Chapter 20
Mylah
Every day I get better, stronger. The jagged lines on my back are slowly turning into scars.
Scars that I will carry with me every day of my life.
I’m not as embarrassed as I thought I would be.
I survived it. That’s all those scars will mean to me.
But will Tide think they're ugly? No, he wouldn’t. He’s not that kind of guy.
“You can’t sit like that,” he says as I look up at him from the chair I’m sitting in.
“Like what?”
“Like that,” he says, nodding toward me. I’m sitting with my legs pulled up, knees bent, with my feet on the chair, giving him the perfect view.
“What’s wrong with how I’m sitting?” I ask innocently. He hasn’t wanted to touch me since I’ve been back. He says he’s letting me heal, but I think I’ve healed enough. I want him. I need him.
“You know exactly what you’re doin’, Mylah.”
“Which is?”
“Come on, baby. You want somethin’, you just tell daddy what it is.”
“Is that all it’ll take?” I ask him as I shift slightly in the chair.
He nods his head, and that’s when I stand from the chair and pull my shirt over my head.
I don’t have anything under it, not a bra, no panties.
I’ve been trying to gain his attention for a while now, and while I appreciate the fact that he’s letting me take my time, I’ve had enough.
“I want you, Tide.”
“What do you want me to do?”
“Everything. I want your head between my legs. I want your cock inside of me.” I know how much he likes to be told what I want, and I’m willing to do it. I’ll tell him exactly what I need from him with no shame at all.
“Then what are you waitin’ for? Get on the bed, legs spread wide,” he says in a gruff tone. I walk past him and climb on the bed, spreading my legs wide.
“I didn’t hear it,” he says as he pulls his clothes off. At first, I’m confused, but then I know exactly what he wants to hear.
“I need you, daddy. I need all of you.” With that, he climbs on the bed and parts my thighs wider, and before I know it, he’s there.
His tongue is there. He’s devouring me, and I’m loving every second of it.
He licks, he sucks, and I feel like I’m on the high of my life.
I gasp for air as he takes everything I’m willing to give.
I arch my back, my hand finding its way into his hair as I tug to keep him closer to me.
His tongue runs a line along my clit before flicking it back and forth.
Then I feel his finger as it slides inside of me.
“Fuck, Tide.” He pulls away and looks up at me as I gaze down at him, wondering what he stopped.
“What did you say?”
“Daddy. Fuck, just don’t stop,” I pant as he smirks at me.
He lowers his head once more and gets back to work.
I can feel the wetness as it seeps out of me.
He pulls an orgasm from me so easily while I scream his name and pull his hair.
He lets me ride the wave before he climbs up my body.
Then his lips are on mine. Giving me a taste of myself that I never thought I’d like, but with Tide, I’m finding I like these new things.
Tide reaches between us and positions himself before thrusting into me. I claw at his shoulders as he takes me roughly. I let him fuck me hard and fast because that’s exactly what I need right now.
“Oh God!” I cry out as my body spasms around him. Tide doesn’t care that I scream for him. In fact, I think he likes it. He bucks into me harder and faster until I’m calling for him. My body tenses, and that’s it. I’m falling apart once more for this man.
Tide grunts and growls until he finds his own release, and then he pulls out of me and lies next to me. He reaches for me, tugging me into his arms.
“All you had to do was ask,” he tells me.
“I have been subtly,” I tease. He chuckles and sighs.
“Don’t do that shit. Just tell me what you want, Mylah. I’d give you anything.” And I’m learning that. Tide would do anything for me.
“I want to go out.”
“Where?”
“I don’t care. Just out. We’ve been stuck here for weeks. I just need a break, and I want to go back to work.” Now he tenses. I can feel him.
“Look, I know this is hard on you bein’ away from work but we don’t know who did this and I don’t like the idea of you bein’ out there alone.”
“Then come with me.”
“I can’t be there all the time. I have club shit to take care of.”
“Then have someone else come with me. Please, Tide. I miss work. I miss Bella. I need a break,” I tell him. He takes a deep breath and blows it out before he speaks again.
“Okay. I’ll get someone to go with you. I don’t like that it isn’t me.”
“I know, but I’ll be fine. You handle what you need to here, and I’ll be fine there.”
“I don’t like this, Mylah. Not even a little. Not until I know who did this.”
“I’m sure whoever you send will keep me safe,” I tell him. He looks over at me and smiles.
“Goddamn right they will, or I’ll rip their fuckin’ head off.” I giggle slightly because I think he’s overreacting just a little, but then I feel how tense he is, and I know he isn’t.
“It’ll be fine,” I tell him.
“It better be. I won’t lose you.”
“You’re not going to lose me, Tide. I’m here.”
“And that’s exactly where I want you.”
“Tide?”
“Yeah?”
“We didn’t use a condom.”
“Why would I? I plan on gettin’ you pregnant, Mylah.” His words seem so final, and this is just the beginning of our relationship. Am I ready for that? For kids with him? I’ve known Tide for years, but he’s always been in and out of prison. It scares me.
“Are you sure?”
“I’ll fuck you again right now to prove it,” he says sternly.
“What if something happens, though? I don’t want to raise a baby on my own.”
“I’m not goin’ back, Mylah. I’ve done a lot of shit in my past, but that’s where I’m leavin’ it. I want you. Always have. And I know you want a family. I’m ready to do that now.”
“We haven’t even been together that long.”
“And? That doesn’t mean shit to me, and you know it. I know all about you, Mylah, and if there’s somethin’ you wanna know about me, just ask.” He’s right. He doesn’t know all about me. In fact, he probably knows more than Christian ever did.
“I’m just worried.”
“Don’t be. I’m not goin’ anywhere.”