Chapter 15
CHERYL
Alma turned ninety-eight on the second Saturday in June, so we did the cookout at Denise's, because Denise has the yard.
That was Denise's diplomacy, not mine. She called Alma in April and said the driveway situation at the house was getting hard on Pauline, which was true, and Alma said fine in the voice of a woman who knows she's being managed, which she was.
Between Christmas and June there were four gatherings, and I counted them, and I'm not embarrassed about that.
New Year's at Mitch's, a buffet, so it didn't count.
A christening in February in a church hall with round tables of eight, which didn't really count either, though Tom sat down next to me before anybody assigned anything.
Easter at the house, which counted, and which happened the way it happened.
And then a Sunday in April with no occasion attached to it at all, just Alma wanting company — seven people at the walnut table with two leaves out and chairs to spare.
Nobody used a card that day. Tom pulled out the seat next to his and put his hand on the back of it, and I sat down in it.
Alma looked at the pair of us for about a second and a half, then asked Pauline whether she wanted the light on.
That one mattered more to me than Christmas did.
There was nothing to be brave about. It was a Sunday.
June was ninety-one degrees. There was a pop-up canopy over the picnic table that Mitch put up wrong and Tom took down and put up right. There were forty-one hot dogs, because Denise's husband cannot estimate, and a sheet cake from the Giant Eagle with ALMA 98 on it in blue gel.
I brought the sweet potatoes, because Alma asked for them in a group text on the twenty-eighth of May.
Sweet potato casserole with marshmallows at a cookout in ninety-one-degree heat is an insane thing to serve.
I made them anyway. Nobody would call that a victory.
Some things are just worth doing badly on purpose.
Tom made the second pan. He does the syrup thing now. His are still a little dry.
The picnic table under the canopy seats about eight, and that's where Alma got installed at eleven-fifteen with a chair cushion and a cardboard fan from the funeral home.
The good folding table beside it held the food.
And down under the maple at the back of the yard, in the shade, was the green card table with the vinyl top.
It came over in the bed of Mitch's truck, because Denise doesn't own one and because that thing has been at every Whitaker function since 1974.
Families own four hundred pounds of objects and use them until they fall apart.
Around noon everybody started to sort, which happens the same way it always has, even outside, even without cards.
Alma sat down, and the people who sit near Alma began arranging themselves near Alma.
The overflow drifted toward the maple. There were more bodies than there were seats in the shade of that canopy.
"Cheryl," Alma said from the picnic table, in exactly the voice.
And Tom, six feet away with a paper plate in his hand, said, "Where do you want to sit?"
He said it to me. Not to her. He didn't look over at his grandmother, he didn't wait for her to finish the sentence, he didn't apologize with his face.
He asked me, out loud, in a yard with nineteen people in it, at a normal volume, like a man asking his wife a question, and then he waited on the answer.
I looked around. Under the canopy: Alma, Pauline, my father-in-law, Marlene, two of Denise's in-laws I've met eleven times, the whole lot of them under a nylon roof at ninety-one degrees with no air moving.
Under the maple: Rachel, in from Columbus since Thursday; Colton, thirteen now and six inches taller, explaining something to Brayden with both hands; Sydney with her feet up on the cooler; and a breeze coming across from the neighbor's pool.
"The maple," I said.
"Yeah?"
"There's shade. And your aunt's going to talk about her hip."
"She is going to talk about her hip."
"For forty minutes."
"There's a breeze back there," Tom said.
"There's a breeze back there."
He went and got two hot dogs and a scoop of both kinds of potatoes, and I got the plates, and we walked down the yard together past the canopy.
Nothing happened as we went by. Alma was telling Pauline about a woman from her church who'd had a stroke, and she didn't look up.
She has not, since December, said one word to me or to Tom about a chair or a table or a plate, and I don't believe she ever will.
She's ninety-eight, she's been right about everything since 1954, and she isn't going to start filing corrections now.
She still asks me for the potatoes. She still calls Tom on Sundays.
At Easter she put a card down for me at the folding table in the den, and Tom picked up his plate and came in and sat beside me.
Marlene said, "Here we go." Denise said, "Oh, leave it.
" Eleven minutes later everybody was talking about a car.
Nobody came around. Nobody made a speech. My husband's family did not gather to acknowledge that a wrong had been done, and I've made a kind of peace with the fact that they never will, because I finally understand I was never asking them for anything.
Under the maple, Tom set the plates down and sat next to me on the bench side of the card table, close enough that our arms touched whenever either of us reached for something.
In December there'd been a pause — two seconds in an archway with his hands going cold.
In June there wasn't one. He walked down the yard, put the plate down, and sat.
He didn't look back at the canopy. He didn't check whether anybody was watching.
