Chapter 12
Ethan
Heat is the worst thing I”ve been through lately. It”s not something I”m proud of, but it”s necessary and this time, it felt like I was even stronger than the last. I was walking through the forest, I needed to talk to someone and maybe the mysterious man I met here would listen to me.
The problem is that I didn”t find it while walking, my body started to twitch, heat up and feel sore. An enormous insanity grew within my being, I don”t know how to explain it. It wasn”t the same as last time, it was more intense and all of this made me fall to the ground.
When I woke up, I still felt hot, like a fever, but in a much more scorching way. I looked around the space, but I was alone. It looked like a cabin, but I don”t know how I ended up here, but I was in a cozy bed and covered by a blanket. The door opened and Andrey appeared, wearing cold clothes and looking serious.
I shrank when he looked at me, I felt more withdrawn and when I noticed him smelling the air, I shrank even more.
— You”re in heat, Ethan — He approached slowly — Why did you leave in the middle of the night like that?
I didn”t respond right away, I didn”t know what to say. Not that I came out knowing about the heat, in fact I was taken by surprise, but he wouldn”t believe me, but I had to say something.
— Andrey is the one — Before I could formulate a sentence, a wave of heat took over me — Oh, it hurts.
— Ethan, shit, your heat is intense, it”s definitely the first day.
— Andrey, please stop.
— Don”t ask me that, Ethan, I can”t.
— Please make it stop, it hurts so much.
He didn”t say anything, he just started taking off his heavy clothes and when he was naked, I could contemplate all the glory of his body. Andrey was strong, sculpted and his cock was big, majestic and seemed to pulse in my eyes.
I noticed him smell the air again and soon after, a wave of heat pulsed inside me. I moaned loudly, wanting to be naked for good, so I ripped off the shirt and pants I was wearing. I positioned myself on all fours and showed him my entrance. I needed his cock to calm me down, I needed him and I was willing to go all the way to get rid of that heat.
— Andrey, make me yours, I need you now.
— Shit.
I looked over my shoulder to look at him and there was the mighty alpha in his glory. The eyes, once blue, were now yellow like gold. An animalistic roar left his chest as he came at me. He took hold of the sides of my ass and opened it, one of his fingers passed through my entrance and soon after came his hot and eager tongue.
Andrey knew what to do, he knew what I needed and he was giving it to me. I felt my entrance pulsate, I felt his tongue enter it and when his finger took its place, I went crazy.
— So sweet, my Ethan — I sighed at those words — I will make you feel all the pleasure in the world here.
— Yes, I want it all — I buried my face in the pillow when he stuck his tongue in me again.
I felt bites on my buttocks, kisses and his tongue passing all over the skin in the area. The fire that consumed me was intense, my body was sweating with desire and lust, ready to be Andrey”s. He was my salvation and I would give myself entirely to him if that was his wish.
— I”m going to put it in you, little Ethan — I heard his voice close to my ear — Do you want this?
- Yes I really want.
— Then say what you want, beg and I will serve you.
— I want your cock, Andrey — I sighed — I want your cock inside me.
— Damn, I can”t refuse a request like that.
I turned around on the bed and opened my legs for him, who positioned himself between them. His roguish smile was plastered across his face, I had never seen him like that, but I can”t say I didn”t like it. When his cock delivered inside me, slow and hard as a rock, we both moaned with satisfaction.
I sighed at the invasion, he is big and different from Javier, I felt him go much deeper inside me. Still I didn”t back down, only he could give me the relief I needed. When he started to move, I tried to follow his rhythm, I held my dick and started masturbating along with it, I needed that relief, but he took my hand away and held it himself.
— You will cum when I let you.
— D-Don’t torture me like that — I begged
— It”s not torture, but it”s no fun if you cum so quickly — He increased the speed of his thrusts and my entire body shook.
The shock of our bodies reverberated throughout the cabin. My mind was now blank, I rolled my eyes every time he went deep inside me and everything got worse when he hit a specific spot. I screamed loudly, enveloped in a haze of pleasure that took me out of orbit for a few seconds.
