11. Jax
JAX
She walks into my apartment with a slow, sensual grace. Her eyes flicker to me over her shoulder and her cheeks hint at a blush.
I close the door, leaning against it and pushing my hands into my pockets. “Whatcha thinking about?”
Marley shrugs, her fingers running over the top of my chair as she walks around it and faces me. “You said you found that knot toy?”
My heart and my cock both jump. One with excitement, eager to have her again, the other nervous because I still don’t want to scare her before she gives us a real chance. “Yeah. I—uh, did.”
Our eyes catch again, and my tongue plays with the corner of my mouth as she cocks her head to the side. “Well, can I see?”
I huff out a breath of laughter and nod.
“Yeah, come on. It’s in my room.” Nerves tangle in my stomach because we haven’t been to my bedroom yet.
She’s only seen my living room, full of our memories.
Marley follows me silently down the hallway, and I open my door to lead her inside.
There’s nothing notable, just the usual bed, dresser, and nightstand.
Her nostrils flare, and for a beat I wonder if my scent is stronger here.
It would make sense since every night I lie there and stroke myself to thoughts of her.
I clear my throat and walk over to the nightstand, pulling out the box and tossing it on my bed. I don’t want to hand it right to her with the expectation she’ll take it.
Marley stares at it, her eyes a little wider.
“That’s the largest fucking dildo I’ve ever seen in my life,” she exclaims, then frowns. “Not that I’ve seen many, but god damn.”
I chuckle. “You want me to compare sizes?” I jest, moving to unbutton my pants.
She snorts, shaking her head. “Stop. I don’t need to be reminded of your big dick. It tore through my virginity, remember?”
I smile at her. “How could I forget?”
Marley rolls her eyes, then bites down on her lip and looks back at the giant fake cock. “So are we doing this?”
“Wait.” I rummage around my nightstand, finding the other thing I bought. I show her the bottle of lube. “I was reading up and they suggest this to help as well. Similar to how we trained your ass to take my cock.”
A delicious blush works on her cheeks, and she clears her throat, glancing anywhere but at me. “Alright.”
Setting the bottle next to the knotting toy on the bed, I walk over to her and grab her shoulders, rubbing down her arms. “We can save it for another night. We don’t have to rush through it.”
She shakes her head. “No, I want this. I want...Look, I need this. I need to know I can be everything for you.”
I frown, squeezing her tighter. “You already are.”
The smile on her face is a little broken. “We both want kids, Jax. That hasn’t changed for me. Has it for you?”
I could lie and tell her it has, but I have a feeling it would make things worse. That she’d see through it and never forgive me.
Marley’s eyebrows raise, a mocking look as if to say see, I told you.
I sigh. “There’s no guarantee that even if you can take my knot, that it will work.”
She nods. “But it’s the best option. And I can’t explain it, but I have to do this. I have to know that I can take it, and there’s nothing holding us back if it’s in the cards for us.”
My hand curls around her neck, my thumb rubbing along her soft skin. “Okay, but I just want you to know that I’ve only ever wanted you.”
Her pulse quickens under my fingertips. “I’ll try to remember that this time.”
When she doesn’t move, I lean down and brush a kiss over her lips, doing it again and again until it deepens.
My hand holds her neck tighter, our tongues circling each other as I step closer.
There’s no mistaking she can feel the erection pressing against her stomach.
Her hands slide up my chest and shoulders before I pull away.
“I have to prepare you.”
Marley frowns. “Prepare me?”
My fingers glide over her collarbone and the straps of her dress. “Gotta get you nice and loose to take a knot.”
She shakes with a bated breath. “How do you do that?”
“With my fingers…my mouth. I miss the taste of you.”
Her eyes flutter a bit, and she doesn’t object as I push her dress off her shoulders. I wait a few seconds for her to say anything before I tug on it and it falls to her waist, exposing the perfect mounds of her breasts. She’s not wearing a bra, and I groan seeing the brown tips of her nipples.
“Fuck, Marley.”
Her mouth curls. “Why don’t you check if I’m wearing panties next?”
