Chapter 34
Chapter Thirty-Four
Elizabeth took the stairs slowly, one hand sliding along the banister as though it might tilt away from her if she did not keep contact with it. Her head swam when she reached the last step. She paused, counted a breath, then another, until the floor steadied enough to permit dignity.
The drawing room was nearly overwhelming before she even crossed the threshold—laughter spilling out in a bright, relieved rush, edged with hysteria rather than joy. Mama’s voice rode above it, Lydia’s beneath, the whole sound a jumble of triumph and nerves.
Elizabeth reached the doorway and had to catch herself there, her fingers closing around the frame until the room stopped spinning long enough for her to enter.
Mr Wickham stood near the hearth, one red-sleeved arm resting easily against the mantel, his posture relaxed in the manner of a man who had already been forgiven for everything he might ever do.
Mr Denny also stood nearby, flushed and pleased, accepting Mama’s effusive praise with a grin that suggested he would dine out on this story for years.
“Oh, there she is!” Mama cried, catching sight of Elizabeth. “My dear, my brave girl, you must come and thank Mr Wickham properly. Such presence of mind! Such gallantry! Why, if he had not been there—”
“If I had not been there,” Wickham said modestly, turning toward Elizabeth, “Mr Hill would have been hard-pressed indeed, but no doubt would have managed well enough on his own.”
His smile softened when it found her, as though the room had arranged itself expressly for that moment.
“Mr Wickham,” she said, stopping at a polite distance—where she could discreetly rest her hand on the back of the sofa for support. The effort of keeping her voice even cost more than she liked. “My father tells me you acted with great courage today. I am very glad of it.”
“I should say so,” Lydia burst in. “He fired without hesitation! Mrs Hill told us all about it. Kitty, tell her!”
Kitty nodded vigorously. “Someone was trying to knock down Mr Hill, even as he barred the door to the house! Think of it, Lizzy—why, I daresay Mr Hill meant to save our lives, and Mr Wickham saved Mr Hill’s. He did not even flinch!”
Wickham inclined his head, accepting the praise with perfect modesty. “There was little time for flinching.”
Elizabeth studied him as he spoke. His coat was brushed, his boots clean again, the chaos of the afternoon already smoothed away. Only a faint scorch along one sleeve hinted that anything at all had gone amiss.
“Mr Hill… he is well? And I trust that you were not injured, Mr Wickham?” she asked.
“No more than my pride would allow,” he said lightly. “Your Mr Hill is, at present, supping in the kitchen, quite sound. And even the fellow who was struck will live, so I am told. A shoulder wound. Painful, but not mortal.”
Mama clasped her hands. “Providential! Entirely providential. And to think—such restraint! Such mercy!”
Elizabeth nodded, though the word mercy echoed oddly in her mind. She had not seen the shot, only felt its sound tear through her. She wondered—briefly, unwisely—how near Mr Hill had been, how narrow the margin.
Mr Denny cleared his throat. “Colonel Forster thought it best we remain the night,” he said, clearly pleased with the importance of it.
“Or perhaps another day or two, if necessary, until matters settle fully. I understand he has sent Saunders and Carter to Netherfield to perform the same office, and you may be assured that he has similarly remembered the rest of your neighbours.”
“Yes, yes,” Mama said. “How very good of the colonel! We are quite honored.”
Elizabeth’s gaze flicked to her father, seated apart near the window. He watched the room with the distant focus of a man counting costs rather than blessings. When their eyes met, his expression softened—but he did not smile.
“You are very kind to stay,” Elizabeth said, returning her attention to Wickham. “It eases my mind to know my family is guarded.”
He looked at her closely then, as though measuring something beneath the words. “That is good,” he said. “Peace of mind is not to be undervalued.”
Elizabeth tried to smile. The effort arrived late.
The room had begun to tilt, not violently, but enough that the edges no longer agreed with one another. Candlelight pulled apart into overlapping halos; voices lost their owners and drifted free of faces. She shifted her weight to correct it, and found the floor unhelpfully distant.
Her hand went back to the back of the sofa again. She did not remember letting go of it.
“Lizzy?” Jane’s voice threaded through the noise, faintly sharpened.
Elizabeth opened her mouth to answer and discovered that the words required more breath than she possessed.
That was when Papa rose.
