22. Fen
This was who he was now, just this desperate writhing thing, ass in the air, panting and begging for his alpha to give him what he needed. In this moment, his omega didn’t care about equal rights, he didn’t care if he was the picture of the trad wife. His higher thought processes were gone, and the only thing that mattered was the ache between his hip bones, the emptiness. Only his alpha could fix it. He pathetically pushed back in Loch’s direction with a distressed whine. “It hurts.”
He shivered as Loch slipped four fingers inside him like it was nothing, working them in and out experimentally, like he was seeing if Fen could take it. The wet sound of Loch’s fingers fucking his own slick back into him was driving him crazy. He should have been embarrassed. Humiliated, even.
Instead, he used those fingers like he would any other toy, grinding on them, shamelessly moaning long and low when Loch matched his rhythm. It was good, so good, dragging gasping breaths from him each time they connected. But it wasn’t enough. It wasn’t deep enough, he wasn’t full enough. His body wasn’t fooled. Loch’s fingers alone couldn’t give him what he needed.
“I’m ready,” Fen panted, the words punched out each time Loch’s fingers bottomed out. “I can take it. I swear, I can take it. Please, alpha. I’m so empty.”
He made a sound of mourning as Loch’s fingers disappeared. He almost cried in relief when he heard Loch’s zipper give way and the sound of clothes rustling.
“Hurry,” he begged, delirious.
Oh, please, oh, please, oh, please.
He yelped as a hand cracked over his ass, more loud than painful. “Do you think you’re in charge here?” Loch asked darkly. “Are you telling your alpha what to do now?”
Fen’s eyes rolled back in pleasure, slick running down his thighs. “No, alpha. I’m sorry. I just need it, need you so badly. It hurts. It hurts so bad.”
He fisted at the mattress, drool pooling on the sheets beneath him. He was too far gone to even close his mouth. He needed Loch to fuck him, breed him, use him. His omega needed it more than air. He was so empty.
Why wasn’t Loch giving him what he needed? “Haven’t I been good?”
Large firm hands cupped his ass, spreading him apart, as Loch practically purred, “You’ve been so good for alpha, baby. So good. But this is your first knot.”
A miserable sound broke free. What? What did that have to do with anything? Loch had just fucked four fingers into him like it was nothing. Wasn’t that enough? He thrashed his head back and forth in the sheets, wanting to scream. “I don’t care. I can take it. I can. Please, just fuck me, put it in already. Don’t make me keep begging. This is so embarrassing.”
A loud sob escaped, tears leaking from his eyes, rolling hot down his flushed cheeks. He was going to be mortified about this later. Crying over his alpha’s knot like some kind of bitch in heat. But that was what he was. What he was supposed to be. But his alpha didn’t want him. He’d failed. His alpha didn’t want him. Didn’t want to breed him. Claim him. Mate him.
“Okay. Okay. Shh, easy,” Loch soothed, petting his hands down Fen’s sweaty back. “Alpha’s got you.”
“Alpha…” he echoed. “Alpha’s got me.”
“Yeah, baby. Just relax for me.”
“Alpha’s got me,” Fen said again, words muffled against the pillow.
A blunt pressure settled against his twitching rim. Fen stilled instinctively. Had Loch gotten bigger since a few minutes ago? How the fuck was that supposed to fit? Fen’s body throbbed, the ache intensifying like it knew how close he was to what he needed. His muscles trembled, his core contracting. “Do it,” he cried. “I was made for this. Just this. For you. For you to fuck and mate and breed. You said so. Y-You said so…” he babbled.
“Okay, baby. Okay.”
Then Loch breached him, pushing past that tight ring of muscle that clamped down to fight the intrusion. Fen gave a pained cry, instinctively trying to get away, but Loch’s large hands spanned his hips, holding him firmly. His voice was low and dangerous, his breathing labored. “Stay. Still. If you fight me, you’re going to trigger all my predator instincts and send me into rut. And then I’m gonna do something we’ll both regret.”
Even in his fevered state, Fen could hear the tightness in his words, could feel that Loch was barely hanging on. Fen’s omega whispered for him to move, to challenge him, to make himself prey so that Loch would pin him to the bed by his throat and fuck his knot into him. But his body was locked up tight, so still his organs trembled, his ragged breaths syncing with Loch’s as they both fought to remember who they were outside of that room.
Fen thought he’d be better prepared for this. He’d been with betas before, had even used knotting dildos during his heats, but it was nothing like this. Cold plastic couldn’t hold a candle to his alpha. Loch was so big, so hard, so heavy inside him, pushing his body to its very limits, and that wasn’t even his knot.
