Chapter One #2
Kira crawled up on the couch beside me, putting her thin arms around my neck. I pulled her onto my lap and hugged her tightly. Zelda fidgeted, seeming uncertain what to do as she watched Violet. The urge to break down was strong, but I held everything in. For now.
“I’m leaving a list of phone numbers on the table,” Violet said as she handed me a glass of water.
“It’s basically a comprehensive list of people around the compound here and at the club you can call if you need anything.
Me, Hannah, and Pippa are the main three, but all the women listed are more than happy to come to you at any time.
If you have a security issue, call Knight and he will get someone on the way immediately.
” She sat on the coffee table in front of me.
“It’s a lot to take in,” she said quietly.
“I’m throwing a lot at you, and I know you’re not in the frame of mind to remember anything and that’s OK.
Me and the girls will be checking on you tomorrow.
I’ve got you guys some supper on the way, and I’ll bring breakfast in the morning.
Just get through the night knowing you and your daughters are safe.
We’ve all got your back, and this place is like a fortress. ”
“I’m sorry to be so much trouble,” I managed to get out. “Just… keep my girls safe.”
“You’re all safe.” Violet gave me a soft, kind smile. “Get some sleep. By the time they get here, every woman who comes to us is exhausted. Mostly from trying to sleep with one eye open all the time.”
“Thank you so much.” My voice broke on the last word, but I cleared my throat. “Thank you.”
“Get some rest. Food should be here in ten minutes. I’ll be back.
In the meantime, get settled. Maybe take a hot shower to wash the journey away.
If you don’t feel like eating, I’ll pack it up and put it in the fridge.
Got a fully functional kitchen in here if you want to cook, but most prefer to eat in the dining room.
So you can reheat it if you wake up hungry before breakfast.” She looked from me to the girls and back.
“You’re safe here, Penny. All three of you. ”
She gave me one more comforting smile before squeezing my hands briefly once again, then she left.
As the door closed behind her, I looked at my daughters -- Zelda’s defiant stance, Kira’s watchful silence -- and wondered if any of us remembered what safety felt like, or if we’d recognize it when we found it.
* * *
It took us a couple of days, but the girls finally decided it was time to get out and explore our new temporary home.
Just as she’d promised, Violet had brought the other women with her.
They visited us each day and brought three meals a day as well as snacks and basic groceries.
We’d all had a chance to sleep, bathe, and just…
breathe. Now it was time for us to begin this journey.
The hallway smelled faintly of lemon cleaner and fresh laundry, scents so normal they seemed strange after the stale cigarette stink of the bus. I perched on the edge of a donated couch in what they called the “common room,” watching Zelda and Kira case the place.
Violet appeared from around a corner, her red hair caught up in a messy ponytail.
“Penny, girls, this is my son Caleb,” Violet said, her hand resting lightly on the boy’s shoulder.
“He sometimes comes by after school when I’m working late.
He’s only ever in the front TV area so he’s available if anyone needs him to run errands. ”
“Errands?” Zelda tilted her head to the side.
Caleb shrugged. “You know. ‘Cause some of the moms here don’t feel safe leaving. I try to keep the boys company and be around in case anyone needs something we don’t have in stock.”
“So, you’re a gofer.” Zelda raised a challenging eyebrow.
I thought the teenage boy would bristle at her comment, but he smiled instead.
“Hey. Someone in this town’s gotta show women not all men are assholes.
Besides. Gofers are cute.” He smirked and, for the first time in a very long time, I saw a spark of the mischievous kid Zelda was before Andy lost his Goddamned mind.
Caleb had effectively thrown down a gauntlet Zelda couldn’t resist picking up.
Caleb hitched his backpack higher. “I brought a breakfast pizza, if you’re hungry.” He directed this at the twins, his voice matter of fact. “Figured it’d be better than yogurt or oatmeal.”
“What’s the catch?” she demanded, the phrase so familiar it made my heart ache. How many times had I heard those exact words from her when someone offered help?