My cock hardens painfully, having forgotten how playful and sultry she is when we fuck. The woman lives to tease me to death, and I fucking love it.
I kneel before her, looking up at her piercing stare as I yank the dress up past her hips and let it fall to the floor at her feet. My forehead presses against her soft belly when I see the dainty patch of hair over her pussy, exposed for me to see.
“Jesus. All night like this?” I mutter, and then lift her as I stand to drop her back onto the bed. She blinks up at me, her lips parted in surprise as I push her legs open and settle between them. “I can fucking smell how wet you are.”
I groan into her flesh, lapping up the juices gushing out of her sweet pussy.
It’s been a long time since I tasted the tangy nectar, and I’d forgotten how fucking delicious my woman tastes.
Growling, I feast on her cunt like it’s my last fucking meal, and I want to savor it for hours.
Marley writhes and whimpers under me, her hands switching from pulling on my hair to twisting in the sheets.
My cock is painfully hard, straining against my pants and aching.
“Jax. Oh, god. JAX!” Marley shouts my name as her legs shake next to my face, her hips rolling as her orgasm tears through her.
The sound of my name falling from her lips, thick with pleasure, does me in.
I can’t stop it as I come along with her, spurt after spurt inside my jeans.
I groan, pressing my face harder into her pussy as she convulses underneath me.
I lose my vision for a few seconds, coming so hard that I feel like I’m blacking out.
After a moment, I manage to lift myself up on shaky arms and then roll to my back at her side.
“Did you..uhm?” I can see her hand waving toward me.
“Come? Yeah. Give me a minute.”
She giggles, and it’s as though a fire has lit right in my heart. I smile up at the ceiling and I nudge her leg with my shoulder.
“Hey, you should be honored that I come just from tasting you.”
Her hand reaches down, messing with my hair.
“Oh, I am. Don’t you worry, big boy. My ego is thoroughly stroked.
” My inner alpha preens at the praise, happy to make her happy.
I roll onto my side, dragging my clothes off and grabbing the lube.
Marley watches me warily as I move to kneel between her legs, opening the bottle and squeezing a generous amount onto my hands before grabbing the dildo.
Her nostrils flare, and her lips part as I trace the tip of the cock along her pussy. “It’s not as thick as me; my knot is a bit bigger. You know that,” I tell her with a smirk, “but it will stretch you out.”
She nods, her flushed cheeks turning a brighter red. “What if it’s too much? And it hurts?”
I know she’s thinking of the one time we tried to press my knot in when we were younger.
She had cried at the pressure of it before I could really get much in.
I pull it up to show her the bottom where I’m holding it.
“It’s a slow pump, and it has a valve for quick release. You tell me to stop, and we’ll stop.”
Marley’s tongue drags over her lips and she nods.
“Open your legs wider for me.”
Her hands curl around her thighs, pressing her legs farther open, and I move the cock to her entrance, pushing it between her folds and slipping an inch inside her.
She gasps, wiggling her hips as I surge forward. I can’t look away as the dildo disappears, her wet lips wrapped around it. My cock twitches with the need to replace it, that it should be me driving into her sweet flesh. When it’s buried up to the slight bulge at the bottom, our eyes lock.
“How do you feel?”
Marley swallows. “Nervous, excited. It feels weird to see you, not feel you, but there’s a dick inside me.” A small bark of laughter bubbles out of her lips.
I raise an eyebrow, smiling down at her. “What was that?”
“I was thinking I could never be an omega. A dick in every hole? No thank you.”
I shake my head. “You don’t know if you’ve never tried. But that’s too bad for you because now you never will. You’re mine, and I don’t share.”
Marley’s lips twitch, and her pussy constricts over the dildo. I chuckle lowly. “Still get all hot and bothered when I get possessive?”
“Shut up and fuck me with the knot,” she snarls playfully.
“Be careful what you wish for, Kitten.” I wink at her and press the cock forward. “Don’t tense up, but tell me if it hurts.”
