Journei
Gills. His name was on repeat in my head. Once again, I was stuck and wet like our first encounter. I wasn’t attracted to men, but my body responded with the same reaction twice upon seeing him. No man had ever brought that out of me.
I had no problem telling a man if he was handsome or not. I felt nothing for them sexually and never had until… him. We didn’t know each other, but it was as if he had control over my body, and that I didn’t like.
Alexis was speaking, but I heard nothin’ she was sayin’. Gills was occupying my mind at the time. The way he looked at me was scary. Scared me to where I truly felt like he saw every flaw and wound that had yet to heal.
“This my last time askin’ you what the fuck that was about?” Alexis had finally gained my attention.
“What you mean? I never seen that man before.” I grabbed my shot and threw it back.
“So, a nigga you never seen before got you that hot and fuckin’ bothered? You eye fucked the nigga right in front of me. Man, move.” Alexis stood and walked off.
She gave me no time to respond at all. I didn’t mean to react in that manner. I yelled for her to come back, and she ignored my request. I was about to let a tear fall when Belle Air grabbed my face and wiped it.
“No, ma’am. It’s your birthday. Go talk to her or talk to Hunz first and then her. Don’t leave her to be angry, Nei. Whatever just happened she’s in the dark about, clear it up for her,” Belle advised.
I nodded and grabbed Hunz’s hand. We needed to talk because it was partially his fault. I had no idea he and that man were friends. Excuse me, best friends. Gills had to be the other best friend I thought I was better than.
All through college, he tried to get me to meet Gills, but I didn’t like to be around men, so I felt like there was no point.
We went to the stock room near Alexis’s office to talk. I opened my mouth to speak when he shut me down. “Nah, best friend. The fuck you and Gills got goin’ on. I’m too drunk for this shit.”
“Nothin’!” I yelled. “He just… I get… fuck, Hunz. I don’t know. I’m not attracted to men at all, but when I see him, I can literally feel my body call out to him. This made the second time, Hunz. It’s like he has an unspoken spell on me or somethin’.”
“Not you likin’ dick this whole time. You got a whole wife, bruh.”
“I know!” I hollered when I shouldn’t have. “And I don’t like dick, fool.”
I stood there in turmoil. My wife was under the impression that somethin’ was under wraps with me and Gills when that wasn’t the case at all. I didn’t want her to feel like I did her wrong in any shape or form. I loved her way too much to ever do somethin’ like that to her.
Tears started to fall voluntarily. I couldn’t lose Alexis.
She was my reason for smiling, and I wasn’t gon’ allow that to change.
Hunz brought me in for a hug, and I silently cried on his chest for a good two to three minutes before I got myself together.
Belle was still there, and it wasn’t fair to have him with me and not her in a club full of men.
“Let me talk to my wife. Have yours take you home, drunk ass. It’s late, and she’s pregnant. Take my gifts with you please.”
We walked out, goin’ our separate ways. I walked in Alexis’s office to see her sitting at her desk with a bottle of Hennessy to her lips. She was in her feelings, and she didn’t need to be. In order for somebody to come between our union they would literally have to take me from her.
I walked over and sat on her lap. Surprisingly, she didn’t ask me to move. I took the bottle from her, took a swig as well, then placed it on her desk. We sat in silence for a while until I broke the ice.
“Don’t be mad. My reaction to Gills was unexpected for the both of us.
I never been attracted to any man, so that threw me for a loop.
” Grabbing her face, I made her look me in the eyes.
I needed her to know I was serious. “Alexis, I married you for a reason. I love the fuck outta you, and I’m not gon’ fuck up what I have with you. I’m yours.”
My lips connected with hers, and my emotional ass started crying. I really loved that woman with everything I had. She broke the kiss to dry my face. I was still awaiting for a response to what I said, but it didn’t seem like I was gettin’ one.
She tapped my leg for me to get up. When I did, my wife picked me up and sat me on her desk. She placed herself back in the chair and slid between my legs. One after the other, she put a leg over her shoulder. Her face was inches away from my pussy. She wanted her tongue to do the talking for her.
Sliding my panties to the side, her mouth delivered a kiss my top lips envied. Alexis knew exactly what her mouth could do, and so did I. Her tongue stroked at a steady pace across my clit, pulling me to the edge. All she had to do was stick those two fingers in, and I was gon’ lose it.
I lay flat on my back and let my baby devour what was rightfully hers. My wife had my juices flowing like a river. She was trying her best to catch it all, but it was in tandem. Those small orgasms were leading up to that one that might take me out for the night.
“Leeexxxx.”
My wife was no longer playing fair. She sucked on me like a baby would a nipple, making all my blood rush to the tip of my clit. Her fingers were inserted, and the most she could do was swipe them across my spot before I released a gut-wrenching orgasm.
“Aaahhhh! Fuuuuckkkk!”
Irregular breathing and weak limbs were what I was left with. Alexis popped her head up with my juices dripping from her chin. I loved how nasty she was. She grabbed my hands and pulled me up into a kiss. Shit like that made me want to stay on top of her.
“I love you too, wife. Let’s get cleaned up and finish celebrating.” Hearing her say that slowed my breathing down. I could relax then.
We got ourselves together in her office bathroom and returned to the section. Max and Farrah were still there gettin’ fucked up. Alcohol entered my body once a year, and since my day wasn’t over yet, I turned up for the one time.
I’m a tiger with the cat
I had that pussy comin’ back-to-back.
Them bitches all in your ear, tryna talk
Tell ’em you don’t wanna hear it.
That pussy throbbin’ when I’m near it…
Sean had Gucci Mane’s “Meeting” booming with Foogiano spitting my favorite verse.
Two hours passed since Alexis got me right in her office.
