Chapter Thirteen
Sky lay still and frozen under the covers. She was trying to control the nerves that raced through her and caused her teeth to chatter. She tensed when the door opened, and Jared walked in, closing the door behind him. She watched as he strode to the bathroom without glancing her way.
She knew she only had a few minutes before he came to bed, so she used the time to take deep breaths and try to settle her heart.
Her eyes scanned the room. She had made sure the curtains were closed to keep out the light of dusk that still kept the room lightened. She wanted it as dark as possible.
Sky drew in a startled breath when the bathroom door opened, and Jared walked through with just his boxers on. Her eyes jerked closed. She tried to calm the pounding of her heart at the sight of so much of his skin showing.
“Sky, take off the nightgown.”
Her eyes jerked open and then closed again when he stripped his boxers from his hips and threw them to the floor.
“What ... why?”
Sky tightened her hold on the blanket when the bedside lamp was turned on, and the covers slid from her grasp. “Wait, Jared, can’t you turn off the light?” she asked frantically.
Jared yanked a little harder until the covers were at the bottom of the bed. His hand went instantly to her long nightgown and started to pull it up.
“No, Baby. I want to see you. See your expressions to help me determine if I’m hurting you at any point.”
“But I’ll just tell you,” she stammered.
Jared pulled it over her head and threw it to the floor. A feeling of panic overtook her as she was displayed in front of him. Her hands went to cover herself.
Jared shook his head as his gaze raked over her. “No. I don’t ever want to see you cover yourself in front of me.”
“But—”
“There are no ‘buts.’ I’m your husband, and I have every right to see what’s mine. Now put your hands down by your side.”
Sky moaned her distress but did what she was told. She closed her eyes to prevent herself from seeing his expression of distaste or worse. Her body jerked, but she didn’t make a sound as her panties were pulled down and off her.
Jared watched how uncomfortable he was making her and wanted to stop, but she needed to get used to his eyes, hands, mouth, and body on her. He lay down and levered himself up on his elbow.
“Open your eyes and look at me.”
After a slight hesitation, Sky squinted open her eyes. A foreign feeling of heat ran through her at the look in his eyes and the hand he pressed against her stomach.
“Everything’s going to be okay.”
He said the words so gently it brought tears to her eyes and made her relax against the mattress.
****
Jared bent and lightly started to kiss her forehead, cheeks, and chin before settling on her mouth.
The kiss instantly raced out of control.
He twisted his lips to delve into her mouth with his tongue, touching and tasting as much of her as possible.
He moaned when her hands slid up his arm to circle his neck.
He kept tasting her until she started moving restlessly against him.
He trailed his lips to her neck before he bit down.
His heartbeat shuddered when she went wild under him.
The more he kissed, licked, and nibbled on her, the more frantic she moved.
God, had he ever gotten this response from any other woman?
He was pushing her steadily toward orgasm with just his mouth on her neck.
He wanted to keep her at a heightened level of need to make it easier for her to take him.
Jared raised his head. He wished he could have taken a picture of her right then.
She was the most beautiful thing he’d ever seen.
Her lips were swollen, red, and wet, and a flush of passion eclipsed her whole face and ran down her neck and chest. Her eyes showed a look of wonder that just about pushed him over the edge.
He slid his hand up and down her torso, cupping a breast for a moment before moving down and spearing his finger through her curls to delve into her.
He gritted his teeth at the feel of her hot and wet pussy tightening on his finger as if to keep him in her.
Jared thrust into her a few times before adding another finger.
He wanted to stretch her as much as he could for his invasion.
He continued to nibble on her neck as he pressed his thumb down on her clit and felt a fresh wave of moisture leak from her.
“Please, Jared,” Sky cried. “I need...” She paused because she didn’t know how to express the way she felt. She knew if he didn’t do something, she felt like she’d splinter into a thousand pieces.
He couldn’t wait any longer. Jared lifted himself on top of her, twisting his hips to make a place for himself between her legs.
He levered himself up on both elbows to study her expressions for any pain.
Jared gritted his teeth and started to push into her slowly.
He stopped at the fear and discomfort that flashed across her face and the fact she was fighting him.
“We’ll fit together, Baby, I promise. I just need to stretch you, so don’t move.
I’m going slow to prevent hurting you more than I need to.
Now be a good girl and stay still.” He kissed her forehead.
“I hate the thought of hurting you. You don’t want that, right, Baby?
You want me to go easy on you?” he purred in her ear.
Sky nodded her head rapidly as she tried to keep her body still.
When he’d touched her with his mouth and hand, it had felt wonderful, and she had wanted more, much more.
Now her vagina felt like it was being ripped apart, and she was terribly afraid it was going to get worse.
The quick look she’d had of his penis had been enough to make her want to run.
The only thing keeping her in the bed was the fact she knew he’d catch her before she made it to the door.
She didn’t have a choice right then. Oh, he would stop if she started fighting or crying, but she had too much pride for that.
Women had been taking men into their bodies since the beginning of time.
She reminded herself that eventually he would be done, and she could rest.
“You’re such a good girl. Hold on tight to me, Baby.”
When he felt her tighten her arms, he stopped briefly at her maidenhood but then burst through the thin membrane and steadily sank into her, making her cry out. He continued to work his cock into her, frequently stopping when she stiffened in discomfort or made sounds of distress.
“Jared,” Sky whimpered.