Christmas is the one you tell at parties.
This was a hot dog on a paper plate at a green vinyl table with nobody watching at all.
Two other things happened in that yard.
The first is that around one o'clock Denise came down to the maple with a plate and sat on the end of the bench. After some business about the potato salad she said, "I want to say something and then I'm going to go check the corn."
"Okay."
"I never thought about it." She looked at her plate. "In twenty-five years. I'd like to say I did, because it'd be nicer, but I didn't. You always seemed like you were having a better time back there than we were having up front."
"I usually was," I said.
"Yeah, but that's not?—"
"No," I agreed. "It isn't."
Denise nodded, got up, and went and checked the corn. She came back twenty minutes later with a plate of it for the table, said the ears were small this year, and asked whether I still had the tote in my trunk, because Kayla wants to borrow serving spoons for a shower in July.
"They're in the garage."
"Can I get them off you before the Fourth?"
"Come get them whenever you want."
That was the entire reckoning that family produced. It was true, and it cost her something to say, and then there was corn.
The second thing is that Alma asked me to bring her a plate. She did it the way she's done it since 1999, from under the canopy, without turning her head. "Cheryl, get me a little of that ham."
So I got up and got her a little of that ham.
The good plates were gone by then, so it was a paper one, doubled, because a single one goes soft under anything with juice in it.
I put a spoonful of the beans she likes next to it.
I got a fork out of the coffee can on the food table and wiped it on a napkin, because it had been sitting in the sun with a fly working the rim.
I brought it over and set it down in front of her, and she moved her cardboard fan to make room.
"Mm," she said, and started eating.
That wasn't strategy and it wasn't peace-keeping.
She's ninety-eight, her hip is bad, she was eleven feet from the food, and I'm a person who gets up.
Back in December I'd started to worry that fixing this would mean I had to quit being that.
It didn't. There is nothing wrong with getting an old woman a plate of ham.
Then I went back down the yard and sat where I wanted to sit.
Rachel dropped onto the bench across from us with a can of seltzer. "Colton says he's going to be an electrician."
"Colton says a lot of things," Colton said.
"He asked me if you make good money," Rachel told her father.
"I make all right money," Tom said. "You want to be the guy they call at two in the morning?"
"Kind of, yeah," Colton said.
"Then you'll do fine."
The breeze came through. Somebody's kid ran past with a water balloon that never got thrown.
"Do you want the other half of this," Tom said.
"Of what?"
"The hot dog. I put too much on it."
"You put mustard on it. That's not too much, that's mustard."
"There's a lot of mustard on it, Cher."
I took the half he wasn't going to finish, and Rachel said something about how the two of us have been having that exact argument since she was in a car seat, which is true.
Down at the canopy Marlene started in on her hip, right on schedule, and I caught Rachel's eye and neither of us said a word about it.
I ate a hot dog with too much mustard on it. Tom's arm was against mine and his plate was six inches from mine, on a card table with a cigarette burn in one corner from a party in the eighties and a leg that's been shimmed with a coaster since before my daughter was born.
For twenty-five years that table told me where I stood in a family. It doesn't anymore. It's a table. It's the one in the shade, with the breeze, where the funny people are.
I know where I belong because a man in a gray T-shirt with a bad sunburn on the back of his neck asked me where I wanted to sit, and then sat down beside me without checking with anybody.
And this time, so do I.
THE END
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THE TABLE HIS MOTHER TOOK
She built every family dinner for twenty-five years. She just never got to sit down at one.
Delia runs banquets for a living — three hundred strangers seated, served, and toasted without a wrinkle.
At her own family's table she's staff: her mother-in-law at the head, her mother-in-law's place cards deciding who sits where, and Delia in the kitchen plating dessert while the toast to her own anniversary happens without her.
Cheryl spent twenty-five years at the folding table at his family's house. Delia spent hers made a servant at her own. Two women, two tables, and two men who finally had to look at which chair they'd been taking all along.
If the twelve feet between Cheryl and Tom stayed with you, Delia's head of the table is your next read.
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" And her husband said the six words that broke it open: "Just apologize so we can move on.
" Where Cheryl swallowed a seating chart, Renata swallowed the peace — until she didn't.
The Photo His Ex Framed — "Just family for this one," the photographer said, and nobody corrected him.
Eleven years married, and Marisol steps out of the family portrait because his ex-wife's shot list says family means the first one.
Cut from the frame, seated at the kids' table — the same wound, a different room.
The Garden He Tore Out — She said no. Every time he asked about the deck, she said no.
Then she came home from a week away to find eighteen years of her garden gone, and a husband proud of the upgrade.
Her standing dismissed in her own home — and a man who went along with it until the day he couldn't.