I was convulsing with pleasure because of Andrey and I couldn”t hold back as I exploded with pleasure in his hand. He didn”t stop thrusting into me and a few moments later, he spilled himself inside me. Exhausted and completely satisfied, he collapsed next to me on the bed. My breathing was ragged, I was so tired, my body didn”t have the strength to do anything, not even to lift a finger, but the heat from before was completely erased.
I know it will come again, but for now everything is fine. For this reason, I let myself fall into unconsciousness, however, inside my heart, something said that I had made a big mistake.
I shouldn”t worry so much, but something inside me told me it would always be like this. Throughout the heat it would be used as a breeder. This wasn”t even close to being a fairy tale, it was more like a horror story.
Flashes of what I went through with Andrey invaded my mind and now that I received visits from the children I felt even more unmotivated to continue living.
It wasn”t just heat, alphas surround omegas until the day of heat, so that the omega never thinks about refusing them and that”s what I was, an omega that was easy to manipulate. It wouldn”t surprise me if I was pregnant again, but this time maybe I would hide.
The hot water ran down my body, washing away the smell of the forest and the weight of what I had done. After the shower, I tidied the room, trying to organize my mind along with things. Being the only one who didn”t work at home bothered me, but the money my father left was enough, at least for now.
Andrey called me in for afternoon coffee, his voice bringing me back to the present. The news that Javier would bring the children to spend the holiday with me filled me with joy. But his question soon brought me back to reality:
— Are you still nervous about what happened in the forest?
— It”s not just what happened... — The words came out in a sigh. — It”s who I am during heat. I lose control, I become someone I don”t recognize. Afterwards, I just feel disgusted with myself. It”s like a curse. Will this ever end?
Andrey sat next to me, his face carrying a sadness that mirrored mine.
— Most omegas stop going into heat around the age of thirty-nine — he said, his voice soft. — Was it bad... being with me?
— It wasn”t bad — I replied, the sadness giving way to an emptiness in my chest. — I just didn”t want it to be like that. Like this.
I know he was trying to be kind, but something in that look bothered me, I knew his feelings and I didn”t understand why he wanted my love so much. It wasn”t our first time together, but it was the first time we were alone.
— Ethan, I can smell your smell changing, honey and milk, you know what that could mean, don”t you? — His hands touched my face.
— I”m not pregnant again, that”s for sure. — The lie came out of my mouth before I could think. I couldn”t bear the thought of Andrey taking my puppies, of having my heart broken like Javier did. I did feel something, but it wasn”t pregnancy, this time I hadn”t gotten pregnant, I wasn”t sure yet, but fate wouldn”t be cruel to me at that point.
— Ethan, you know you might be lying to yourself. — His voice was calm, but firm.
— And you know you could be fooling yourself with a zero possibility. — I took a deep breath, trying to control the wave of emotions that threatened to overwhelm me. - Will not happen. And if it happens... it will be resolved.
- What you mean? — His question hung in the air, filled with concern.
— I”ll tell you when the time comes... — The words came out as a whisper, a shield against my own fragility.
I let the conversation die there. I needed to be strong, not let myself be carried away by emotions. I had to find the studious Ethan, the one who got lost in this mystical city, and take back control of my life.
Andrey hugged me tightly and held me in his embrace, as a way of asking me not to do anything crazy.
I wouldn”t do anything, at least I don”t think so.
When the afternoon coffee was over and Javier left, leaving me with the little ones, I was a little happier, however my happiness was interrupted thanks to my father who had some somewhat disturbing news.
— Ethan — he called me calmly as he entered the room. — Can I talk for a minute?
- Clear. — I looked at his frown and smiled disdainfully, I knew what he wanted.
— Today the man who is interested in omega appeared at the summit, he leafed through the list and ran his finger over his name. — he said, sitting next to me. — He asked to speak to me privately and I tried to talk away.
