Chapter 20
TWENTY
VIVIENNE
Oh Goddess, I can’t believe I did that! I can’t believe I let him touch me like that!
Those were the thoughts rushing through my head as I hurried back to the bathroom.
The woman in the bathroom mirror had a guilty flush on her cheeks.
What was wrong with me? Why was I acting this way?
I didn’t have any answers—only a whole lot of guilt. But at the same time, I wanted to do it again. When Kor had been touching me, I’d felt a deep pleasure building…one I couldn’t deny and wanted more of.
Growing up in a strict household, I’d never been allowed to touch myself.
In fact, the only time I’d tried—and had been caught—my father had tied my hands to my sides for two months every night before I went to bed.
The lesson had stuck and had carried into my marriage—a woman’s body isn’t her own—it’s for the pleasure of her husband.
But Kor had just given me pleasure just for me, without asking for anything in return. And he’d offered to try and give me more by sucking my nipples or slipping his fingers into my bikini bottoms too.
Goddess, I could just imagine that—letting him take my bare nipples in his mouth to suck as he fingered me down below, those long fingers sliding deep inside me to caress and tease and fill my slippery little pussy…
No, stop it! Stop thinking like this—what’s wrong with you? I asked myself. I’d spent years never being interested in sex—feeling repelled by it, in fact. And my Heat Cycles had been nearly non-existent.
But now…now I felt all hot and needy inside. If I didn’t know better, I would almost think I was having a Heat Cycle now. But that was ridiculous, of course—I was over the hill and too hold to have another Cycle now.
Wasn’t I?
I was sure that I was, so I quickly stripped off the bikini, determined never to do something so wrong and risky again.
But when I got dressed again, it wasn’t in the boring, modest black dress I had first taken off. Instead, I slid into a short, tight red sundress I’d purchased along with the rest of my new clothes.
And I didn’t put either my bra or my panties on under it.