“No catch,” Caleb replied with a shrug that looked too adult on a kid who was barely a teenager. “Just… breakfast.” He headed back over to the L-shaped sectional where there was a large coffee table and plenty of room for the pizza box and the small paper plates.
Kira looked up at Zelda, who shrugged, but I knew she was trying to act indifferent. Both girls followed Caleb and the three of them dug in.
“Thank you,” I said, the words feeling rusty in my throat.
Violet shook her head as she smiled. “That’s all Caleb. He’s got a thing about protecting women. Started with me. Bled over to the various women and kids who’ve filtered through here in the last few months since we opened.”
I turned to look at the young man. He had a kind smile and didn’t take offense at anything Zelda said to him, including her calling him a gofer.
“I think this is the first time Zelda has engaged with another person other than me or her sister for months. Kira certainly hasn’t been interested in being around others.
” Tears filled my eyes, but I choked them back.
I didn’t deserve to cry. Not over this. “I should have left months ago. The first time he hit me.”
Violet studied me, her eyes filled with something that looked more like understanding than pity. “You left when you could. That’s what matters.”
But was it? The weight of what Andy had planned to do with Zelda pressed down on me, suffocating.
I’d almost waited too long. One more day, and my daughter would have been gone forever.
“I heard him,” I whispered, watching the kids from across the room.
“On the phone. He was going to --” The words caught in my throat.
“He was going to give Zelda away. To pay some kind of debt.”
Violet’s sharp intake of breath was the only indication she’d heard me.
When I glanced at her, her face had hardened, a flash of something fierce crossing her features before she controlled it.
“Then you got out just in time,” she said, her voice low and steady.
“And you’re here now. We are more than capable and happy to help you.
You’re not alone anymore. Not if you don’t want to be. ”
Across the room, Zelda had managed to hustle Caleb into giving her and Kira the largest slices of pizza. I watched as Kira actually smiled -- a small, hesitant thing -- when Caleb said something I couldn’t hear.
“The girls seem comfortable with Caleb,” Violet said, leaning against the edge of the folding table. “That’s a good sign. He’s got a way with the kids who come through here.”
I nodded, running my fingers along a shelf of toiletry items. “Zelda doesn’t trust easily. Neither does Kira.” My throat tightened. “It’s been a long time since they’ve had the chance to just be kids.”
Violet smiled. “That’s why we’re here. To give you a safe place where you can rest, decide what your next move needs to be.
” She paused for a moment, hesitating before she continued.
“You’re probably wondering about the MC connection, right?
Most women who come here do. The guys know and do their best to make small, frequent appearances so everyone gets used to them.
Usually accompanied by a lot of food.” She smiled as if remembering something amusing.
I hadn’t asked directly, but the question had been gnawing at me since we arrived. A women’s shelter backed by a motorcycle club seemed like a contradiction in terms. “It crossed my mind,” I admitted. “When I think of bikers, I don’t usually think ‘women’s advocates.’”
Violet’s laugh was soft, tinged with something that sounded like hard-won wisdom. “I used to think the same thing. Until they saved me and Caleb.”
I looked at her, really looked, and saw something in her eyes I recognized all too well.
The shadow of someone who had survived when she didn’t believe she could.
I sucked in a breath, wanting to ask what happened but not being able to voice the question.
I had a feeling I was going to hear a story similar to my own.
“Caleb’s dad was… mean. He had money and thought his money would buy him whatever he wanted, basically. Caleb walked in on Doug one night when he was drunk, lost his temper, and beat me. My son heard and saw most of what happened and threatened to kill Doug if I didn’t leave him that night.”
I listened intently as Violet paused, gathering herself before continuing her story.
There was something in her eyes, a haunted look I recognized all too well.
The same look I saw in my own mirror on those rare occasions I dared to really see myself.
She tucked a strand of her vibrant red hair behind her ear and took a deep breath.
“I grabbed what I could carry, took Caleb, and we ran.” She glanced over at her son, who was still chatting easily with the twins.
