Chapter 26
LENI
I don’t wait until the water turns all the way hot before I step under the spray of the shower.
My body jolts in shock and a shiver shoots down my spine as the cool water hits my skin.
I breathe through the urge to get back out until the water turns warm and then slowly hot.
My muscles relax, and I sigh into the steaming air.
The last few days passed in a blur. I feel like a robot going to school and participating in classes, while a threat continuously looms over us.
I try to act normal, but I must be a bad actress because both Colt and Nix constantly ask me if I’m all right.
I tell them I’m fine, but we all know it’s a lie.
How can I be fine when our lives are a complete clusterfuck right now?
I wet my hair and wash it with my favorite shampoo before I shave my legs and armpits.
Lathering my body with shower gel, I massage it into my skin while remembering how the guys gave me a bath the other day.
They have never been that gentle with me before and though it has been nice to see this softer side of them, something about it feels off.
I feel like the guys are not being themselves around me. It’s like they are pretending to be someone they are not.
Are they trying to change who they are for me?
While I rinse off, I let the question run through my mind. What if that’s exactly what they are doing? Somehow that thought makes me sad. I don’t want them to change. But why? Why in the heck would I not want them to change?
The answer lies on the tip of my tongue, but I’m too embarrassed and disappointed in myself to even think about it. But of course, now I can’t stop thinking about it.
I like their darkness. I crave that depraved part of them, and I want them to hurt me sometimes.
I shake my head at the realization. Something in me wants them in a way I shouldn’t.
Or at least that’s what it feels like. It feels wrong to want this, yet thinking about them pushing me to my limits and beyond has my pussy clench.
Yes, there is definitely something wrong with me.
Turning the water off, I step out of the shower and wrap myself in a large, fluffy towel.
I use a smaller towel to dry my hair while I look at myself in the mirror.
My cuts and bruises from the accident are all pretty much healed now.
Only some faint yellow spots remain on my arm, but I guess even those will be gone by tomorrow.
I wonder if my marks are the reason for the guys treating me like I’m made out of glass, or was it the freak out I had last time we had sex? My guess is the latter. How can I tell them that I’m ready to have sex again, sex without them holding back? Because I can handle it, right?
Staring at my reflection, I let all my questions, doubts, and fears run through my mind until my hair is almost dry.
Taking a deep breath, I straighten my spine and reach for the edge of the towel to tug it free. It falls into a heap around my feet, and I step out of it to walk to the door. My hand is trembling slightly as I reach for the handle to open it.
Ignoring my shaking fingers, I walk down the hallway and into the living room, where Colt and Nix are watching TV. They both look up almost at the same time. Their eyes go wide, and Colt’s jaw actually drops.
“Hi,” I say dumbly, while standing completely naked in front of them.
“Hi.” Nix grins back, sitting up a little straighter.
“What are you doing?” Colt asks while his gaze roams my body lustfully.
What am I doing? Trying to seduce them, I guess. Which I’m apparently pretty bad at. What if they don’t want me anymore?
Doubt weasels its way into my mind, but I don’t let it take hold before clarifying, “I was thinking we could have sex.”
“Okay.” Nix is on his feet a moment later, reaching for the hem of his shirt to pull it over his head.
“Hold on a second.” Colt stands up as well, grabbing Nix by the arm before he can get to me.
My heart sinks. Colt doesn’t want this. He doesn’t want me.
“It’s fine if you don’t want to,” I blurt out. Crossing my arms over my chest, I suddenly feel as naked as I am.
“What? No, it’s not that. I just want to hear that you are sure about this. A lot has been going on and last time…” Colt trails off, probably not wanting to bring up the past. He runs his hand through his hair before continuing. “I guess I’m just surprised. You never initiate, that’s all.”
“Oh…” I guess I didn’t think about it that way. “It’s just you haven’t initiated anything, and I feel a little… I don’t know… neglected.”
“We didn’t mean for you to feel like that,” Nix chimes in. “We thought you needed some time.”
“And I did, but I also need you—both of you.” My voice falters into a whisper as I admit it out loud.
My cheeks heat, and I look between Nix and Colt, scanning their faces, trying to figure out what they are thinking.
