Chapter 15
Lexi
I'm less nervous being in Edur's room to have sex for a second time. It feels a little strange to be planning it out like this, but I know that's how it's going to have to work for me. If I have the time to prepare for the interaction, then it'll be less intimidating.
He's made the room nice again, and has set up some drinks and snacks on his desk, along with a box of condoms that I messaged him about yesterday. I don't know if we're going to need them tonight, but it's better to be safe in case we do.
"Can I get you anything?" Edur asks.
I shake my head. "Just you."
"I'm all yours. Did you bring your list?"
I tap the side of my head. "It's all up here."
"Do you want to share it with me?"
I bite my bottom lip, trying to think about the best way to do this. "Maybe we should kiss first? I've been thinking about it, and I do think that it sends the right signals to the rest of my body."
He steps closer and reaches out to put a hand on my waist. The cold of his skin seeps through my dress, making me think about it on my bare skin.
I can't fully put into words how it feels, but knowing that this is going to lead to us having sex makes it feel different from the other times that we touch.
It almost feels like desire, but I don't think it is, especially as I know that if I step away, I'm not going to feel disappointed.
Edur leans in, his cool breath fanning against my lips.
I close my eyes and give myself over to the kiss.
The cold of his lips on mine makes them tingle in a pleasant way, and makes me think that one of the things on my list to try is going to be enjoyable.
I feel myself relaxing, especially as I realise that I've come into his room tonight thinking that I'm going to enjoy myself, which is so far away from any other experience I've had surrounding sex.
It's not about Edur though, it's about me.
I've felt safe talking about it for the first time, and I've admitted the reasons behind what I want.
It changes the way I feel towards the whole interaction.
I slip my hand down his chest until I get to the bottom of his shirt, slipping it under and feeling the cold, hard planes of his stomach and chest underneath.
The kiss ends, but he doesn't pull away from me. "Are you ready to tell me what you want?" he asks.
I nod and look up at his sparkling blue eyes that are looking down at me with what I think is desire, but I'm not entirely sure. Though the hard cock I can feel against my leg certainly suggests that it is. I take a deep breath. "I want to try oral."
He swallows hard. "We can do that," he says. "Do you have anything in particular you want me to do?"
"Well, I don't really know what the best way to do this is. Should you stand? Or sit? Or lie down?"
He shuffles slightly. "You want to do it to me?"
I nod.
"I thought you wanted to receive." His voice is raspy and deep.
"Maybe after?"
"Okay, we can do that. I think maybe on the bed will be more comfortable? I'm not going to lie, I don't have a lot of thoughts right now."
"There's one thing," I say before moving.
"You don't want me to come?" he guesses.
I nod. "I'm sorry, is that bad? We can do something after to make it happen. I think I want to try more tonight."
He reaches out and cups my cheek in his hand, smoothing his thumb over my cheek. "I'm okay with that," he promises. "You can stop anything that makes you uncomfortable."
"The same goes for you," I respond.
"It does."
"All right, then let's have sex," I announce before bursting out laughing.
Edur chuckles.
"Sorry, that just sounded strange. I probably shouldn't have announced it."
He shrugs. "It's only our second time," he points out. "Maybe in the future, we won't feel the need to do that, but it's okay for now."
"Yes, true." I step back and pull my dress over my head, leaving me in the underwear I chose for tonight. He looks over my body in a way that makes me feel beautiful. "You might need to take your clothes off too."
"I got distracted." He shrugs off his shirt and lets it fall to the floor, the rest of his clothing, and my underwear, joining it soon after.
He gets onto the bed, and I go to join him, brushing my hair to one side and leaning in to kiss him.
I swipe my tongue against his bottom lip like I did at the museum and get a groan from him in response.
I feel something shift within me at the sound.
It's not exactly desire, but it is a reaction to what I'm hearing.