I was feeling myself due to the alcohol I was consuming, and my wife was gettin’ one bomb ass dance from my drunk self.
I was with family, so I felt content and safe.
“Sis, come with me to the bathroom right quick. Max is ready to go.” I nodded and let Farrah practically drag me behind her.
I didn’t use the bathrooms down there. They were nasty, and too much traffic ran through the area. Farrah ran in, taking the first stall available. I stood there with a queasy stomach and aching heels. I felt like I hit my limit.
Farrah walked out, heading to the sink to wash her hands. The damn bathroom had me ready to throw up. It smelled so bad in there. Bitches were too old to have an odor and shit. Soap and water were all it took.
“I’m sorry, sis. I know it stinks.”
“Do you? ’Cause, bitch, you would’ve used the office bathroom like I’m about to. Let me get you to Max first.”
The club was still packed. Them niggas wasn’t goin’ home ’til Sean got on the mic saying get the fuck out. Alexis had a good turnout anytime her doors opened. Everybody stepped through, whether they were gay or straight, and partied regardless.
When we got back to the section, I saw Alexis was gone. I asked Max where she went, and all his ass could say was “over there”. Like, nigga, what sense did that make?
I searched for her everywhere before I went to her office to check the cameras. I went to turn the knob and was in for a surprise. Alexis’s door was never locked. I dug in my clutch for the key.
What I witnessed when I opened the door sobered me up quick. A couple of hours ago, my wife had her face between my legs, yet I was witnessing a face between hers. She was so into it she never heard me.
I walked over, making sure to slip my ring off in the process. Cheating was the one thing I didn’t tolerate. When I saw who was making my wife lose everything, she had with me, I let out a scoffed laugh.
“You told me not to worry about this bitch. That she was in your past, right?”
Hearing my voice startled her. “Fuck. Journei, wait.”
As hard as Alexis tried to shoo her ex away, Trina wasn’t budging. She had her arms wrapped around my wife’s legs, holding her in place. Trina ignored my presence and continued eating, pissin’ me off by the second. Alexis even closed her eyes for a second to enjoy the pleasure.
I grabbed my wife’s hand, placing my ring on her finger.
Our marriage was over. I headed for the door and stopped midstride.
I came up out them heels so fast I almost twisted my ankle.
I ran back over and dropped as many blows as I could on Trina’s head before Alexis pulled me off.
That bitch tried the fuck outta me. I turned around and smacked fire out Alexis when I found my footing.
Grabbing my clutch, I rushed out the office, throwing my key at her head.
Fuck that bitch. Nobody deserved to get cheated on.
I didn’t care what occurred; if you felt some type of way, just leave.
I didn’t let a single tear fall until I was in my car.
Bad shit never seemed to be too far behind me I swear.
I drove to my best friend’s. Goin’ home wasn’t an option for me. I wanted nothing else to do with Alexis Tucker. That made the second time love bruised my heart. Love took my mother away from me and then my wife.
My father claimed his anger and violent ways were because he loved my mother so much. Alexis claimed she loved me by making me her wife. I swear if my heart took another blow, it was gonna shatter.
My phone was ringing back-to-back with calls from Alexis. I wasn’t in the mood to hear “I’m sorry” over and over. I wasn’t in the mood to hear shit from my cheating ass wife period. I didn’t hurt the people I loved. I just didn’t do it.
It was after three when I got to Hunz’s. I was in tears and shoeless. My heels were still in Alexis’s office—in the same spot more than likely. I hated waking Belle up knowing she needed the rest, but I needed my friend.
I had a key to my best friend’s place, and vice versa.
The alarm was gon’ wake the house, I was sure.
Placing the key in the door, I took a deep breath before turning it.
Once I opened the door, that loud ass alarm went off.
I tried to disable it as fast as I could.
Belle ran downstairs with Hunz’s gun in hand.
“It’s me, Belle. Put that shit down please.”
She popped the light on with her chest heaving. “Fuck, Nei. What are you doin’ here? Where is Alexis?”
“We’ll talk in the morning. I need some sleep.” She gave me a skeptical look but accepted it. I shut the door and tapped the code to secure the house once again.
Walking up them long ass steps was a no-go, so I took the bedroom downstairs.
It was dark throughout the house, and my eyes had already adjusted.
I managed to make it to the guest bedroom without bumping into anything.
I walked past the bed and headed right for the shower.
I was past aggravated and hurt. I needed a moment to take it in.
I could do that under the steaming water.
I undressed and cried like a baby in the shower. So many tears fell I wondered on how I was still producing them. I went from standing to sitting, knees to chest with my arms holding them in place. Heart break was starting to consume me.
By the time I found the strength to move, I was starting to shrivel up. The water temperature had finally gone cold. If I planned on gettin’ any sleep, I needed to lay down like yesterday. I washed quickly, then wrapped a towel around my body.
Lookin’ at myself in the mirror, I saw that fragile girl surface. I tried my hardest to stay away from her. I thought I was making progress from that scared thirteen-year-old I used to be, but I fell right back into that hole. I just wanted to be loved and happy like the people I was surrounded by.
I wiped myself off, then towel dried my hair, brushed my teeth with an individually wrapped spare they had stored under the sink, then headed to bed. I never slept in clothes, and just because I was at Hunz’s didn’t mean I was about to start.
Climbing in bed, I got comfortable. I was completely drained. I was seconds away from dozing off when I felt a foot touch my leg. My eyes popped open with adrenaline flowing through my veins.
I slowly sat up and looked over to the other side. There wasn’t no way there was a whole body beside me, and I didn’t notice. “Huuuunnzzz!” I screamed for my best friend. The lamp on the nightstand came on, and I was face-to-face with Gills.