Sometimes. I don’t require sleep as you do, so most of my time is spent by the hot spring. Once you introduce me to your Valtrue, I’ll spend more time around here. It isn’t time for me to make myself known within the Godsdawn, though, so I won’t be venturing there.”
“Yeah, I don’t like the idea of the other gods knowing about you. Well, aside from Lambrit, Yemi, and Rose, I guess Havar’s ass as well, whenever you’re ready to meet them.”
“I’m looking forward to meeting them. Powerful gods the four of them are and amazing allies to you. I’m ready to be introduced to them whenever you’re comfortable with it. After your Valtrue, though.”
I’m not surprised he already knows about them. My first step in truly accepting these connections is going to be acknowledging that V and Seismet have knowledge and understanding of things far beyond my comprehension.
So it’s best I don’t worry myself about it.
“Speaking of my Valtrue, can I ask you something?”
“Ask whatever you please.”
“You said that Veilatara only have one connection their entire lives. How is it that Verlet is connected to the guys? And how is their connection fully in place with that contraption on Verlet?”
“Ah, yes, I wondered if you picked up on that. Their connection isn’t fully in place, but its strength has naturally built over time.
The brothers may not understand or may not even be willing to accept it right now as they still have much growing to do together, but they are one.
The process of bringing them into this realm connected them irrevocably. ”
The process…fuck, I hadn’t even given that much thought.
There’s only one goddess, the Beginning Goddess of Creation, who’d have the power to bless a pregnancy for another Beginning God.
She wouldn’t have, though. It’s the Valories law. They forbade the Beginning Gods from having children.
The God of Obliteration disobeyed them monumentally somehow.
Shit, what if that’s the reason the Valories are using the guys now?
They aren’t supposed to exist, but they do.
Wait…he said irrevocably.