Chapter 35 #3
He stares at me for a few seconds, those dark eyes moving over my face before they drop to my big belly and the alpha who’s now singing to it, and I don’t miss the small smile that curves his lips or the thought that runs through his head.
He’s happy I’m pregnant, thrilled that we’re having a baby, but he’s terrified it’s going to be anything like him because Rune still doesn’t think he’s good enough for us.
He doesn’t think he’s smart enough, feels like everything about him is less than, and he’s worried he’s going to pass something like that on.
Rune is also extremely concerned that the baby is going to hate him and he’s going to be a horrible father, despite how absolutely absurd that is. It just isn’t true.
But I know my mate is excited.
They all are, and they’re all going to be amazing fathers.
This baby is so lucky.
They—I hate using it or they but the majority ruled and we’re waiting to find out the sex—have so many people who love them already.
Five fathers ready to spoil and protect, to teach and nurture.
Granted, some of the things they want to teach the baby are very illegal, and protection might mean never leaving the property, but the fact that all of my mates are thinking like that when we still have a few months before we even get to meet our baby, is more than I could have asked for.
Tatiana is beyond thrilled.
She knows this baby is technically her niece or nephew, that she’s really an aunt even though they’ll only have a five year age gap, but she’s acting more like a big sister, and I’m perfectly fine with that.
Especially since I understand how she feels.
That beautiful little girl is my sister in law but it’s hard not to feel like her mom, not when my pack is raising her like she’s always been with us, like she’s one hundred percent ours, and knowing her parents are gone only makes those feelings stronger.
And I love how excited she is for our pack, our family, to grow.
Our baby even has the extended family I did have but wasn’t allowed to see. Aunts and uncles, cousins and grandparents.
Mine were ripped from me the second my father found out I was an omega, and after I left that stupid compound, all hope I had for getting them back vanished in the wind.
But my baby won’t have to worry about that.
I thought Styx’s parents were going to fly right out of here and through the ceiling when we met for the first time.
His mother was a mess of emotions already, meeting her baby boy’s pack and the people who love him more than anything in the world, but when we told them I was pregnant, I was worried she might explode into a supernova.
Even Ransom was happy when he found out.
As happy as he gets, anyway, and Sage is already planning playdates for them.
This baby is going to have the best of everything, including a huge family who will love it forever. Our baby is going to have the life I never had, he or she will have the one I always wanted, and that’s more than I could ever ask for.
“And they’ll have you.” I look down at Leo as he wraps his arms around my waist and gives me a tender smile. “Our baby will have you, and that makes them luckier than any of us could have dreamed.”
Ignoring how emotional that comment is making me, I smirk and say, “You’re just sucking up because you’re hoping for morning sex.”
“Guilty as charged,” Leon laughs and I know I’m not wrong about that, but I also know he’s giving me an out, and I love him for it.
I spend enough time crying and being emotional, and I’m barely into the third trimester, I don’t need my mates being sweet and perfect on top of it. I’ll never be able to function if they don’t keep things somewhat lighthearted and normal.
“We have to get ready for work,” I say as my alpha backs away slowly, his dick half-hard as he moves deeper into our nest then lays with his head on Rune’s stomach, his evil grin directed at me.
My god, I will never not be an absolute mess of slick and arousal when I’m faced with a scene like the one I’m staring at.
They aren’t even doing anything, just sitting together in an extremely relaxed and affectionate way, but all three of my alphas are naked as the day they were born, each of them are absolutely beautiful, and they’re all getting hard the longer I stare.
Well, it looks like I won’t be getting that jump start afterall.
“This feels wildly unfair.”
I turn toward the sound of his voice as Styx and Niko appear in the doorway, the two of them smiling like they just won the lottery despite the accusatory tone our beta used.
“Nothing is happening,” I say, the words full of shit even to my own ears. “We all have to get ready for work.”
Niko tugs his tank top over his head as he kicks his shoes off then immediately slides his hands over my belly as he starts backing me into our nest. “We will. We’ll get ready for work, but not yet.”
Within seconds, both my omega and beta are just as naked and turned on as our alphas, and before I can put any real effort into an argument, the closet door is closed, my clothes are gone, and there’s a river of slick running down my thighs.
One of the best—and worst things depending on the situation—about being pregnant is the fact that most of what I do is controlled by one of three things; my appetite, my emotions, or my libido.
Sometimes it's all three, and that is tricky as hell, but my sex drive is through the roof and usually wins, and while I won’t ever complain about the orgasms or being close to my mates, it’s made us late for a lot of things, and it’s definitely created some awkward situations.
Like when we went to the Adder’s house to celebrate their anniversary.
That was a family dinner I’ll never forget.
Getting spit roasted in the guest bathroom by Dimitri and Leon was not on the agenda, but it sure as hell happened, and I won’t lie and say I was mad about it.
I definitely wasn’t, especially when Rune scented them in me, which led to a very creative and slightly complicated quickie between the six of us in Styx’s childhood bedroom.
Thankfully Tatiana had my in-laws very preoccupied, otherwise I’m not sure we would have gotten away with it.
Pregnancy hormones are no joke, I’m just unsure if I should be grateful or annoyed by the way they’ve been ruling my entire existence lately.
“Grateful,” Styx says as he helps Rune lower me to the plush mattress then positions me between D’s knees. “Be very grateful, love.”
My heart races as I lean back against Dimitri’s chest and watch my beta lay on his stomach between my thighs, then opens me up before he all but attacks my pussy with his tongue.
“Oh my god,” I hiss as my back arches, my hands flying to his hair with the first swipe of my clit.