Marley’s beautiful plump lips part, her eyes on me as the small bulge disappears inside her. She wiggles her hips and then it pops through. She blows out a breath and gives me a small smile. “That’s not as bad.”
I tongue my cheek. “Sorry to say but that’s not even one pump. Ready?” I press the button, and Marley writhes a little.
“Could you feel it?” I ask, wishing I could see inside her pussy right now.
She blows out a breath. “Yeah. Do it again.”
I press the button again, listening to the click as the knot inflates.
Marley’s fingers shoot out to grab onto the sheets. “Again.”
I do what she commands and inflate it once more.
Her breasts quiver as her breathing picks up. I keep the smirk off my face and wiggle the dildo, moving as if I’m going to pull it out, the knot tugging on her entrance before I thrust it forward again.
“Fuck. Oh my god,” she curses, her eyes squeezed shut.
My tongue sweeps across my canine as my cock hardens, leaking at my tip with need. “Did it hurt?”
She pauses for a moment before shaking her head. “Just a lot of pressure, but it still feels good.”
My cock is aching so hard it’s like a steel rod. It doesn’t matter if I already came from the taste of her pussy on my tongue. Everything about Marley turns me on, and it’s been years without her.
I press the pump one last time. I won’t go past this one. I’m on the larger size, but not that large. Three pumps should equate to the size of my knot.
Marley moans, her fingers gripping the sheets even tighter. “No more.”
I nod. “That’s it, baby. That was the last one.”
Her breasts jiggle as her breathing picks up, and her hips wiggle with discomfort. I slide my hand over, thumbing her clit, and she jerks, but doesn’t push my hand away.
“How does it feel?”
Her eyes are still squeezed shut, and she only answers when I push the dildo toward her and back. Her hand catches my wrist and she blows out a breath.
“It’s fine. There’s a slight pain at first, but if you give me a minute to adjust I can handle it.” She blinks open her big brown eyes to stare up at me, letting go of my hand to hold out her own.
I entangle our fingers with a grin. “That's good. A few more times?—”
“I want to try now.”
My cock twitches with her plea, and I have to swallow down the want. “Marley, we should try the toy a few more times.”
She shakes her head, tears gathering her in her eyes. “I want this so bad. I know I can take it, and that’s all I’ve ever wanted to give you.”
My heart and mind are at war. One wants to give into her and the other’s terrified to hurt her. I release the pump, let the knot toy deflate, and then pull it out of her.
She must see my hesitation because as soon as I toss the toy, she’s on me.
Her hands are cupping my face and she’s kissing me with an urgency that makes me groan.
My clothes are tugged off and I’m laying her back down on the mattress as my hard cock bumps at her entrance.
I tear my lips from her, panting into her neck as I reach down and line us up before pushing into her.
My eyes roll back, feeling the snug heat of her channel again.
Fuck, it’s been so long, and I forgot how perfect she is.
I grunt, thrusting and shoving more of my cock inside her.
Marley’s breathless noises echo in my ear, her hands clawing at my back as I slip deeper. “Yes, Jax. I’ve missed you so much. Oh god, more.”
It’s hard to focus on anything else, my alpha instincts pounding into my head.
Knot her. Bite her. Mark her as mine.
It’s always been there, but never this strong.
I don’t know if it’s because we’ve been apart so long, or because I watched her pussy swallow a knot without a problem, but I struggle to remain in control.
My vision turns hazy as I bury myself until my knot bumps her entrance.
Marley gasps, her nails digging into my flesh, the sting of pain making it harder to focus on staying clear minded.
I lean back, needing some space between us as my hands slide to her waist.
Marley whines, grabbing on to my arms. “Please, Jax. Knot me, Alpha.”
It snaps the final thread, and I turn my attention to where my cock is buried in her cunt.
I watch as I slide out, her juices glistening over my shaft before I shove forward again.
I do it a few more times, but the last time I keep going, pressing my knot into her entrance.
Her back arches in my hold, but I keep her in place until finally, I pop through the tight ring of muscle and my knot slides deeper, swelling as I lock us together.
I roar as ecstasy blinds me, and my cock drains inside my mate’s womb.