Chapter 32
Martin
Sweat gathered between his shoulder blades as the shovel bit into the crusty snow. He had to dig through eighteen inches before even hitting dirt. He worked as quickly as he could, scooping and dumping.
His bad foot ached in the cold. His breath came out in great pale clouds. The snowy yard looked blue in the dim moonlight.
Faster, Martin. You’ve got to do this quickly. You mustn’t hesitate. You mustn’t be a coward.
“I know,” he said out loud.
Behind him, the house watched. Sara slept, dreaming her mad dreams. Over to the left, past the barn, he could see the outline of the hill, the tips of the rocks of the Devil’s Hand, dark specks against the snow.
He looked back down at the wooden cross he himself had built, her name carefully carved across the top:
GERTRUDE SHEA
1900–1908
BELOVED DAUGHTER
His hands shook. They were greasy with fear-sweat, the shovel slipping.
Faster.
The slanted shadows of the slate gravestones beside hers watched, seemed to shift impatiently in the moonlight: her infant brother, grandfather, grandmother (for whom Gertie was named), and uncle, watching, wondering, What are you doing to our little Gertie?
She’s one of us now. She doesn’t belong to you.
For days now, Martin had stared out at little Gertie’s grave, knowing what he must do.
He had to find out what was in her pocket.
Sara had been babbling to Lucius, insisting that Gertie was murdered and that there was proof in the pocket of the dress she’d been buried in, talking nonsense about ghosts and spirits.
Who else might she tell, given the chance?
How long until someone listened to her and realized that, behind the madness, there might be a horrible, hidden truth?
Until Sara was accused of murder? He needed to see what, if anything, was in little Gertie’s pocket.
Martin gripped the shovel tighter. The soil was strangely loose and soft under the blanket of snow. The shovel moved through it like a warm knife through butter. It shouldn’t be this easy, but it was.
Two weeks ago, he’d lit a fire to thaw the ground enough to dig a hole.
He’d stood all day—a father in mourning—feeding it scraps of wood, cut-up deadfalls from the orchard.
Shapes had leapt out of the flames at him, taunting: the well, the fox, Gertie’s hair hanging from a nail.
He threw in one branch after another, trying to feed the hungry flames, trying to burn away the pictures he saw there.
The soil over the grave was still dark with ashes and lumps of charcoal.
How deep down was she? Six feet? Seven?
A foot for each year of her life.
He thought of the warning he’d given Sara days ago: Have you thought about the … condition her body will be in?
Oh yes. Martin had thought about it. Dreamed about it. Gertie looking up at him, flesh falling away from bones, little teeth still pearly white, mouth open as she breathed the words Why? Why, Daddy? Why?
“No choice,” Martin said out loud. He redoubled his efforts, digging faster, harder. The pile beside the grave began to grow.
And what was it he hoped to accomplish? If he dug her up, found something of Sara’s in her pocket, what would he do?
Hide it? Protect his wife?
Or would he show it to the sheriff, have Sara locked away for good?
Mad or not, Sara was all he had left.
For weeks now, he’d been going over that day in his mind, trying to remember every detail: the fox, the trail of blood through the snow.
Had he heard Gertie call him? Had he heard anything at all?
Had there been someone else out there in the woods?
There was the old woman, but no—that had only been a tree.
Part of him refused to believe that Sara was capable of hurting Gertie, not even in a spell of madness. Gertie was everything to Sara.
His shovel made a clunking sound as it hit wood: the top of Gertie’s coffin. The coffin that he and Lucius had made from pine boards he’d been saving to build a new chicken coop in the spring.
“What are you doing, Martin?”
Martin spun. Sara was behind him, shouldering his Winchester rifle, aiming for his chest.
She shook her head, clicked her tongue. She was wearing her nightgown, but had pulled on her overcoat and boots.
He froze, shovel in hand. “Sara,” he stammered. “I thought … you’re supposed to be resting.”
