Chapter 17
Stars it feels like I'm betraying one of my best friends for the other.
It feels like no matter what I do, someone is going to get hurt, and hurting either of them is the last thing I want to do.
I scoot closer to her, placing the front of my body onto her side, bringing my hand to her face, and turning her head so her eyes look into mine.
“Breaking your heart will never be something I do. As for what we are doing, I don’t know, but I like it, and I worry about that too.
I don’t want to hurt him, and I don’t want him to hate me.
” It’s as if I’m at war with myself, battling on one side for what I so desperately want, and the other fighting for what I should do.
I shouldn't want her, but I can’t help the pull I feel between us.
She lifts her head and steals a kiss. She slowly leans over onto her side, keeping her body flush with mine, stealing my breath, only to kiss me back to life, and if this is how I survive, sign me up.
If her kiss alone makes me feel this much pleasure, what will her…
stop, brain, we cannot think about it, it's too late. Her kiss deepens, lapping my tongue with hers, and a moan falls from her mouth straight into mine, sending me over the edge. Throwing her leg over me, I pull her close, holding her into me, my hands wrapped around her plump ass. I know she can feel my want for her as my erection pushes into her with each kiss. “Scar, baby, we have to stop.” I pull away, talking into her wet lips. “I want you so fucking bad, and if you keep kissing me, I’ll take you right here on this rooftop, and that is not how I want our first time to be.” She laughs at me, pulling away and moving her leg off of me.
“Right, I guess I would prefer not to have my virginity taken on a rooftop. Now, under the stars, I could be okay with that.” She rolls back over and looks up at the stairs. Fuuuck, I can’t think about being the only guy to ever be inside her. Molding to my cock and mine only.
“I don’t want to ruin this moment, but have you hurt yourself since?” She turns her head, looking over at me, and offers me a sympathetic smile.
“Are you still kissing me?” She places her hand on my face. “No, I haven't, I promise if it crosses my mind, you’ll be the first to know.” She kisses my cheek and sits up, looking at her phone that just lit up. “Levi said, he’s on his way home.” I sit up, knowing that's my cue to leave.
I give her one more long-lasting kiss before standing up. “See you tomorrow.” She nods and watches as I make my way back down the trellis.
Lying in bed, I think about the way her body felt pushed up against mine, and how much I craved her.
I have had my fair share of blow jobs, but I have never wanted to be inside someone so bad.
To become one with them in every sense of the word.
She is intoxicating. I want to lavish her with love and show her the power she holds.
Tomorrow we’re heading to the D&D, for whatever reason, and I’m itching to get alone time with her.