Chapter 34 Khaos
Khaos
I have never, ever hated who I am as much as I do right now. The secrets I keep weigh heavily on me, pushing and pulling me. I want to be the alpha who drops to his knees and gives her everything she deserves, but that’s not who I am.
I pace away from the house, heading into the woods.
“Khaos?”
I turn around and stare at Riot.
“Say my name,” I plead, reaching out a hand, “please, before I forget.”
Riot walks up and cups the side of my face. “Kerrick, you won’t ever forget who you are because we won’t let you. You are the son of the alpha, the heir, the most stubborn and best of wolves.”
I lean into his touch. “I can’t be…I can’t do…”
“You are enough, and I know you carry the weight of everything on your shoulders, but let us help you as we always have and always will.”
I squeeze my eyes closed. “I wish I could tell her my name and tell her who I am. This deceit feels so bitter.”
“I know, but it’s not safe,” Riot whispers. “We have to keep this secret, Khaos. Everything depends on it. Her life might depend on it.”
Riots’ lips press to mine, and I find myself desperately kissing him back, hoping that things will change or that he can at least make me forget for a while.
His hands tangle in my hair, but I turn him, pushing him against a tree, running my hand down his thigh until I can lift his leg, hooking it around my waist.
I pull away, breathing hard, grinding myself against the hard length of him.
“I love you.”
His eyes glow gold. “And I love you.”
I press my forehead to his shoulder as he slides his hand between us and reaches into my jeans to grip me firmly.
He strokes me hard, the way I love. Fast, hard tugs that drive me into wild thrusts against him.
“It’s been too long,” Riot pants, tossing his head back so I can suckle on that spot that is so covered in his scent.
It has been forever; we were too scared to show our affection in front of our owners. Not like this.
I mouth at his chin, dragging my teeth over the flesh, hearing his gasp like it’s part of me. I slide my hand between us and undo his pants, shoving them and mine down until I can encircle both our cocks with one hand.
Riot moans.
“You’re such a slut for it, aren’t you, Riordan?”
Riot opens his blazing eyes, grabs my hair, and slams our mouths together in a punishing kiss that has me forgetting everything but him.
I thrust into my hand until his hand joins mine, helping me move, swiping his thumb over the head of our cocks.
“If you come all over me, I’m going to make you lick it off,” I growl into his mouth.
“Promises, promises,” Riot purrs and bites my lower lip.
He’s always got to have the last word, always got to be a little bit extra. I love it. I arch into him, thrusting faster, harder.
“Alpha,” he whispers.
I lose my fucking mind, thrusting mindlessly, kissing him with a fury, dragging us so close together that we’re touching everywhere, and it’s still not close enough.
He’s just as frantic as I am and then, with a moan, he stiffens, jerks, and covers my hand and stomach in his cum.
I thrust slowly, keeping myself on the edge, but not letting it slip away.
Riot hisses as I pull him off the tree and turn him around. He braces and arches his back. I slide his cum over my cock, using it as lube as I press into him.
I slide in easily.
“You were ready for me?” I accuse him.
“I don’t just walk into any forest and seduce just any alpha,” Riot purrs.
I thrust my hips and bottom out, my balls pressed against his ass.
Riot moans and clenches around me.
“That right there is going to get you smacked.”
Riot laughs, proving he’s enjoying this. I reach around, grabbing his soft cock, needing to hold it as my other hand holds his hip. I pull out and drive up into him, forcing him up on his tiptoes, milking his cock with one hand.
“More,” Riot pants.
“Oh, don’t worry, you’re going to get more.”
I start fucking him the way I’d never dream of fucking someone else. Vicious, hard thrusts that have me clenching my teeth because it feels so damn good.
His cock hardens in my hand, and I stroke from root to tip, over and over. Twisting my fist, drawing all the moans and groans from his unwilling lips.
“Beg me, and I’ll give it to you.”
Riot hisses a curse that makes me laugh. I bite his shoulder, digging my teeth in deep, right over the spot where I put my bonds all those years ago.
“Please, Alpha, give it to me. Make me come.”
I pause, my fingers digging into his flesh, and then I surge forward, snapping my hips and driving out cry after cry.
He shudders and clenches around me, his cum spurting out of his cock and running down my fingers, but I’m blind to it. I’m driving into him, chasing my own release, pushing him and myself into a deeper and darker union. I let go of his cock and push my wrist against his mouth.
“Bite,” I say in a gravel rough voice.
He sinks his teeth into my arm. The pain and the hot, slick pleasure of his hole sends me out of my mind. I lose control, rutting against him, driving deep until I paint his insides with my cum, spurt after spurt.
I relax my hold on his shoulder, withdrawing my teeth and kissing softly over his nape. He shivers, and goosebumps rise. I want to stay here and just lick them all. I want her with us, between us.
Guilt presses in, and I peel away from Riot.
We’re both quiet as we walk back to the cabin. She sees us and cocks her head to the side. Somehow she knows.
I snarl at her, feeling defensive and somehow still guilty. I stomp up the steps to the cabin, but she grabs my wrist, right over the bite Riot gave me.
“Your relationships with each other are yours,” she says under her breath. “Who and how you love is your choice.”
“So, you’d be all right with all of us fucking right here?” I spit out crudely.
She shakes her head as if amused. “Love whoever you want, Khaos, however you want. I think in this world, love is in short supply.”
Casey stands up and gives me a small smile and walks away.
Now I feel like an ass for an entirely different reason but also relieved. Riot flicks a smile at me.
“Told you.”