“It’s okay, Baby. Everything is going to be just fine. Just a little more.”
When he started pushing farther into her, the discomfort slid toward real pain at times before he’d stop and give her time to adjust.
Sky’s hands were placed solidly against his chest. She distantly recognized the strength of this man as his muscles rippled under her fingers as he moved.
Jared grunted in satisfaction and relief. “There, Sweetheart. I’m in. I told you we would fit.”
Jared kissed her as he rested inside her for a few minutes to let her adjust to his invasion.
Sky moved a bit and realized her discomfort was about gone and wiggled some more.
Jared lifted his head. “How does it feel?”
“I-I think it’s okay,” she said, amazed. “Are you done?”
Jared chuckled. “Oh, hell, no. We’ve only begun, Baby.”
At first, she felt dread start to grow, but then the small movement of his hips was starting to bring back the pleasant feelings he’d given her before.
Sky slid her hands around to his back, and her fingers dug into him as he started pulling out before driving back into her with slow and steady thrusts.
An overwhelming feeling of something she couldn’t describe was trying to overtake what sense she had left.
At first, she thought she would keep feeling the pleasure he’d brought her before, but Jared started moving quickly, taking over her body and taking all thoughts from her until she could only feel.
A sound of distress spilled from her mouth when the feelings built to the point she felt she’d break in two.
Jared pumped harder when he felt her starting to orgasm, pushing her steadily toward it even as she fought it.
“Sky, let go. I’ve got you.”
His reassurance was all she needed to go over.
Jared moaned when her orgasm made her tighten painfully around him. He gritted his teeth against his urge to yell.
“That’s it, Baby. Give me everything you’ve got.”
Moments later, Sky felt all her strength leave her and fell back onto the mattress because the orgasm left her boneless.
Jared thrust into her a few more times before taking his own pleasure. He came with a loud groan that seemed to last for minutes.
Jared took some breaths and made sure he kept most of his weight off her as he tried to gain a little strength so he could move. He took a deep breath and rolled to his back next to her, one of his arms going over his eyes and the other hand flat on his stomach.
Long minutes slid by, with the only sound she heard being their labored breathing.
The chill in the air slid over her overheated skin, making goose bumps and shivers overtake her.
She waited for him to move or say something, and as time passed, she grew more uncomfortable and distressed.
Finally, unable to stand the silence, Sky sat up and reached for the blanket, pulling it up and over her as she snuggled on her side away from Jared.
She desperately wanted to go to the bathroom when she felt his seed start to slide from her body, but stayed still for fear she’d do something wrong.
Sky swallowed back the tears that burned her eyes and bit her lip hard to distract herself from the pain growing in her midsection.
The emotions were overwhelming her, and he showed no affection toward her when she was at her most vulnerable.
She didn’t know how it worked, but she didn’t think him turning his back on her was normal.
She choked back a sob when Jared stood and silently walked into the bathroom, shutting the door behind him.
****
Jared closed the door before turning on the light.
He moved to the counter and used his hands and arms to lean over it and look at himself in the mirror.
His expression showed disgust. Not in her, in himself.
Fuck. He was so fucked. He’d never felt closer to another person in his life.
The sex he’d had before was satisfying, but it had never moved him, made him feel the emotions Sky pulled from him unintentionally.
He looked down and caught sight of her blood mixed with his semen, and it about set him off.
Dread ate at him. He washed his privates and then bent and splashed cold water on his face.
He just needed to stay away from her as much as possible, and when they had sex, he needed to go as quickly as possible, so the emotions didn’t have time to creep in.
Or he could always move her to another bedroom altogether.
The thought of not having her next to him at night was too much for him to give up at that moment.
He would just distance himself and keep busy.
He walked back into the bedroom and quietly slid into his side of the bed.
Jared rested back, listened, and hoped she was sleeping.
He didn’t detect any unsettled breathing or movement, so he relaxed.
Several minutes passed until sleep pulled him down.
His last thought before sleep claimed him was of her.
****
Sky kept her breathing deep and steady, waiting for him to go to sleep.
When she was sure he was asleep, she stood and quietly made her way into the bedroom across the hall and took a quick shower.
It lasted longer than she had planned when a bout of crying overtook her.
The emotional pain pulled her down to the bottom of the shower as she let the tears loose.
What had she done to make him turn away from her?
Sky thought he felt at least some of the emotions she had been feeling at the time.
Maybe she’d been lying to herself, so she’d feel less alone.
Many minutes later, Sky pulled herself up, turning off the water and drying herself thoroughly before putting on the robe hanging on the back of the door.
She quietly moved back into the master bedroom.
Sky couldn’t make herself lie down next to him just yet and took a throw blanket to one of the large chairs by the window and curled up.
Sleep overtook her as the gray light of the moon came through the part in the curtains.
****
Jared woke in the middle of the night when he reached for her, and her side was cold. He levered himself up on an elbow and saw her instantly. He opened his mouth to call to her but stopped. He knew if she came back to bed, he’d have her under him again, and she’d be far too sore to take him again.
He would discuss the situation with her in the afternoon the following day.
Right now, the emotions were still too high for both of them.
A feeling of shame swept through him as he lay back down.
He could tell she was unhappy and couldn’t be very comfortable curled up in the chair, but he couldn’t bring himself to have her near him right then.
It felt like he was fighting some internal battle with himself that he knew he couldn’t lose, but also never win.