“That’s when we met Riot. Lana Thompson, a local attorney, got us a hearing with a local judge about emergency custody.
Riot came with us to the courthouse. He stood by Caleb while he faced his father in court.
” She gave me a watery smile as she brushed a tear from her cheek.
“Anyway, they’re all good men. Knuckles doesn’t let anyone in he doesn’t fully trust. And they are all super protective.
They saved us,” Violet said, her eyes warm with emotion.
“Gave me and my son a home, and I couldn’t have asked for better role models than these guys. ”
Just then, the side door burst open with a bang that made me flinch.
“Sorry!” An enormous man shouldered his way through, arms laden with what looked like a dozen grocery bags.
His massive frame seemed comically burdened as he balanced the precarious load, his biceps straining against his T-shirt sleeves.
I couldn’t see his face, but I was pretty sure it was Riot.
“Damnit, Vi,” he grunted, staggering toward the kitchen area. “Next time make a smaller list or come help carry this shit.”
“Or you could make two trips like a normal person,” Violet called after him, not bothering to hide her amusement.
Riot deposited the avalanche of bags onto the nearest table with an audible sigh of relief. He turned to face us. What struck me most about the man from the first moment I’d met him was how his eyes softened when his gaze landed on Violet. This man adored her. And she felt the same about him.
“Two trips?” he said, looking properly disgruntled. “That’s quitter talk. There’s a reason I bench four-fifty.”
“To compensate for your stubbornness?” Violet teased, walking over to peek into the bags.
“To impress you, obviously,” he retorted, the corner of his mouth twitching upward. He winked at Violet, and the gesture transformed his entire face from intimidating to almost boyish. “Did it work?”
“Always does,” she replied with a laugh that sounded so free, so unburdened it made my chest ache.
In one smooth motion, Riot pulled Violet into his arms, engulfing her completely in a bear hug that lifted her feet off the ground. She melted against him, her hand coming up to rest on his cheek with such casual intimacy I had to look away, feeling like I was intruding on a private moment.
I couldn’t remember the last time someone had held me like that, like I was precious, like they’d always keep me safe.
The casual affection between Violet and Riot stirred something in me I’d thought was long dead.
Not just desire for a partner, though God knew it had been years since I’d felt wanted in that way, but for that evident security.
The knowing that someone had your back, completely and without question.
I glanced at my girls, still engaged with Caleb.
Zelda was actually smiling now, a sight so rare these past few years that it made my throat tight.
Kira had edged closer to the boy, her perpetual wariness easing just a fraction.
They deserved a life where smiles weren’t rare, where they didn’t have to be constantly on guard.
“Sorry,” Violet said, returning to my side after Riot set her down. Her cheeks were slightly flushed, her eyes bright. “He always insists on doing everything in one go.”
“It’s nice,” I said softly, meaning more than just Riot’s determination with the groceries.
Violet seemed to understand. “It wasn’t always like this,” she admitted.
“Trust takes time to build. For both of you.” She nodded toward Riot, who was now unpacking the groceries with the same intensity he’d carried them with.
“He’s a good man. They all are, in their own rough ways.
” I knew what she meant. I’d been wary of the idea of MC members being the security, but the men I’d met so far had been nothing but kind to both of us.
I watched as Riot noticed the kids and made his way over, offering Caleb a fist bump before nodding politely to my girls. He didn’t crowd them or try to engage beyond that simple acknowledgment and a kind smile. He respected their space.
Maybe this strange alliance between bikers and abused women wasn’t as contradictory as I’d first thought.
Maybe sometimes safety came in unexpected packages.
I didn’t know if I could trust these men -- trust was a luxury I hadn’t been able to afford for a long time -- but seeing Violet with Riot, seeing how she’d built a life here from the ruins of her old one, gave me something I hadn’t felt in years.
Hope. Fragile and tenuous, but there all the same.
And for now, that was enough to get through one more day. One step at a time.