I break away and trail kisses down his neck and chest, tracing over the patterns of snowflakes on his chest. I'm not sure if what I'm doing is right, but he feels like he's responding well to it, so I carry on.
His skin is cold against my tongue, but that doesn't put me off either. It's pleasant in many ways.
I move further down, my lips grazing against the smooth, cold skin of his stomach.
I'm a little nervous, but I'm mostly excited.
I want to do this. I want to make him feel good.
I look up and find him watching me with hooded eyes full of desire.
I know he's not going to force this, but I can also see from his expression that he wants it.
I position myself between his legs, holding his gaze as I dip my head and circle my tongue around the head of his cock.
He lets out a groan, letting me know that what I'm doing is right.
Or it's right for him, so I don't suppose anything else matters.
I wrap my fingers around his length, feeling it twitch beneath my grasp, and continue to tease him with my tongue.
His breathing comes short and fast, which only urges me to continue.
It feels good to be able to get this response to him, and I can feel my own body responding to the situation.
Slowly, I take him into my mouth, the chill feeling a little like ice as I take his cock deeper.
I pause, temporarily worrying that I'm going to freak out about this, but it doesn't come.
I slowly start to move, taking him in and out of my mouth and enjoying the noises that are coming from him as I do.
I find my rhythm as my confidence grows.
I use the flat of my tongue to try and add more pressure, getting a long moan from Edur in response, and it almost feels as if his cock swells in my mouth.
I'm not entirely sure that's possible, but maybe it is.
He slips a hand into my hair, but he doesn't use it to push me down, or make me do anything, it more seems to be a response to how good he's feeling.
His hips jerk, and he lets out another moan. "Lexi, stop," he manages to get out, the words heavy with his pleasure.
It takes a moment for the words to register, but when they do, I pull back and look up at him. "Are you okay?"
"Very okay," he murmurs. "I was just getting dangerously close."
"Oh." I shift on the bed so that I can reach his face again, and he draws me to him so that he can kiss me deeply. "It was good?" I whisper against his lips.
"Very," he responds. "Do you still want to try the other way?"
I bite my lip and nod. "If you want to."
A smile spreads over his face. "I definitely want to. Lie back." He gently moves me into position as he gives me the instructions, moving until he's hovering over me. "Is there anything you don't want me to do?"
"I don't know," I admit, feeling a sense of anticipation I don't expect growing within me.
"Then you'll have to tell me if you want to stop.
" He leans in to press his lips against mine, kissing me deeply as he runs his hand over my shoulder and down my body.
His touch leaves a trail of ice behind it, only making everything feel more sensitive.
He moves to my neck, then down my body until he gets to my nipples, moving slowly every time.
He flicks my nipple with his tongue, and I let out a small noise in response.
Even though he touched them before, it feels different when he uses his tongue.
I close my eyes and lean my head back, giving myself over to the sensations.
The cold of his tongue only adds to everything.
Though I don't have much to compare it to, I don't think anyone has spent this much time pleasuring me before.
Edur slowly moves away from my nipples, but the cold lingers a little longer, and the air brushes against them, making everything feel like it lasts longer.
Before I fully register what's happening, he's between my legs.
I open them wider without thinking about it.
He looks up at me, his sparkling blue eyes full of adoration.
He holds my gaze as he draws his hand up my leg, and then brushes his fingers against my entrance. I let out a small gasp at the light pressure, but it's not enough to distract me from the surprise on his face.
"What?" I ask a little breathlessly.
"You're very wet," he responds.
"Oh." My cheeks heat in response. "I guess I liked it when you were reacting to me, so my body responded."
He gives me a lopsided grin. "That's fun."
"Is it?"
"Knowing you find it hot? Yes."
"Oh." I suck in a breath.
"Are you ready?"
"Mmhmm." More ready than I think I've ever been for anything like this.
He hooks his arms beneath my legs and pulls me closer to him so that he can lower his face to my centre.
The moment his tongue touches me, it's the only thing that I can focus on.
