CHAPTER 1
Curbside
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Lexie Holloway had learned a long time ago that the people who needed her most rarely said thank you, and the people who said thank you rarely needed her at all.
It was one of the small, unspectacular truths she'd built a life around, the way other people built lives around bigger ones — love, faith, ambition.
Hers was smaller and it fit in her hands better: be useful, and the rest sorts itself out.
"You don't have to keep saying sorry," she told him, for the third time, tweezing a piece of gravel out of the road rash that ran from his elbow to his wrist like a bad tattoo. "It's a normal amount of blood for a normal amount of asphalt."
"Prez is gonna kill me." Dobbs had the pallor of a twenty-two-year-old who'd laid a motorcycle down at forty miles an hour and was only now, in the safety of a clean room with a competent adult, allowing himself to register how close that had come to being much worse.
"I wasn't even supposed to be riding that route, there's construction—"
"Then Prez can be mad at the county for the potholes." She swabbed the last of the gravel free and reached for the gauze without looking, the motion so worn into her hands she barely registered doing it. "Hold still. This part's going to sting more than the actual crash did, probably."
It did. Dobbs made a sound like a man being personally betrayed by hydrogen peroxide, and Lexie, who had heard that exact sound from at least forty different Ironclad Saints patches and prospects over the past two years, didn't even look up.
The clinic didn't officially treat the club.
Officially, Cedar Falls Urgent Care was a walk-in practice serving the general public of a town that didn't have much else in the way of general public medicine, and its owner, Dr. Okonkwo-Bell, had a very clear policy about not asking questions she didn't want honest answers to.
Unofficially, unofficially was where Lexie actually lived most of her shifts, stitching up road rash and the occasional split knuckle for men who'd rather bleed in her back room than sit four hours in the ER waiting to explain to a stranger with a badge how, exactly, they'd acquired the injury.
She didn't love the arrangement, exactly.
But she was good at it, and she liked being good at something in a way that had a visible, immediate result — a wound that closed, a fever that broke, a scared twenty-two-year-old who stopped apologizing and started breathing normal again.
Her phone buzzed once against the counter, a text from a number she hadn't saved — Curtis, probably, since he was the only person left in her life who still texted like punctuation was optional.
hey stranger, u still at that clinic. She didn't answer it.
She didn't have room in her morning for an ex-boyfriend's idea of catching up, and something about the casualness of it, out of nowhere after two years of silence, snagged wrong enough that she turned the phone face-down and went back to Dobbs's arm.
It was, she sometimes thought, the opposite of most of her life, where being good at things had a way of not mattering nearly as much as she'd assumed it would.
The bell over the front door chimed while she was taping the last of Dobbs's dressing, and she heard Marisol at the front desk say something too low to catch, and then a pair of boots on the linoleum that had a different weight to them than the average walk-in's — unhurried, but not lazy.
Deliberate. The kind of walk that had spent a long time somewhere that made you pay attention to where your feet landed.
"Back here," Dobbs called out, wincing as she taped the last edge down. "Tank, I'm fine, I told you not to—"
"Didn't ask if you were fine." The voice arrived a half-second before the man did, low and unbothered, the voice of someone who said exactly as many words as a situation required and not one more. "Asked where you were."
And then he was in the doorway, and Lexie's hands — which did not, as a professional habit, stop moving mid-task for anyone — stopped moving mid-task.
She would think about this moment later, more than she meant to, and what she'd land on was that it wasn't any single thing about him.
It wasn't the size of him, though he filled the doorway the way some men just did, without trying, six-foot-something of a body that had clearly spent decades being asked to do hard physical things and had said yes every time.
It wasn't the gray threaded heavy through dark hair that hadn't been near a barber in a while, or the beard kept short and deliberate, or the ink that ran down one forearm in a sleeve dense enough that she couldn't make out individual pieces from across the room, just the overall impression of a man who'd used his skin as a record of things he didn't say out loud.
It wasn't even the dog tags, visible at the collar of a black tee under his cut, small and ordinary and doing more work than they had any right to.
It was that he looked at Dobbs first — actually looked, cataloged the bandage work, the color in the kid's face, some private checklist running behind eyes that missed nothing — and only after he'd confirmed for himself that Dobbs was fine did his attention move to her, and it moved like something settling into a chair it had sat in before.
Not surprise. Recognition, almost, for a woman he'd never met.
"You patch him up?" His eyes were on the bandage, not on her face, which she appreciated more than she expected to.
"I patched him up." She peeled off her gloves, tossed them in the bin, gave herself a half-second to be annoyed that her pulse had picked up over a man asking a medical question.
"Superficial road rash, no fracture, I want him back if the swelling in that wrist doesn't go down by tomorrow. He got lucky."
"He got stupid." But there wasn't heat in it. He said it the way you'd note the weather — a fact, not a verdict. Dobbs, for his part, had the good sense not to argue.