Both of them stare at me like they don’t know what to say, so I tell them what’s on my mind.
“I don’t want you to treat me like I’m breakable, either.
I can handle you… both of you,” I say, keeping my voice laced with confidence.
“Are you sure about that?” Nix asks with a smirk.
I nod and smile at them. A moment of silence passes before Colt’s lips finally turn up, and I know he is on board. I almost sigh in relief.
Unfolding my arms, I wrap them around Colt’s neck as soon as he is close enough.
His lips find mine in a searing kiss as he picks me up and carries me into the bedroom, with Nix following us close behind.
I wrap my legs around Colt, loving how the rough material of his jeans rubs against my bare pussy.
He drops me onto the bed, where I bounce a little on the mattress. Before I can recover, Nix is on me. He must have gotten undressed on the way because his naked body is covering mine. He spreads my legs and positions himself between my thighs. Then he enters me with one harsh thrust.
I groan at the rapid intrusion, thankful that I’m wet enough to take him like this.
My eyes squeeze shut and my nails rake over his back as he stretches my walls almost painfully.
He doesn’t wait for me to adjust and get comfortable.
He simply starts fucking me like a starving man having his first meal.
He snakes his arms around my torso, hooking his hands over my shoulders so he can hold me against him while he thrusts into me violently.
His face rests in the crook of my neck, his mouth opens, and he presses his tongue against my sensitive skin.
He licks me softly before sinking his teeth into my flesh.
I yelp out in surprise, more than pain. Instinctively, I try to wiggle away, but Nix has me in an iron grip. He chuckles darkly, fanning hot breath against my wet skin. Goosebumps pebble over my arms and a shiver runs down my back as my pussy clenches down on Nix’s cock.
He snickers again, before roughly sucking on the spot he just bit. Pain and pleasure courses through me, all of it rushing between my thighs, where Nix’s cock impales me with every thrust.
I’m so overwhelmed with what Nix is doing to me, I’m only vaguely aware of Colt’s hand wrapping around my ankle. He moves my leg up, spreading me open for his brother to go even deeper.
“Fuck, how does this cunt feel so good?” Nix grits out while fucking me into the mattress.
“I feel you clenching down, slut. You like when we fuck you like this. Like you’re our sex doll.
We can do whatever we want to you. Use all your holes until you bleed and there is nothing you can do about it… ”
His depraved words should have me revolting, instead it sends jolts of pleasure to my core.
“You’re nothing but a filthy whore, a cum dumpster for us to use. Just keep your legs spread so we can have your pussy and ass whenever and however we want…”
He keeps grunting vile things into my ear while his thrusts become more erratic. His fingers dig into my shoulders as he pushes me down onto his cock. He is so deep inside of me, I can feel the tip bumping against my cervix.
Nix shoves his cock into me a few more times before I explode. A tidal wave of pleasure washes over me, taking my breath away. My whole body shudders while an intense orgasm ripples through me. My heart races in my chest as I try to get my breathing under control.
Nix doesn’t stop fucking me through my release, which only makes it last longer and feel stronger.
When I’m finally coming down, my body goes slack in Nix’s hold, and he slows himself at last. He is breathing heavily too, and I can feel the sheen of sweat between our bodies.
Now that he is going slower and the high from my orgasm is fading, I can feel my pussy is already getting sore. Each of Nix’s lazy pumps sends tiny ripples of pain through my core. Nix was anything but gentle, which was exactly what I asked for. But I can’t help but wonder how much is yet to come?
Nix suddenly pulls out and untangles himself from me. My eyes fly open to see him and Colt switching places. Colt is also naked now, his muscular torso flexing with each movement. His cock is rock hard, pointing straight at me.
I lick my dry lips and look up at Colt through hooded eyes.
When I see the way he stares at me, I swallow hard.
His pupils are dilated, his eyes looking almost black.
His shoulders are tense, and his hands are balled into fists by his side.
He looks unhinged, almost mad, and for a moment, I think I might have done something wrong.
“I want to do things to you, Leni… devious things. I want to hurt you.” He admits through clenched teeth. He looks like he is holding on by a thin string, and I’m not sure what he is going to do next. Right now, he is unpredictable.