20. Chapter Twenty #2
I quickly parked the truck in front of the house and hopped out.
I grabbed the tote Mama sent with us containing the leftover meatloaf, mashed potatoes, and tomato salad, along with the apples I’d bought at the store.
I wanted the apple pie Justin had mentioned he could make.
I knew I’d eat it even if it tasted terrible because I never wanted to do anything to hurt his feelings.
Rushing around the truck, I opened his door and grabbed his hand, nearly dragging him behind me and into the house through the back door. I shoved the whole tote bag with leftovers into the fridge and pulled him with me to the bedroom.
“Wow, someone’s eager.” The snicker he released stopped me instantly.
“I’m sorry, Justin. I—We don’t have to do anything, okay?” I was being a fucking beast. What the hell was wrong with me?
Justin’s giggle wasn’t expected. “Are you kidding? I’ve waited a hell of a long time for this. I’m more than ready, and I’m excited we’re okay with going bareback. I, uh, need to shower and...” He tilted his head toward the bathroom.
“How about this? You top me this first time? What do you think?” I suggested.
I had some very kinky thoughts in the back of my mind that I hoped we could get up to in time. It was good for the two of us to establish our sexual boundaries from the beginning so we knew each other’s expectations and desires.
“You’d be willing to let me fuck you?” He sounded surprised.
“Darlin’, I’m willin’ to do anything you want.” Yeah, I poured on the accent a bit heavy, but he seemed to like it, so why not.
Justin stepped in front of me, placing his hands on my neck.
“I’m gonna take you up on that, sweetheart.
” Without waiting a beat, he untucked my shirt and pulled the sides so the snaps gave way.
He kissed across my abs and ribcage as he pulled up my undershirt, shoving my plaid shirt off my shoulders.
After kissing over my chest, he relieved me of my undershirt and gazed at my bare torso.
“You’re a beautiful man, Clay.”
My cheeks heated at his compliment as I itched to reveal every inch of his golden flesh. My farmer’s tan was embarrassing compared to Justin’s golden glow.
He opened my belt, pulling it from the loops of my Wranglers before examining it closer. “This is really cool.”
It was tooled leather with antiquing over the Fines name on the back. It had been my father’s belt that Mama gave me after he passed. I wore it with pride.
“Thank you. It was my father’s. How about we soak in that big tub and after, I get myself ready?” The process wasn’t pretty, but if it was his first time, I wanted it to be the most enjoyable it could.
“No! I mean, I want to be part of getting you ready, just as I want you to get me ready when you make love to me. Teach me how to do it, please? I want to know how to make it enjoyable for you, okay?” Justin’s expression was adorable.
“Of course, darlin’. Let me start the water.” I walked into the bathroom and turned on the water, regulating the temperature and dumping some bath salts into the water. I sat on the side of the tub and slipped off my boots and socks before I went back into the bedroom.
Justin was sitting on the side of the bed, staring into space.
“What is it?”
He turned his worried gaze to me. “I don’t want to do anything wrong.”
The beautiful man was vulnerable and I wanted to put him at ease. I leaned forward and kissed his soft lips. “There’s nothing you can do wrong. As long as we’re comfortable and enjoying ourselves, it will be amazing. You’re mine and I’m yours.”
Justin’s face blossomed into sheer surprise. “You’re mine? I... I guess I’m astonished. I want to be yours, Clay. I just didn’t think you’d want to be mine in return.”
What? That made no sense. “Why wouldn’t I want to be yours? Justin, you’re a remarkable guy. You’re someone I didn’t expect, but now that you’re here, I want to be yours.”
I held out my hand and led him with me into the bathroom, turning off the water in the soaking tub. He undressed, as did I, and once we were both naked, I pulled Justin closer.
“You’re in control, darlin’. I’ll do whatever you want me to do.” Suddenly, things made sense and I couldn’t imagine a better time to be honest. “I’ve fallen in love with you. If you’re not there yet, that’s fine, but I still want to take this step with you. If you want.”
Well, that tumbled out faster than I expected, but it wasn’t a lie. It was the damn truth.
Justin gasped. “What? You’re in love...with me? Are you serious?”
Shit! Was that a mistake? Had I misjudged things?
I exhaled and responded, “As a heart attack. I’m in love with you.
” I knew it and there was no reason to back down.
If he wasn’t there, then I’d wait for him.
If he didn’t believe he’d ever love me, then maybe we’d take a step back, but I was still going to help him with his Ramon issues. I still wanted to be his friend.
Justin’s expression went from disbelief to glee in an instant. “God, Clay! I’m in love with you too!” He wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed me. Feeling his skin on mine was like a balm to my chafed soul. It was the best feeling in the world.
We slid into the bathtub with me in front of Justin, leaning against his chest. My hard cock was begging for his hand, but it had to be his choice. It all had to be his choice.
“What’s this scent?”
“It’s bath salts that Mama got me last year for Christmas. I’ve never used them before, but they’re scented with cedar and jasmine. Do you like it? Is it too much?”
“I love it. My butt is tingling.” Justin laughed, and I joined him. The sensation was new.
“Yeah, mine too. So, when did you start falling in love with me?” I couldn’t stop myself from asking. It was the best news I’d heard in a long time.
Justin giggled. “Probably the first time I saw you in the waiting room of Korr Financial Services. You’re fucking gorgeous, you know.” His hand slid down my abs and landed on my hard cock, gently stroking and teasing me. It was in-fucking-credible.
“God, that’s perfect.” That wasn’t a lie. Soft lips against my neck and his warm tongue swiping under my ear had me fucking revved.
“So, what was it like growing up with Pansy?” Justin asked.
I laughed. “That’s a hard question to answer while you’re stroking my dick, but with Mama there was never a dull moment.”
Justin fondled my balls as he kissed my neck. “What do you mean?”
“I mean, my mom’s fantastic. She’s kind and compassionate, but we gotta quit talkin’ about her or I’m gonna lose my erection.”
I glanced over my shoulder as his fingers moved to my taint, which had me on the brink of shooting off. His lips moved over my neck before he whispered in my ear. “I love you, Clay.”
I spread my legs as his fingers moved closer to my asshole, circling the muscles there with a light touch. “God, that feels too fucking good. Press in.”
“I don’t have any lube. Will it hurt? I don’t want to hurt you, sweetheart.”
“You won’t, baby. Go slow if you don’t mind. I haven’t played back there in a long time.”
One of his fingers gently breached my canal before sliding out and entering again. “Fuck yeah,” I gasped.
“I’ve got a better idea. Let’s rinse off. I think I can get you ready easier on dry land.” After he got out, Justin grabbed each of us a towel and helped me out of the tub, drying me off as he hummed a tune I didn’t recognize. Once he got to my feet, he kissed my knees before standing.