Chapter 7
As I lay in the bath I realise James has managed to replace the eight men swirling around in my heart with a new one.
The way Matty looked at me as he handed me over is now etched into my mind’s eye.
How will things ever go back to how they were?
How does Matty feel about us? And James, was this the right decision for him?
How can he not look at Matty and relive the morning we have just shared.
It was amazing, I loved every second of it after I got over the shock of it.
Everyone in the room enjoyed themselves.
But in my day job I rarely get to see the clients ever again.
But I’ll get to see Matty, if not weekly, monthly—forever.
I try to relax in the tub and think of the best case scenario.
We just had the best morning together ever imaginable and we are adults.
Maybe we can have a beer together and reminisce or laugh about it.
Surely that is possible. Then take it for what it was and move on.
It’s not as if I don’t have anything else to keep me busy, keep us busy.
I lay in the water soaking it into my aching body.
The honeysuckle scent soothes my mind and I sink in a bit further, bending my knees to allow me to be absorbed by the bathwater.
The heat is making me sleepy and I’m beginning to have trouble keeping my eyes open until James finally walks back into the bathroom looking relaxed and sated.
“Room for one more, Rose Petal?” he asks and I smile and nod.
The bubbles all smoosh around me as James climbs in. “That was incredible sweetheart, thank you for doing that for me,” he says as he lowers himself into the warm water as he sits opposite with our knees bent and the tops out of the water to accommodate us both.
“I know you mentioned you were into watching but I didn’t think you’d act on it so soon or would ever ask someone we know to join us. How do you feel now one of your fantasies has come true?” I ask.
“It feels incredible. Like all my Christmases have come at once. Dominating you, watching you get fucked, joining in. I learnt that I can’t just watch, I need to play too.”
“And Matty. Did you like sharing me with your best friend or could it have been anyone?”
I watch as James’ beautiful face turns pensive as he runs his hands through his dirty blond hair. “I did enjoy sharing you with Matty,” he answers slowly. “Was it weird to see him in such an intimate setting, yes. Did it bother me, strangely no.”
“And him, what did he say?”
“He liked it too. He loved it, in fact. Said he’d never experienced anything like it but now he has a taste, he wants more.”
“More of us?” I ask. “Or more threesomes?”
James screws up his face, “I didn’t think to ask him that. When I originally asked him, I mentioned it was a one-time thing.”
“And is it a one-time thing?” I ask, trying to school my face and my voice to an even tone to hide the fact that my body is already screaming to hear him say no.
Why do I even feel this way? It’s Matty for goodness sake, James’ best friend.
There is no returning from this, we can’t go back to normal.
“When I asked him, yes. But now it’s happened, and it felt so fucking amazing, I don’t know. I don’t know how I feel about watching and joining in with someone we don’t know. Doing it with Matty felt safe and comfortable, even though it started off as a bit of a surprise for you.”
“Why did you originally want it to be a one-time thing?”
“Because I didn’t know how I felt about sharing you and in all honesty, I worried that if we kept the invite open to do it more, I would get jealous of sharing you in real life.
I’m not sure I can do that.” James’ eyes focus on me and become heated as they roam my submerged body, “You are mine, Rosie, I don’t want to bring another person into our relationship on-going and share you.
I already do that with your job, but I know that is work and I like you doing it. It turns me on.”
“So how have you left it with Matty? Is he coming into the bathroom too, will we have lunch?” I’m asking because this situation is unchartered waters, and I don’t know the rules or what James has arranged with Matty.
“Matty has just left—”
“He didn’t say goodbye?” I interrupt with a jolt, surprised at the emotion that hit me with that realization.
“He didn’t mean to not say goodbye, it was just that we had arranged the date and it was over. And I’d put you in the bath. Like I said, we had agreed on a one time only thing…” James trails off as if he too isn’t sure how to handle this situation.
“And it’s still a one time only thing then? He knows that? It’s been decided between you both?”
“Yes, he knows that.”
“And he’s ok with that?”
“I think so, I’ll check in on him again when we’re home. Are you ok with it?”
“I don’t know. I feel weird. Like I don’t want to hurt him or use him. Is that crazy?”
“It’s not crazy, it was one heck of a morning, better than my wildest dreams. And considering it was my fantasy that he took part in, he certainly looked like he enjoyed himself thoroughly too. As did you, my darling.”