“Oh yes. Poor, ill Sara, with her cracked mind, needs her rest, doesn’t she? If not, we’ll tie her to the bedposts again.” She grimaced.
“I …” He hesitated, unable to say the words. I’m sorry. So sorry for all of this.
“What is it you’re looking for, Martin? What do you think is in Gertie’s pocket?”
He looked down at the rough wood. “I have no idea.”
She grinned, kept the rifle pointed at his chest. “Well, then, let’s find out, shall we? Keep digging, Martin. Let us open the coffin and see what we find.”
He carefully cleared away the rest of the dirt, brought the lantern close to the edge of the hole, and jumped down into it.
Feet straddling the small coffin, he took out his hammer to pry the lid off.
But the nails slipped easily out of their holes.
His hands trembled so hard that he dropped the hammer before grasping the wooden edges of the top and pulling.
What he saw made him cry out like a little boy. He went cold from the inside out.
Empty. The coffin was empty.
What had Sara done?
Sara smiled down at him, moving her head from side to side like a snake. Her skin glowed in the moonlight, as if she were made of alabaster.
“You see, that’s the problem, Martin. If you want to look in Gertie’s pocket, you’re looking in the wrong place.
” Holding the rifle in her right hand, she displayed her left, fingers spread.
There, above her wedding ring, was the little bone ring.
She used her thumb to turn it around her finger, the strange ring she’d once seemed so afraid of.
“Where did you get that?” Martin asked.
“It was in Gertie’s pocket.”
“Impossible,” Martin stammered. He moved toward her, began to climb out of the hole.
“You stay where you are,” she warned, keeping the gun aimed at his chest. “I was so sure Auntie’s spirit had done this evil thing, but perhaps the truth is simpler; perhaps it’s been right in front of my face the whole time, and I just couldn’t bring myself to see it.”
Sara rocked back on her heels, holding the gun in both hands now, bringing it up high, and sighting down the barrel.
“Was it you, Martin?” she asked quietly. “Did you hurt our Gertie?”
Martin staggered backward and fell against the dirt wall. It was as if she’d already pulled the trigger.
He remembered holding Gertie in his arms when she was a tiny infant, their miracle baby; walking with her, hand in hand, into the woods last month to choose a tree to cut down for Christmas.
How she’d found a spruce with a bird’s nest in it and insisted they cut that one down.
“Aren’t we the luckiest people ever, Papa?
” she’d asked. “To have a Christmas tree with a bird’s nest in it? ”
“I …” he stuttered, looking at Sara. “I didn’t. I couldn’t. With God as my witness, I swear I would never hurt our little girl.”
Sara stared, finger twitching on the trigger. “But the ring was in your pocket when you left the house that morning, was it not?”
“Sara, please. You’re not thinking clearly.”
She was silent a moment, as though turning the matter over in her mind.
“But it wasn’t your ring, was it? It was hers. Which means she still could have been the one to do it.”
“You’re not making sense, Sara. You’re seeing things that aren’t there.”
“Am I, now?” Sara said. She lowered the gun, turned, and looked back into the shadows around the house. “Gertie?” Sara called out. “Your father thinks I’m not right in the head. Come show him, darling. Show him the truth.”
Martin stood on the empty coffin, peering over the edge of the hole into the darkness. Somewhere in the darkness, a shadow moved toward them, shuffling through the snow.
Oh dear beloved Jesus, no. Please, no. Martin closed his eyes tight, counted to ten, trying to make it all go away.
He opened his eyes and scrambled at the dirt, clawing his way out of the hole, not looking at whatever was moving toward them from the shadows.
“Sara,” he said, reaching for the gun, wrapping his fingers around the barrel. The movement startled Sara, and the gun fired.
He heard the sound, saw the flash of light, felt the bullet hit his chest just below his rib cage on the left. He started to run in spite of the searing pain. He clapped a hand over the bloody hole.
“Martin?” Sara called. “Come back! You’re hurt!” But he did not turn back.
On he ran, across the yard and toward the woods, hand on his leaking chest, not daring to look back.