Fen could hear this mewling sound, goosebumps erupting along his flesh as Loch began to drag blunt nails from his shoulders to his ass, not hard enough to break skin, but enough to sting. Each breath Loch released huffed through his nose, a low growl rolling from his lips. He hadn’t moved in minutes, but Fen was afraid to beg, afraid because Loch was afraid. He appeared to be fighting against every instinct.
If this had been the old days, Loch would have simply hunted him through the forest, gave chase, then dragged him back to the village where he would have forcibly mated him in front of everyone. Teeth sunk into his neck, blood on his tongue, taking what he wanted.
Fen moaned at the thought, rocking back on Loch without thought, imagining getting railed in the dirt, naked on all fours, the entire pack watching. A delicious shiver of heat rolled over him with every roll of his hips, unable to stop himself once he started.
Loch’s hand came down hard on his ass again, this time with far more strength than the last, the sharp sting stealing Fen’s breath and making him clench down on the alpha. When Loch did it again, Fen moaned, dropping his head even more, making himself as submissive as possible.
Loch scoffed, his voice far less human than it had been moments ago. “You said you wanted alpha, but look at you. Fucking yourself on my cock like some desperate little slut. Maybe I should leave you to your toys. I’m sure you brought them.”
Panic shot through Fen. He tried to turn to look at Loch, but he deliberately kept himself out of his limited line of vision. “No. No. No. No. Don’t want toys. Want alpha. Need alpha. Need you. So empty. Fill me up. Fuck me. Use me.”
Another animalistic sound. “Beg. More.”
Fen nodded frantically. “Please, alpha. Please, it feels so good. You feel so good inside me. I’m so full. Need you to move, to fuck me, to give me your knot, your…pups.” Another sob escaped as he once more rubbed his face into the sheets. “Please, alpha. Give it to me. I need?—”
The rest of his words became a strangled cry as Loch buried himself to the hilt in one hard thrust, a near feral growl rolling from deep within his chest. He hadn’t even been all the way in. Fen felt like he could taste him in his throat. He was so deep. Fen couldn’t think, could barely speak.
Loch ground his hips against his ass. “Christ. You’re so fucking tight. Like a virgin.” He draped himself over Fen, one hand planted against his head. Fen shivered as the alpha’s hot, wet tongue licked the sweat from his skin.
“Alpha…” was all Fen could say. “My alpha. So full.”
He was so deliciously hazy, heat shocking along his nerves with even the slightest roll of Loch’s hips.
Loch gave a pleased rumble. “Such a good omega, taking all of me at once on your first try. My perfect little omega. My perfect mate.”
Even cock drunk and desperate to come, Fen’s omega preened. He wanted to be good for his alpha, wanted to please him.“Your mate. Just yours. I need you. Need your knot. Need you to claim me, mate me, bite me.”
Loch growled, pulling out until only the head remained before slamming home once more.
Fen screamed at the sensation. “Do it again, please, alpha. Use me like you would if you were in rut.”
Teeth sank into his shoulder blade, breaking skin, and then Loch was pounding him into the mattress without any finesse whatsoever, each thrust hard enough to drive Fen forward if not for the teeth sunk into his skin. Fen wanted the bite higher, wanted more than just some teeth marks and a bruise. He wanted the world to know who he belonged to.
When Loch finally released the skin, he licked the blood from the wound. “You were made for this. Made to take me. Look at you,” he muttered. “So good for me. Mine.”
“Yours,” Fen heard himself agree.
The way Loch fucked him was brutal. Animalistic. He felt like every thrust was splitting him in half, forcing out a space for Loch to live forever. Fen couldn’t talk, couldn’t think. Loch was using him, holding him so tight. It seemed hard to believe anybody could take this type of abuse, but Fen reveled in it, craved it, wanted more, more, more. “Alpha…”
Loch gave him what he wanted, his hips slinging against his ass hard enough that the slapping of their skin hurt Fen’s cheeks where Loch had spanked him. They were both sweaty, both panting. Heat pooled deep within him, each thrust glancing against his prostate in a way that sent little sparks of pleasure along his nerves until he was begging for Loch to do it again and again.
“Oh, fuck. You’re so… Oh, my God. You’re so deep, so heavy, I can feel you,” Fen slurred, delirious. “Definitely gonna take. Gonna be so full of you.”
Another raw sound escaped Loch. “Yeah, is that what you want?” he ground out with every thrust. “Wanna be full of my pups? Want to be all swollen here?”
