Chapter Thirty
Camille
My breath caught, and for a second I thought about pulling back, about making some excuse to head home. But the truth was, I didn’t want to. Not tonight.
“Hunter,” I whispered, my voice barely carrying in the stillness. He hummed, low in his chest, waiting.
“I’m… nervous,” I admitted, heat crawling up my neck.
His thumb brushed along my shoulder where the blanket had slipped, gentle, grounding. “Then we go slow. Or we don’t at all. Whatever you want.” He paused, meeting my eyes with care.
That was the moment something inside me broke wide open. The choice. The patience. No demands, no pressure. Just him, waiting for me.
I leaned up before I lost the courage, my lips brushing his, soft at first, testing, like dipping my toes into water I wasn’t sure I was ready to dive into.
A flicker of doubt stirred within me, but his gentle approach quelled the fear.
He met me halfway, slow and careful, his mouth warm and steady against mine, as if reassuring me with every second.
The kiss deepened little by little, each moment unraveling another layer of apprehension yet leaving room for those lingering uncertainties.
My fingers grazed his shirt, pulling him closer before I could stop myself. His hand slipped to the small of my back, anchoring me as his other hand skimmed up to cradle the back of my neck. Every touch was deliberate, patient, but charged in a way that left an ache at my core.
I’d forgotten how it felt to be kissed like this. Not rushed, not taken, but cherished. His lips traced the line of my jaw, down to the hollow of my throat, each kiss stealing another piece of the walls I’d built. I gasped, my body torn between nerves and craving.
“Tell me if it’s too much,” he murmured against my skin, voice rough.
I shook my head, curls spilling across the cushion. “Don’t stop.”
Clothes slipped away slowly, not with urgency but with reverence, each layer another secret shared.
My skin burned under his hands, but it wasn’t just heat; it was relief.
For so long, I’d carried shame, fear, the memory of being touched without gentleness.
And here, with him, I was relearning. In the brief silence between our whispers, we were creating a cocoon around us that sheltered our tender exchanges.
Every laugh when our knees knocked clumsily, every whispered check-in, every kiss that stole my breath.
It stitched something in me I didn’t know was still frayed.
Every touch was slower than I expected, gentler than my fears told me it would be.
Hunter wasn’t rushing or trying to take anything from me; he was simply there, fully present, steady in a way that made my heart ache.
The longer I let myself lean into him, the louder the noise in my head became.
I’d told myself I wasn’t enough. Those stretch marks, softness, and scars were barriers.
But the way his hands lingered on me, memorizing, not judging me, unraveled those lies one by one.
“You’re so fuckin’ beautiful,” he murmured against my skin, and the words cracked me wide open. No hesitation, no pity. Just the truth, spoken so simply, it made tears sting my eyes.
“Wait, not here.” He said breathlessly. He picked me up, arms strong and sure, carrying me through his apartment.
It was dark, barely lit by the light from the street lamps outside.
As he lay me across his bed, my breath tangled.
Anticipation bloomed. A slow, aching heat landed at my core.
He moved between my legs, filling the space between us, his weight pressing into me until my pulse stuttered.
I hooked my legs around his hips, drawing him closer.
My hands traced the hard curve of his arms, fingers slipping into his hair.
I tugged, needing him, pulling his mouth back to mine.
His lips were steady, patient, letting me set the pace.
That patience undid me. I deepened the kiss, hunger rising, months of restraint dissolving between us.
His tongue teased against mine, coaxing, until I melted beneath him.
“I’ve wanted this,” he murmured against my lips, his breath hot.
“Then stop waiting,” I whispered, tugging harder.
The rumble in his chest vibrated through me, heat surging as his hand slid slowly up my thigh, gripping my hip and pulling me closer, like he couldn’t bear even an inch of distance.
“Fuck, Camille,” he breathed, my name breaking on his tongue, the only word that mattered. A moan slipped out before I could stop it. His smile brushed my mouth as he kissed me harder.
The scrape of his beard against my skin as he kissed up my neck made me shiver. I arched into him, unguarded, wanting more. His hands mapped me, memorizing every line, every curve.
I moved on instinct, my body answering his.
My fingers tangled in his hair, desperate for more, my body moving before my mind could catch up.
Fear dissolved in his touch. His hand slid higher, tracing my hip, slipping beneath fabric, and I gasped, chest rising against his.
It had been years since I felt free of fear and hesitation.
All that mattered was him. “More.” I breathed, my voice breaking on the plea.
He groaned, my name rough in his throat, his hand sliding higher, slipping beneath fabric. I gasped, chest rising against his.
When he looked at me, eyes burning, asking without words, I nodded, trembling. He pressed into me slowly, filling me, stretching me until I clung to him, overwhelmed. It was too much and somehow just right. His jaw clenched, a curse slipping from his lips as I arched beneath him, greedy for more.
“Fuck.” he breathed, forehead pressed to mine. “You’re perfect. Feels so damn good.”