- Like this?
— I told him that I was away when the heat arrived and that you could no longer be on the list, that I would take it off today, but that he had been faster in his application.
—He didn”t give up, did he?
— No, he”s convinced he needs you and that”s not even the worst part. — my father sighed, I saw a tear appearing in the corner of his eyes. — He is Nicolas Carter D’par, the bloodiest of wolves and no one has ever survived an encounter with him.
—That wolf…
— No one has ever seen his face, he wears a mask, lives away and has a lot of influence, he knows all of everyone”s secrets and from the look in his eyes, you were chosen well before you were on the list.
— Nicolas, it’s a very beautiful name. — I said your name a few times and the letters danced on my tongue. — He will be the one to free me from this torment.
— Ethan, he”s going to kill you! — my father shouted the words.
— Great, that”s exactly what I want, the sooner the better, your life, your rules, your laws, none of that appeals to me and for me it”s much better to die than to exist as a mere reproducer. — he smiles, showing all his teeth. — I will be very happy to die, set the date.
My father”s eyes turned yellow and I felt him growl, but he had my children in his arms, I doubt he would harm the children.
— If you”re going to growl and make me submissive, remember that I have two betas on my lap. — I warned him and looked at him.
— Ethan…
— I don”t think you understand, I have no choice, either I get married or live hidden inside your house, producing puppies for your stepchildren, in each heat, like a surrogate mother — I curled my lip. — Get out of my room, I only see the children once a week and it”s unfair that you want to steal that moment from me.
My father left the room worse than when he entered and I could only feel the weight of his choices, at no point did he let me be the owner of my feelings or my actions.
The constant snow on the mountain was lighter, it was summer, now the vegetation was so green and so vivid, without that gloomy tone. As dark as going into heat.
That night I slept well, without nightmares and without any tremors in my body, I took care of my little ones and at the end of the next day I had to give them back to Javier.
— Ethan, you look much better to me. — He commented when putting the children in the stroller.
— It must be because of the wedding, finally good news.
Javier curled his lip.
— We will not allow this marriage to happen, we know how it will end. — Javier placed his hand on my shoulder. — Even if I have to tie you up inside the house, I won”t allow you to get married.
— I”m going to get married, no matter what you say, I”m going to get rid of all this and I don”t care what the means of torture are, I”m going to die with a smile on my face. — Smiles ladino. — You destroyed everything that was good in me.
— Nicolas is cruel…
— It”s good that it is, it”s good that he ends me and leaves no mortal remains for you to mourn — I bent down and kissed my children”s forehead. — You took my children from me on the day they gave birth, don”t tell me you care, for you the only right thing is instincts and the damn law.
— Ethan…
— Good evening and thank you very much for allowing me to stay with the children. — I turned my back to Javier and entered the house.
Everyone kept their apprehensive gazes in my direction, it was like entering a lair. Death didn”t seem so bad, not when you were forced to go through the damn heat and surrender to any alpha that appeared in front of you.
Andrey came after me and before I entered the room he hugged me tightly.
— Ethan, please, this time is different, you don”t have to agree to get married, so please say no to Nicolas, he”s a monster.
— Worse than everyone here? — I looked at Andrey. — I”m too tired to continue and too desperate to have peace, for all this to end, I”m on the verge of a nervous breakdown and all you can do is tell me what I should or shouldn”t do.
— It”s different now, I swear I won”t take your children away from you. — Andrey knelt on the floor and hugged my waist, putting his ear to my belly. — Please believe me.
— There are no puppies this time. — I said dryly.
—Ethan, I care about you.
— And I also care about myself, so I will do what is best for me, if I had understood that in the first place I would have avoided a lot of headaches.
I walked away from Andrey and entered the room, luckily he respected my moment and didn”t chase me. The window in my room was open and feeling the cold breeze coming in, I felt like going into the middle of the forest. Who knows, maybe I would find the peace I was looking for so much there.