Loch yanked Fen to his knees, his back to Loch’s chest, not even slowing his rhythm. The change in position forced Loch even deeper, impaling him on his cock. Fen’s head fell to his shoulder, boneless, a rag doll for Loch to fuck and use, totally at his mercy.
He took Fen’s hand in his own, then pressed it to his stomach. Fen gasped as he felt his tummy move with each thrust. That was Loch…Loch was that deep inside him, moving inside him. This was how it was supposed to be. This was what he was made for.
“Oh, my God,” he said, words punched from him as Loch bounced him on his dick like he weighed nothing. “ I can feel…” he started, then forgot what he was saying. “So good. Feels so good. Just what I needed. Alpha’s so good. The best. Fucks me the best.” Loch groaned when Fen moved his hand, pressing Loch’s hand to the bulge instead. “Yours, alpha.”
Loch growled against his ear. “Fuck, you’re just so little, so tight.” He bit down on Fen’s scent gland, worrying the skin there like he wanted to bite down, like he needed to not just fuck and breed him, but to claim him. Instead, he bit his shoulder again, then the back of his neck, each time driving a pained cry from him, each time breaking the skin until Fen could feel blood and saliva rolling down his spine.
“You’ll show so quickly,” Loch rumbled against his skin. “Your little tummy pooched out, all round. Everyone knowing you’re taken. You’re mine. You’re gonna look so fucking hot, all heavy with my babies.” His hands slid to cup Fen’s chest. “Your tits all swollen.”
Fen gasped, his neglected cock throbbing between his legs. He’d never thought about babies before, not really. Spending his heats alone made babies impossible. But now, stuffed full of Loch, his knot inflating just enough to cause a mind-numbing stretch as he fucked it in and out of Fen, all he could think was please, let it take.
Loch’s knot stretched him painfully but still wasn’t fully popped. He seemed to be enjoying the way Fen’s rim squeezed around it every time he drove in and out of him. “I don’t think it’s gonna fit,” Fen whined, his nails clawing at Loch’s forearms. “I think it’s too big.”
Loch nipped at his ear. “I’ll make it fit.”
Fen moaned, pleasure punching through him at his words. “Oh, God. Yes, please. Do it. Make me take it. Need it. Need you. Need alpha. Need you to fuck me full of your pups. Please, alpha. Want it so bad.”
“Gonna give you what you need,” Loch promised. “Gonna fuck you full, knock you up, keep you on my knot even once it takes. Fuck my babies into you again and again.”
His knot battered at Fen’s hole relentlessly. Then Loch gripped Fen’s hips, thrusting hard two more times, slamming Fen down on his cock just as he drove up into him one final time, his knot forcing a scream from him as it locked in place. It was a peculiar feeling, being locked together, Loch was still thrusting, still hadn’t come, but his knot pressed right up against Fen’s prostate, grinding against it with each movement.
Loch wrapped a hand around Fen’s wet cock, stroking him once, twice and then he was gone, his orgasm washing over him, his release spilling over Loch’s fist. His whole body shook with the force of it, his walls spasming around Loch.
“Oh, fuck,” Loch snarled. “You’re clenching on my knot. Gonna fill you up ‘til it’s dripping out of you.”
Fen shook his head frantically. “No, don’t waste it,” he slurred. “Gotta stay in me. Gotta take. Give it all to me. Give me your pups.”
Two more aborted thrusts and Loch was groaning, biting down on Fen’s shoulder one final time. Fen didn’t even cry out, too sated to even care about the shooting pain or the aches from all the other bites or his screaming muscles.
Loch moaned against his skin, grinding his hips against Fen’s ass. “It’s so much,” Fen said. “Definitely gonna take. Gonna give me all your pups,” he managed, eyes already closing. It just kept going. There was so much.
It had to take. It had to work. Fen was a good omega. He’d give his alpha all the pups. So many pretty babies for their pack. Loch whined, licking at Fen’s bloody shoulder. Oh, God. He’d said all of that out loud.
“Why didn’t you claim me?” Fen mumbled, fighting the sleep threatening to overtake him.
Loch held him tight, trying not to jostle him too much as he laid them down, carefully spooning Fen. “Comfortable?”
“Mm,” Fen said. “Sleepy.”
“Go to sleep, baby.”
Fen dragged his eyes back open. “Stay inside me. Gotta take. Gotta have your babies. Gotta be a good omega.”
Soft kisses peppered his hair, his cheek, his temple. “You’re so good, baby. The best. You did so well.”
“So well…” Fen said, nodding.