Our bodies moved together, instinctively, a rhythm that needed no words.
Every thrust unraveled me, his touch grounding and consuming at once.
His forehead pressed to mine as I clung to him, trembling.
The rhythm built, relentless, until I couldn’t hold back the sounds spilling from me, broken gasps, pleas, his name.
My body trembled, strung tight, until it snapped, shattering around him and pulling him with me.
He collapsed against me, still trembling, pressing a shaky kiss to my shoulder.
My walls were gone, every barrier stripped away, but I didn’t feel bare. I felt seen. Chosen.
This wasn’t just fire, though it burned hot and wild. It was trust. It was a surrender. It was me letting every wall fall, letting him in, not out of weakness, but because I chose him.
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The room was quiet, a hush that settled in late at night, broken only by the hum of cars outside and the slow tick of the clock. This was his world, his safe little corner, and tonight Hunter had brought me here.
The light from the outside threw a gentle glow across the room, catching the lines of his jaw, the curve of his mouth. The sheets were still warm and tangled, the air carrying that lazy stillness that always came after intimate moments like this.
Hunter lay beside me, his arm draped loosely over my waist, fingers absently tracing idle circles on my hip.
My head rested against his chest, his heartbeat steady beneath my ear, grounding me in a way words never could.
The faint scent of cypress and passion lingered in the space between us, familiar and comforting.
That’s when I noticed it again. The tattoo across his chest. It had caught my eye earlier, when my hands had roamed across his skin, but the moment hadn’t been right to ask. Now, with the rain quieting the world outside, I let my fingers drift up, tracing the dark ink just below his collarbone.
In clean, timeless script, it read “May you never lose your way.”
Below the words, a small compass was etched between two sparrows in flight. It was an intentional design, its intricate lines weaving tales of direction and self-discovery.
He stilled under my touch. For a moment, I thought about pulling my hand away, but then his voice came, low and rough, vibrating through my cheek where it rested on his chest.
“Got that after my first deployment,” he said. “I was eighteen, barely knew who I was. I guess it was supposed to be a reminder.”
“A reminder of what?” I asked softly.
He exhaled, slow, steady. “To not lose myself. To remember my moral compass, no matter where I ended up. To find my way back.”
The words sank deep. I let my fingers trace one of the sparrows, wings stretched mid-flight. “Did it work?”
His chest rose under my palm, a long pause filling the space before he answered.
“Sometimes,” he said. “Sometimes it’s easy to forget what you’re fighting for.
Who you are. But I guess,” he continued, and I mirrored his slow, steady breath, feeling his rhythm almost in sync with mine.
His hand came up, threading gently into my hair, thumb brushing along the back of my neck. “I’m still finding my way.”
I lifted my head, meeting his eyes. The look he gave me was unguarded in a way I’d rarely seen, open and quiet, honest. My thumb brushed the compass again, right over where his heart beat steadily beneath it.
“You found it,” I whispered. “Your way back.”
He studied me for a moment, then smiled, small and crooked. “Yeah,” he murmured. “Maybe I did.”
He leaned in and kissed me, slow and unhurried. It wasn’t about heat or urgency, but about grounding, about presence.
When he pulled back, I rested my cheek against his chest again, my fingers tracing the lines of ink over his skin.
The compass, the sparrows, the words—they told his story.
Each tattoo carries its own memory. The koi fish from his time in Hawaii, the “Semper Fidelis” on the back of his arm for the young marine fresh out of boot camp, and the sparrows, a quiet reminder to never lose himself.
“Hunter?” My voice cracked, fragile.
“Yeah?” His tone was rough, uncertain, but open.
The words slipped out, fragile as glass.
“I love you.” It felt like standing at the edge of a cliff, the ground uncertain beneath me.
What if his silence lasted forever? What if I’d read it all wrong?
The quiet stretched, my mind racing with the fear that saying it could mean losing him, but not saying it meant losing myself. My heart pounded in the hush.
The silence stretched, my chest tight, but then his hand cupped my cheek, tilting my face so I had to meet his eyes. “Say it again.”
My breath hitched, but I didn’t look away. “Well, technically, you said it first. You said earlier, loving me was easy… I love you, Hunter.”
It was like watching his koi fish come alive, colors shifting under water. I felt it in the way he kissed me, slow and certain, nothing held back. When he pulled away, his forehead rested against mine, his voice raw, every wall gone. “I love you too, Camille. Probably love you more.”
Tears slipped free, but I laughed through them, burying my face in his chest. A giggle bubbled out, muffled against his skin, because the relief was overwhelming.
His fingers threaded through my curls, his lips pressing against the top of my head, and I realized I was smiling so wide it almost hurt.
In his arms, I didn’t feel like too much.
I didn’t feel broken. With him, I could set the weight down because I found what I’d believed was possible.
Outside, the world remained as it was. But inside, I could feel him breathe, the air between us warm and still.
And in that moment, I realized that maybe neither of us was lost anymore.
We’d both just been finding our way home.