Styx sucks and licks, nipping at that bundle of nerves before he flattens his tongue and drags it from bottom to top and back again. D’s hands move to my breasts, working my nipples into tight little peaks as he twists and pulls, the bite of pain enough to have me coming in record time.
“I’m fucking grateful,” my beta mumbles against my pussy, drinking me down before he goes up on his hands and knees, his red scruff shiny from the embarrassing amount of slick and cum on his face.
“We all are,” Dimitri whispers against the side of my neck, sucking on Niko’s mark before he grunts, “Now be a good fucking girl and turn around. Your alphas are going to fuck you while you watch your beta take your omega, and you’re going to do it while that sweet boy makes you choke on his cock.”
Oh my fucking god.
Normally, I’d argue with D. Even though I always want whatever he demands, I still argue and give him hell right up until I give in, but right now, right now I need exactly what he’s describing and I don’t have it in me to put up any kind of fight.
As quickly as I can, and with a little more help than I’m used to, I turn around and straddle Dimitri as he lays flat on his back, planting my hands on his chest as Leon takes hold of my hips.
He lines them both up at my entrance, using my slick to coat both of their cocks before pushing them inside my pussy together with ease.
I whimper as they bury themselves to their knots and wait, my pulse pounding in my ears as I feel Rune position himself so the head of his cock is nudging my ass.
“Alpha, please,” I whine as he teases me, my sweet man a huge fan of edging me, but when I wiggle around a bit and the tip slips past that tight ring of muscle, he slams all the way in until I have all three knots exactly where I want them.
I moan when they all start to move, slowly sliding in and out of my pussy and ass, setting a rhythm that has my body tensing in pleasure as they stretch and fill my walls.
I watch Niko and Styx closely, my eyes following the way my beta positions my omega, keeping him up on his knees as he thrusts up into his ass.
Niko moans as his head falls back on Styx’s shoulder, one of our beta’s hands coming up and around to grip his throat while the other guides our omega’s cock to my mouth.
He traces my lips before I open, slapping the sensitive underside against my tongue before he thrusts hard enough to send Niko all the way to the back of my throat.
“Fuck,” Dimitri grunts as he looks up, his hands moving up our omega’s thighs until he can squeeze and tug both his and Styx’s balls. “Goddamnit.”
I moan my agreement around Niko’s cock, everyone’s pace perfectly in sync but increasing with each sound I make. Leon’s hand slides over my hip and he starts circling my clit as Dimitri cups my breasts, massaging them as he pulls one of my nipples between his lips and sucks.
I cry out as he bites down then flicks it with his tongue, as Niko’s erection pushes down my throat until my nose is pressed against his pubic bone.
Spit runs down my chin and spreading out over my cheeks as Styx fucks him into my mouth, slick gushing from my pussy as my alphas start pounding into me hard and fast. My orgasm races through me, heat spreading through my lower belly scorching every nerve ending in my body, licking up my spine before I detonate.
My back arches as I scream around Niko’s cock as he starts coming down my throat, as Styx thrusts hard up into him and groans while he fills his ass completely, sending me right over the edge again, my release triggering all of theirs and I feel my alpha’s knots swell and they explode into my body, filling my pussy and ass with so much cum it immediately spills out and coats all of us.
“Jesus,” I whisper as I swallow Niko’s release, his dick slipping from between my lips as I rest my forehead against his thigh. “I’m going to need a minute.”
Leon and D chuckle as Styx and Niko agree, and I can’t help but smile when I feel Rune start to gently rub my lower back and begin carefully dismantling our game of human tetris.
I smirk as he lifts me in his arms, holding me like I’m fragile and precious, and as soon as he settles with his back against the wall and my body between his thighs, I do what I’ve spent six months doing.
“You’re not supposed to be lifting heavy things, mister.”
Rune arches one brow then rolls his eyes. “I’m fine.”
“She’s not wrong,” Leon sing-songs as the four of them start snuggling in close. “But you don’t qualify, little bird.”
I smile as I watch my mates get comfortable; Leon and Styx on either side of Rune’s left leg, each of them resting their heads on his tree-trunk thigh while Niko lays flat on his belly between mine.
He rests his head on my hip and presses his face against my belly then sprawls out just enough so he’s touching each of us somewhere.
And Dimitri wiggles his way under Rune’s right arm, his back to our alpha’s side as he takes my hand and kisses each of my fingers before resting it in his lap.
This right here, this is heaven.
It’s perfect and beautiful. It’s right on so many levels and while I will always have conflicted feelings about my first pack, I understand now more than ever why things happened the way they did.
I can appreciate Jay, Emery, and Dante for what they were and what they did for me.
I refuse to believe they didn’t care about me at all, that there wasn’t some kind of love shared between us, and while it still hurts to think about the truth behind all of the lies I believed for such a long time, they didn’t deserve to die.
They were the men I needed at the time, the ones who taught me how to be free but they were never my fate or my future, we were never meant to bond and I think I knew that all along, I just wasn’t ready to accept it.
I had to be ready for that, but I’m stubborn, and fate had to give me a little push in order to get there.
I might have wanted answers for what happened three years ago, but my vendetta was never really for the men I thought loved me.
My vendetta was against myself, and I used them as a way to prevent myself from being the person I was always meant to be.
I used my past as a weapon, one I wielded against myself every single day, and if I never learned the truth about the life I’d been living, I never would have allowed myself to embrace the one I was meant to have.
Regardless of how things turned out, I owe that to Jay, Emery, and Dante.
If it wasn’t for them and the journey they sent me on, I wouldn’t be here now.
And to think I would have missed out on the most soul-searing love, the strongest bonds and deepest connections, and a life with my soulmates that I was convinced I didn’t deserve, that would be a tragedy more brutal and meaningless, more vicious and senseless than any I’ve ever experienced before.