Chapter Thirty-Three
Jayson
Lying down next to Chloe, I feel like my balls are about to burst or my dick is going to fall off if I don’t fuck her in the next few minutes. You aren’t going to fuck her for her first time, asshole , I think to myself. I wanted to relax her before I pushed inside of her, but when I flipped her over, and her pussy was right there, I knew I had to taste her. With her body still quivering every so often, all I want to do is take her now. I’m trying not to be selfish and remember this is her first time. But, anytime my mouth and hands are on her or my dick gets near her, a whole different guy takes over.
I stroke her hair and face and before I know it, I’ve moved down to her tits again. What the hell is wrong with me tonight? It’s like I can’t control myself and that is one thing I value, I always control myself. This is what I meant earlier when I said she owns me. It scares me sometimes and that makes me feel like a big pussy; I’m scared of a little 5’2” girl.
Feeling her hand on my cock, I shut down my thoughts and turn towards her. She is stroking me and it feels great, but if I don’t want to look like a thirteen year old boy, I need her to stop.
Grabbing her hand, I tell her, “That feels great, baby, but I’m not coming in your hand.”
She laughs and says, “Then I think you better get to deflowering me so you don’t have to worry about that.”
Right before I kiss her, I have to tell her, “You’re such a smart ass.”
She laughs harder and says, “If you don’t get a move on, we’re going to find out about
the sensitive nerve endings in your ass.”
I shake my head and get down to business. I start kissing her and I feel her hands go immediately into my hair. I’ve always loved kissing Chloe. She puts her whole self into it and it makes me feel like I’m the most important person in the world to her. As my tongue slides around hers and I suck it into my mouth, she starts whimpering. Call me crazy, but it feels like Jayson on steroids takes over. I want to consume her until she can only think of me.
These thoughts keep rolling around in my brain and as if she can read my mind, she pulls back and asks, “What’s wrong, Jayson? Why are you holding back?”
I don’t have an answer for her; maybe I’m afraid of hurting her.
Cursing my noble side, I tell myself to get it together before I scare her away completely. I start kissing her again, this time moving down to her neck, I suck and bite at her skin because like the caveman I’m discovering I am, I want to mark her for everyone to see. I find the spot where her neck meets her shoulder and bite down, but not hard enough to hurt her.
She starts moaning as I lick the spot I’ve bitten and says, “Oh, Jayson, that feels so good.”
Her response spurs me on and I leave open mouth kisses on every part of her body that I can get to until I reach her tits. I could spend all day right here and I take a hard nipple into my mouth. I can taste my soap that she used earlier in the shower along with the taste of her skin. Why that turns me on, I’ll never know, but it does. I lick all around her nipple and as she presses herself into my mouth, I finally suck. Her hips are moving as I do this and I want to make her as crazy as I am feeling.
As I move to the other side, she says, “I think I’m going to come if you keep doing that.”
I tell her, “Not yet, princess. I want to be inside of you when that happens.”
I move down and begin kissing her stomach, getting closer to her pussy.
It’s like a magnet for my mouth and as I reach her, she gasps out, “No, if you do that again…I’m going to come. Please, I need you to be inside of me. It’s important!”
She seems so adamant that I give in.
I know it’s time. I’m getting ready to be inside of heaven or at least something similar. I align our bodies and I look down into the face that I love so fucking much. I know I’m going to marry this girl one day. I can see her pregnant and beautiful with my son or daughter; I wish I wasn’t so responsible because I wouldn’t mind getting her that way tonight.
I pull her face into my hands and say, “You’re going to be mine now. Are you ready for that? Once you’re mine, there’s no going back. I won’t ever let you go.”
She shakes her head yes and with tears in her eyes, she says, “I’ll never let you go! You’re mine, Jayson Reece…forever.”
I pull the condom out I had stashed under my pillow and start to tear it open. She stops me and says, “Please, I want to feel just you. I’m on the Depo Provera shot and have been for four years. But, even if it were to fail, I would be thrilled to be the mother of your child.”
She stares nervously at me and I know by not saying anything, I’m freaking her out.
Again, I realize she owns me. I put the condom aside and I tell her, “I want the same thing. I just didn’t want to ask you. I would never put you at risk, but I thought your feelings might be different.”
She says, “Are you asking me that because of…”
I stop her and say, “Don’t say her name in our bed. But, yes, that’s why. Although, I want you to know, I don’t remember anyone but you.”
She kisses my chest and says, “Put your cock in me, Jayson.”
The caveman rears his head again and I rub my dick through her folds; as I tap her clit, she cries out. After I make sure that she is wet and ready, I push into her entrance and stop.
“Why are you stopping”, she asks?
I lay my forehead on hers and I say, “I’m probably getting ready to hurt you and it is gutting me.”
She doesn’t answer, but wraps her legs around my waist and pushes up.
My dick moves in a little more and I have to say one more time, “You’re mine, Chloe.” I feel the barrier and as I push past it, I say again, “You’re mine.”
The next thing I know, I’m buried all the way into what I knew it was going to be: heaven.