"Prez, I really am sorry about the bike, I know it's not exactly—"
"Talk to me about the bike outside." Tank's attention had already come back to her, and this time it landed on her face and stayed there, unhurried, like he had nowhere else particularly urgent to be, which she doubted was true of a man who moved like he did. "You always work this early?"
"Six to two most days." She didn't know why she answered instead of asking why he wanted to know. "Somebody's got to be here before the Saints wake up and start finding reasons to get hurt."
That got something out of him — not quite a smile, more the structural suggestion of one, a small loosening around eyes that she guessed didn't loosen easily. "Fair."
"Doc's on at two if you need anything more official." She said it briskly, the way she said most things to men his size in rooms this small, a professional deflection she'd perfected over two years of treating people who ran hotter and bigger than the general population. "I'm just triage."
"You stitched Cutlass's hand back together in April." This from Dobbs, unhelpfully, from the exam table. "Doc was out sick. She's not just triage."
Lexie felt the correction land somewhere she hadn't braced for, an unfamiliar little warmth at being defended by a twenty-two-year-old with road rash, and didn't let it show on her face. "I did what needed doing. That's the job."
"That's not what I asked." Tank's voice hadn't changed, hadn't gotten warmer or more insistent, but something in the way he said it made it clear he'd actually noticed her deflect and had decided, without announcing it, not to let it stand. "I asked if you stitched him."
"I stitched him."
"Good work?"
"He's still got the hand." She crossed her arms, half out of habit, half because she needed somewhere to put the fact that she was being looked at — actually looked at, evaluated and found competent by a man who clearly didn't hand competence out as easily as most people handed out compliments. "So I'd call it good work, yeah."
"Then you're not just triage." He said it simply, like correcting a math error, no charge behind it, no flirtation dressed up as a compliment the way she was used to fielding from men who wanted something from her.
Just a fact he was setting straight because the wrong version had been sitting in the room and it had bothered him.
"Whatever they're paying you here, it's not enough. "
"They're not paying me anything for what I do for you all.
" The words were out before she'd thought them through, a little sharper than she meant, and she watched something shift in his face — not offense, closer to attention, like she'd just told him something worth knowing.
"The clinic doesn't bill the club. I don't ask why. I just do the work."
"Why not?"
"Why not ask, or why not bill you?"
"Either."
She considered him for a second, this stranger with a stranger's directness, asking her a question most people didn't bother asking because most people assumed they already knew the answer — that she did it out of some soft, uncomplicated kindness, the assumption people made about women who were good at taking care of others.
"Because asking why usually gets you an answer you didn't actually want," she said finally.
"And billing you would mean treating this like a favor instead of a job, and I don't do favors for people twice my size holding gauze to their own arm at seven in the morning. That's just Tuesday."
Something in his face did loosen then, properly this time, the ghost of an actual smile arriving and leaving fast, like he wasn't in the habit of letting it stay.
"Marcus Reyes," he said, which wasn't what she expected — not Tank, not the club name that Dobbs had used twice already, but the name underneath it. "VP."
"Lexie Holloway." She didn't offer a title. She didn't have one that fit the way his did. "LVN. Occasional patcher of large, careless men."
"Noted." He glanced back at Dobbs, who'd been watching the exchange with the fascination of a young man realizing he was witnessing something he didn't have words for yet. "You're riding with me back to the clubhouse. Somebody else can deal with your bike."
"Yes, sir."
Tank's attention came back to her one more time before he turned to go, and this time it didn't move like something settling into a familiar chair.
It moved like a man doing arithmetic he hadn't planned on doing today, recalculating something, and not entirely comfortable with where the numbers were landing.
"If we've got more of these" — he tipped his chin at Dobbs's arm — "who do I call?"
"Clinic number's on the door." She nodded toward the front. "Marisol answers after eight. Before that, it's usually just me."
"That's not what I asked."
She felt her mouth twitch despite herself — he'd used the same words on her twice now, that's not what I asked, and both times he'd been right, and both times she'd noticed him notice. "You want my number."
"I want to be able to reach the person who does good work when one of my guys is bleeding somewhere Doc can't get to fast enough.
" He said it flat, reasonable, the kind of sentence built to survive being repeated back to him later, and she almost — almost — let herself believe that was the whole truth of it.
She gave him the number anyway. Wrote it on the back of a clinic card, the kind meant for appointment reminders, because it was the only paper within reach and because some small, unpracticed part of her wanted to see what he'd do with a piece of paper that had her handwriting on it instead of a name typed into a phone.
"For club business," she said, handing it over, and watched him take it with two fingers, careful, the way you'd take something you already knew you were going to keep.
"For club business," he agreed, in a tone that made it sound like neither of them believed it, and neither of them was going to say so out loud.
He left with Dobbs ten minutes later, the bell over the door chiming behind them, and Lexie stood in the back room for a moment longer than the next patient's chart required, listening to the quiet a room left after someone with that much presence walked out of it — that faint sense of air resettling — before she made herself pick up the chart and get back to being useful, because that, unlike whatever had just happened in her exam room, was a thing she knew exactly how to do.