Chapter 18 #2
“It should be done today,” Arthur said. He’d never looked like he carried a heavier burden than right now. “Belaboring it will only draw more of a crowd. I want to send a clear message without stirring up undue fear.”
“What are you—” Vera’s words came out so quietly that no one heard her.
“It’ll be the first in your reign, won’t it?” Lancelot asked with a frightening gentleness.
Arthur nodded.
“The first what?” Vera asked. Trepidation had driven breath behind her voice, making her question sound like a demand.
At last, Arthur met her gaze. He held it steadily. “Execution.”
She couldn’t make sense of the word at first. On her arrival to this time, she’d assumed a brutal society, a reality rife with cruel punishments. It was a notion she’d quickly been dispelled of. They’d built a different world. Arthur dreamed of a new sort of nation, and he’d made it and—
He was going to execute the man who attacked her.
It was all shattering, everything they’d fought for. Everything she was supposed to help them save. And it was Vera’s fault. That man was going to die because she hadn’t held her tongue. It was her fault.
A pained sound escaped Vera before she found any words.
“No. No, you can’t.” Camelot was different.
This England, it was better. It had been better …
until she arrived. She would fix it. She would beg.
She would plead. “I never meant for any of this to happen. I’m sorry.
I should have stayed silent. I shouldn’t have pretended to be her—”
“You haven’t done anything wrong.” Lancelot spoke over her, trying to cover her slip before Percival or Matilda heard it.
“There must be another punishment. He—” her eyes shot to Arthur’s wrapped hand, “he didn’t mean to hurt you. It wouldn’t have killed me—”
“You were holding the child, Guinevere,” Matilda said this, and gently. “If he had hit you, it certainly would have killed the baby.”
Conscious thought was gone from Vera’s mind, replaced by rapid bursts that didn’t quite connect with one another. She crammed her eyes closed, trying to shut it all out, but all she could imagine behind her eyelids was death. A dead child in her arms. The man. Vincent.
Her fault.
Arthur could fix this. He loved his people. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Please. Please don’t—”
“It’s not your fault.” Vera thought Arthur said it. It may have simply been what she wanted to hear. Her vision went blurry. She couldn’t see him clearly.
“I don’t want this.” Her voice was rising, heedless of what she was saying. “I’ll leave. I’ll go back to Glastonbury—I should have never come here. I can’t be her—”
“It’s not about you!” She heard that. Arthur yelled it so forcefully, so furiously, how could she not?
Vera sucked a deep breath in, and her vision cleared enough to find revulsion etched in the lines of his face.
“It is my decision. That man committed treason. His actions are a threat to my rule and the kingdom we have built. He dies. You have no say in this.”
It wasn’t about her. It never had been. It was about his rule. Of course. That shouldn’t have made her angry. Vera knew she was nothing more than a placeholder for Guinevere.
She gritted her teeth and glared back. Anything softer than anger would have left her sobbing.
When Arthur spoke, his voice was quiet though startlingly stern. “It has nothing to do with you. Do you understand?”
She’d break. She’d cry if she spoke.
“She does—” Lancelot began, but Arthur stopped him with a glare before turning it back on Vera.
“Do you?”
It was a lie. It had everything to do with her, and Vera despised herself for it. But in that moment, she hated him, too, and that made it easier.
“Yes, sire.” She threw the word like a dagger.
“Who performs the execution in the absence of a mage?” Percival broke the overlong quiet that followed. “Merlin won’t be back until tomorrow.”
“I’ll do it.” The response came from the door, startling them all.
Lancelot and Percival rose automatically and assumed defensive postures, unmatched by the man who stood by the closed door with his hands clasped in front of his dingy brown robe.
His eyes were deepset in his skull. It might have been this that emphasized the perturbed scowl carved into his features.
His inky dark hair wasn’t long or short.
It lazed about down to the middle of his ears, the distinct appearance of someone who meant to have short hair but couldn’t be bothered to maintain it.
Coupled with the scowl, the eyes, and a sharp nose, Vera found him rather alarming.
Percival’s open-mouthed shock made Lancelot crack a half smile, though his sword was also half unsheathed. “Who the bloody fuck are you?” Percival barked. “How did you get in here?”
The man didn’t answer. Instead, he said flatly, “I’ll perform the execution.”
Percival’s lips moved in exasperation, though no sound came out.
“That’s a generous offer from an unidentified stranger,” Lancelot said with a quirked eyebrow, “but all executions must be performed by a mage.”
“I’m aware,” the sullen man answered, followed by more thick silence.
A hum of recognition came from Arthur’s direction. “You’re Mage Gawain.”
Vera jolted. That was a name from Arthurian legend. A knight, one of Arthur’s knights. She was sure of it. For the hundredth time since her arrival, she loathed herself for never taking enough interest in the legend to have read a single damn book about it. But this man wasn’t a knight.