It was not abrupt. It was not urgent. He merely set his glass aside and stood, as though an idea had occurred to him that could not wait.
“My dear,” he said mildly, crossing to her side, “I wonder if you might spare me a few moments before you retire. I fear I was, after all, obliged to sell off some grain today just to appease our visitors. The figures have been giving my eyes quite enough trouble for one day, and I should value a second opinion, while I can still tell a seven from a one.”
Mama’s head snapped round. “Really, Mr Bennet, you will turn the girl into a steward yet. Or a clerk! Must she always be dragged off to reckon columns when there are heroes to be thanked?”
“I assure you,” he replied, already offering Elizabeth his arm, “she has a natural aptitude for both sympathy and sums. A rare combination. I should be a fool not to exploit it.”
Elizabeth let him take her weight. The movement of the room eased at once—not because it had stopped spinning, but because she no longer had to manage it alone.
They reached the hall. The door closed behind them, muffling the laughter into something distant and survivable.
“Well?” her father asked softly, bending his head toward hers as though inspecting a confidence. “Are you quite recovered? Or merely too stubborn to stay in bed where you belong?”
The answer wavered. “I am…” The sentence failed to complete itself. The floor lurched, nearer now.
His hand tightened on her arm, and he leaned closer, his mouth near her ear. “Say the word,” he murmured, “and I will have you married before the candles burn down. I believe there is a gentleman in that room who would leap at the chance.”
She shook her head. “No. Please. Papa, just… take me upstairs.”
“Of course, my dear,” he said, as though she had asked for nothing more taxing than a book. He turned her gently toward the stairs, and Elizabeth let the world narrow to the steady fact of his arm beneath her hand.
And that was the last thing she knew before the world spun once, then went dark.
The clock on the mantel marked the quarter hour with maddening precision.
Darcy crossed the length of the room, turned, crossed it again.
The papers he had taken up lay abandoned where he had set them down, the fire burning lower than he would typically countenance, but he had not permitted any disturbance to his ruminations.
He adjusted the grate once, then again, though the heat in the room was already mostly gone.
Foolishness. Idle nerves. The natural consequence of too much talk and too little certainty.
The thought held for several steps—no more.
The Lady.
The image—the very framing of the words and the answering call on himself—rose before his eyes without invitation, and his body shuddered recognition before his mind could intercede.
Heat gathered beneath his collar, then broke.
For an instant, the room wavered, overlaid with the memory of flame where no flame burned: light too bright, air too thin, a sense of loss so complete it left no room for sound.
He halted, one hand braced against the back of a chair until the vision loosened its grip.
Enough!
He moved again, deliberately this time, counting his steps as he went. The dream was nothing. A trick of exhaustion.
Elizabeth’s face intruded without warning, clear as if she stood before him—eyes intent, mouth set with that particular resolve she wore when she refused to yield ground.
The memory dragged after it another, more recent and far less abstract: Bingley’s hand, unsteady on the page; the careful phrasing that had failed to disguise urgency.
She collapsed again.
Darcy stopped short.
The house felt suddenly slanted. The walls pressed closer than they had a moment before, the familiar order of the room offering no purchase at all.
Hertfordshire lay at a remove he could not cross.
Whatever was happening there—whatever strain had brought her down once more—was unfolding beyond his reach, and he was left pacing a well-appointed prison with nothing but conjecture for company.
He turned sharply, seized his coat from the stand, and shrugged into it with unnecessary force. The air beyond his door, cold and unaccommodating, promised at least movement.
That would do.
Darcy took up his hat and went out.
Darcy entered the club with the expectation of order.
The hall was warm, the lamps already lit against the early dark. A servant relieved him of his coat without remark, and another stepped forward to take his hat. The familiar exchange comforted him for a moment—the small, expected acknowledgments of place and belonging.
“Good evening, sir.”
“Good evening.” He paused, glancing past the steward toward the reading room. “Has Mr Harcourt arrived?”
The man consulted his memory rather than any ledger. “Not yet, sir. We had word he was delayed in Norfolk.”
Norfolk, then. Darcy nodded once. Harcourt would have had opinions on the weather there—on the flooding reported along the lower fields, the late frosts. A sensible conversation, the like of which he sorely needed.
“And Mr Denham?”