I can feel a blush creeping up my neck. “I did enjoy myself, thank you husband. I’m still trying to get my head around what we just did and doing it with Matty. Are we saying that is it now with him? I just need to get my head straight; I need to know where we stand with him.”
“Would you want to re-enact this morning with him again?”
“If it pleases you, James,” I say, not giving my true feelings away just yet. I’m not sure what they are but I want to know James’ feelings first before I confess mine or even try and understand what I’m feeling.
“Come on, don’t be coy. Would you want to do it again?”
I pause for a moment trying to formulate my response, wishing I had a better idea of where he stands.
“That answer is complicated; my body screams yes but my heart is unsure it can handle it. I don’t know how my emotions can switch off from him once he goes home.
I almost miss him already. I don’t want us to get complicated.
I worry that if you share me with him, I’ll end up giving him a piece of my heart.
Is that what you want? Is that what we want? ”
James studies my face, I can see I’ve knocked the wind out of his sails so to speak. I don’t mean to make things complicated or bring things down a level after such an incredible high. I just need to speak my truth and understand where we are going with this new addition to our lives.
“Thank you for being honest with me Rosie,” his voice is serious and calm despite the emotions swirling around us.
“Always with you.”
“The truth is, I hadn’t considered how well we’d mesh together and how much I’d enjoy it like a drug that I want to do again.
I figured if we did it once, that would be my fantasy over and dusted.
But I can’t switch my brain off from wanting to do it again.
And I feel the same as before, I don’t want to do it with anyone else other than Matty. ”
“Maybe it’s because we only just did it and we need some time to regroup and understand the gravity of this new relationship with him. Maybe we need to let it lie for a little while and see how you feel, how we feel in a week or so when we’ve cooled off?”
A smile grows across his face and he nods, “Very wise idea Rose Petal, let’s not get carried away in the moment. Let’s cool down and see how we all feel. It’s not just us anyway, Matty may never want to do it again anyhow. This is a conversation for another day.”
“Agreed,” I say as I lift my feet and place them on either side of his fine chest so I can stretch my legs out and relax deeper in the tub.
James allows it good naturedly as my eyes squint at him, teasing a bit to lighten the mood, “So, tell me. What was your favourite part of your fantasy today?”
“You doing exactly what I told you to do.”
“And specifically…” I push.
“It’s hard to choose. I enjoyed being the puppet master of your pleasure. I enjoyed commanding you and Matty, watching all the things he did to your body at my request, the way your eyes rolled when he rimmed you. The way you took his cock so well and then cleaned him up like a good fucking girl.”
“And you didn’t want to just watch?”
“I couldn’t help myself. I needed to be involved. I hadn’t realised until you were both there at my will and mercy. I could feel myself ready to blow my load at any moment watching you but that would have been a complete waste.”
I let out a giggle. “Indeed it would have been a waste when you had a willing participant wanting to suck down anything you were ready to give,” I say feeling coy and naughty.
I’m teasing him, even in my boneless state.
I’m enjoying listening to James revel in his fantasy, his openness and the way he has commanded me the entire morning.
He’s showing his alpha and I’m here for it.
“From now on Rose Petal, I never want to waste a drop. You will be willing and open, whenever I ask, do you understand.” The words were clearly an order, spoken confidently with complete trust that not only would I obey, I would love every second of it.
Oh shit, I’ve done it now. My clit springs to throbbing life and I answer, “I understand, Sir.”
“Good fucking girl. Now let me take care of you so we can get out of here in time to pick the kids up from school.”
I sigh; our little break has to come to an end. I cannot wait to see the kids though, it’s been the longest I’ve ever been away from them. My heart suddenly drops and I feel guilty.
James senses the shift in my mood as my smile drops.
“Hey, none of that. Everything you have done has been for the kids. And me. I was selfish and whisked you away for this weekend. That’s on me.
The kids have been fine, they are fine and we’re going to be fine.
So none of the mum guilt. You don’t have time for that when you have to suck my cock again. ”
I splash him and he laughs, “I’m joking! But seriously, let’s get you washed and dressed, I want to make sure you are fed before we leave also.” James leans forwards and begins to soap up my body whilst I float like a ragdoll, well and truly fucked.