Gawain stared at Arthur’s injured hand as he gave one curt nod, his hair curtaining his eyes with the motion. “I’ve only just arrived.”
“I thank you.” Arthur inclined his head. “And I’m sorry this will be your welcome.”
“Treason is the highest crime against you.” Gawain’s dark eyes scanned them and pointedly lingered on Vera. “It’s my duty in Merlin’s absence, but I must insist on seeing to your wound first.”
“It’s already been tended by the physician.”
Gawain shrugged. “If you’re content with being permanently maimed.” He offered no further explanation.
“Are you being deliberately obtuse?” Percival stared at Gawain, aghast. “Please elaborate on what you mean.”
Gawain’s sunken eyes stayed on Percival for a long moment. “The wound was caused by magic. It must be healed as such.”
“You have a healing gift?” Lancelot asked with his head cocked to the side.
Gawain nodded. “They are rare. I am fortunate.”
They must have been extremely rare, for even Percival was cowed enough by the revelation to go slack-jawed with awe.
It brought Vera’s dread back, though. The hands that would heal would soon perform the execution.
She wanted time to slow down. She wanted his work on Arthur to take hours …
something that would save them from what was to come. There had to be a way out of this.
But it all moved in a flurry. No one had to tell Vera that she needed to attend the execution, that Guinevere needed to stand by Arthur in the wake of Percival’s revelations.
It was a foregone conclusion, though she couldn’t remember how she got to the town square.
They didn’t have a designated site for executions, but the square was chosen for its logistics; a place for Arthur to oversee the act with Vera at his side (a raised box that had ironically been built for observing Camelot’s many celebrations) and ample surrounding space for …
spectators. The square was nearly full, speckled with dejected and frightened faces who’d grown comfortable in a time of exuberant peace.
At the very center was the man with his hands bound, knelt on a makeshift wooden platform.
She couldn’t see the tears from where she stood, but Vera heard his weeping.
He was flanked by Lancelot in full formal regalia and sharply contrasted by Gawain on the other side in his dingy, brown robe.
Vera also recognized Father John, the castle’s priest, who stood over the man, offering last rites before he backed away and disappeared into the crowd.
Soldiers were situated in a wide ring to make a bubble of space between the spectators and the main event. Percival and Randall bookended a cluster of soldiers guarding her and Arthur, their backs to them.
And then it was time. Vera’s legs shook so violently that it was a wonder she could stand. She clenched her teeth shut to keep them from chattering.
Arthur stepped forward to make the pronouncement.
“Joseph, son of Cuthbert the carpenter,” he said, and Vera’s breath hitched.
She hadn’t thought to ask his name before now.
“You are unquestionably guilty of treason for attacking your king and queen, endangering not only their lives but those of countless witnesses present. You are hereby sentenced to death.” There was no direct mention of his verbal assault, but it was the reason that he would not be offered last words.
Lancelot’s face was taut and his expression hard as he stepped behind the man—Joseph—and held him by the shoulders. He nodded to Gawain.
It was going to happen. She caught Arthur’s movement in her periphery and felt the weight of his stare on her. She couldn’t bear the thought of seeing his hatred.
She told herself it was curiosity, but the truth was that loneliness had her turning to him. In his eyes, she found fear and was overcome with the unnerving sense that he needed her. No, not her—Guinevere.
But she reached for him on instinct and would have stopped herself short if he had not moved toward her at precisely the same moment. The fingers of his bandaged hand met her untarnished one and closed around it, holding tightly.
Joseph’s crying rose and shifted to shouts, and the tender moment was gone like mist on the wind.
Gawain looped his left arm around Joseph’s head, bracing his neck firmly in place beneath the chin. In his other hand, he held a thin-bladed silver dagger.
Vera gasped. When there’d been no guillotine, no rope, no massive sword, she’d assumed the mechanism for the deed would be magic. Never a dagger. Sweat beaded on the back of her neck, though the day was cool.
“Close your eyes,” Arthur murmured, his lips hardly moving. “Please don’t watch.”
Her shock at his gentle plea nearly stole her breath, but Vera had to watch. She couldn’t look away when that man’s blood was on her hands.
Gawain struck swiftly, piercing Joseph’s chest in the center, all the way to the blade’s hilt.
Joseph screamed, and it was the sound of an animal caught and made prey.
He gasped and squirmed beneath the mage’s grasp.
With every pull and cry, blood spurted from the wound, but Gawain remained motionless for one long inhale and exhale before he jerked his own head to the side.
It was as if the motion pulled the thread of life cleanly from Joseph’s body. The tension collapsed from his muscles, and he crumpled from man to corpse in a single blink.