I can't even tell what he's doing, especially with the cold of his tongue only adding to the sensations.
My mind starts to clear of thoughts, and the tingles of an approaching release growing within me.
Edur continues to use his tongue, sending me closer to the edge.
"I'm going to..." I trail off, not able to find the words, but wanting to warn him in case he doesn't want to go this far. If anything, he seems encouraged by my words rather than chased away, and it's enough to tip me over the edge.
My body starts to shake and I grip hold of the sheets as the most intense release I've ever experienced travels through me. Edur doesn't let up, not even when my whole body relaxes, which I'm sure he can feel along with me.
"Stop," I murmur.
He responds instantly, pulling away.
"Too sensitive," I say by way of explanation.
"I'm sorry."
I shake my head. "No sorry necessary."
A pleased smile spreads over his face. "You enjoyed it?"
"Yes. Did you?"
"Definitely."
I look down to see that his cock is still standing hard and ready, a clear indication that he's telling the truth. Not that I think he'd lie to me. "We should do something about that," I say when he notices me looking.
"Only if you want to."
"It would be a shame to waste the condoms," I say.
He chuckles. "I don't think they expire very quickly."
"I'd still like to," I respond.
"Okay. He gets off the bed and grabs the box, pulling one out. "Just so I know, have you done this before? Or..."
"It's not my first time," I respond. "But I haven't done it very much, so go slow?"
He nods and rolls the condom onto his cock. I watch intently, making sure to work out how I feel so that I can put a stop to it if I need to, but I don't think so. Right now, I'm feeling safe and secure. I don't want to stop this, I want to experience it.
He makes his way back to the bed and draws me to him so that he can kiss me. I lean back and shift so that he can settle between my legs, but he touches me first, using his fingers to tease me. I let out a small gasp at how good it feels.
"I want to make sure you're ready," he murmurs.
"I am. I think."
He reaches down between us so that he can guide his cock to my entrance.
I tense a little, but then remind myself that I'm safe.
He waits until I nod for him to continue and slowly pushes himself inside me.
I close my eyes and focus on the way it feels to have him inside me.
It's a new sensation, and it does feel as if I'm stretched beyond what I've experienced before.
It's not unpleasant, though I do feel every part of it more because of the cold spreading from Edur, even through the condom.
"Are you okay?" he asks, his voice thick with need.
"Yes. But slow."
"Slow is good, or I won't last," he murmurs. He does exactly that, moving ever so slowly inside me.
It takes a moment or two, but I soon find myself relaxing into the movements, spurred on by the sounds of pleasure coming from Edur.
I shift my hips, allowing him to move deeper.
I wrap my legs around him and let out a small gasp as the change of angle means that something presses against my clit, sending a bolt of pleasure through me.
Even with the distraction of his own pleasure, Edur seems to notice and slips his arm between us so that he can use his finger to press on it more firmly.
The moan that comes from me is stronger this time.
The release that starts to build is familiar and not at the same time.
It builds quickly and intensely, taking over my entire body.
My whole body contracts, making Edur groan as I grow tighter around his cock.
But I'm barely paying attention as the release takes over, making stars dance behind my eyelids and all thoughts disappear.
My skin tingles and I can't focus on anything except for the pleasure coursing through me.
Edur groans and leans his head against my shoulder as his movements change, and I have to assume that means he's reached his own release too. He thrusts into me one final time, and then collapses onto the bed beside me.
We're both breathing heavily.
"Was that okay?" he asks.
I nod. "Yes. It's never been like that." My words come out a little hoarse, but I know it's going to improve as everything settles.
He reaches out to take my hand and gives it a squeeze.
I turn to look at him, meeting his gaze and finding a lot of emotions in his eyes that I feel myself.
With him, I'm safe, and the fact that he's going to listen to me and what I want only adds to that.
It makes me think that we can work out how to have a relationship and a mate bond, and that fills me with hope.