Chapter 15
Saint
While serving Lake dinner, she pours herself a glass of wine after grabbing a beer from the fridge for me and twisting off the cap, and it feels right in a way that settles my restlessness. There’s no desire to do anything other than take care of my woman.
Watching Lake’s eyes close and her lips curl upwards as she inhales deeply, my fascination with her intensifies to uncontrolled levels.
“I’d like it if you spent the night.” My request shakes her for a moment, and she stares at me, appearing shocked. “I’d like it more if you moved in.”
Lake takes her time responding and dips a slice of her bread into the lasagna soup. “I was hoping to spend the night.” Pleasure hums through my veins. “I worry moving in is too soon.”
I bite my tongue, not wishing to argue. The last thing I want to do is push her away by going too fast. “Why?” I have the right to know, don’t I?
Using her fork to stir her soup, she replies thoughtfully, leaving me hopeful.
“I’m still so broken, Saint.” The shame on her face is both rage-inducing and saddening.
“I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to sleep through the night, go out in public and not have a panic attack.
You say you’re okay with never being intimate now, but that’s going to get old, fast.”
Pushing my chair back and reaching for Lake, I draw her into my lap, forcing her chin up so our eyes meet.
“I realize believing me is hard because you have all these feelings inside. Hell, I’m not any good at expressing my own, but please believe me when I say this, Lake.
You are mine, and I am yours.” Pressing my head to hers, I keep our gazes locked.
“That means I’m not going anywhere. Ever.
From the day you were born, I always knew you were different.
I knew our lives would eventually lead to this moment. ”
She opens her mouth, whether to argue or agree, I don’t care. I silence her with my lips. Words will only get me so far. Lake needs actions, and I give her those.
Licking the seam of her lips, she opens for me, and her hands grip my shoulders, holding me so tight that her nails dig in. Hopefully, leaving behind little crescent-moon-shaped imprints. I want her mark on me.
Things will not be simple for us. We both have our work cut out for us, and I’m 100% in it for the long haul.
Gasping, she breaks away, panting. “You make me forget when you kiss me.”
An idea strikes, and I grin. “Then how about we take dessert outside before hitting the hot tub, where we can kiss all night long?”
She nods hesitantly, letting out an adorable squeal when I stand with her in my arms and carry her out to the back porch. There, I have a gazebo with a swing and a hot tub tucked into a corner because I knew she loved them.
It’s little moments like this when I catch a glimpse of the teenage girl from before the attack and know she’ll blossom into a stunning, confident woman. She just needs time and support to complete her healing.
I drape a blanket across Lake’s lap because the January air has a winter chill to it, with the firm instruction, “Stay put.” Not moving until she agrees.
Returning inside for the plate of brownies Lake baked and cut up, I place two in a large bowl before grabbing the vanilla ice cream and scooping some out. With a finishing drizzle of chocolate syrup on top, I grab a fork, because I’ll damn well feed her every bite, and head back outside.
Lake remains where I left her, but she obviously moved at some point because music plays from the sound system out here. “I told you not to move.” She shrugs at my growl as I sit next to her.
After setting the plate on the table next to me, my hands reach for her waist, plucking her up like a feather and dropping her in my lap again. She faces me, with her legs straddling my hips, and I wrap the blanket around her back, ensuring she’s comfortable before picking up our dessert.
“You manhandle me a lot,” she points out as I scoop a bite of brownie and ice cream onto the fork and offer it to her.
“Do I?” I ask. She nods, then moans in delight. “Would you like me to stop?” Her head quickly shakes from side to side. “Good, because I didn’t plan on it.” Giving her another bite, I enjoy her eating from my hand.
Covering her mouth with her fingers, she asks, “Are you going to have a bite?” while still chewing.
“When you’ve had your fill.” I only like sweets when she does, and right now, I’m all about her. “Besides…” I pull her down and lick a drop of syrup from the corner of her mouth. “I can taste it right from your tongue if I want.”
Witnessing her beautiful blue eyes dilate with pleasure causes my dick to grow, and from the widening of her eyes, it’s clear she feels it between her legs.
In a shocking move, she settles her pussy closer, and with how thin her leggings are, I can feel her heat, feel the way her pussy lips want to wrap around my cock, and the imagery makes me groan.
Deep within, where the woman is still developing, a siren awaits to be explored. As much as she thinks she’ll never be ready for sex, for any type of intimacy, I know she is. She’s shown me in so many ways.
Feeding her another bite, she bravely leans forward, offering me a taste of her and the sweet treats. I don’t hesitate to dominate her mouth, sucking her tongue between my lips before releasing her and licking into the warm cavern. She’s fucking delicious.
Placing the bowl back down, my fingers crawl up her thighs until her hips are firmly within my grasp, and I can help her rock back and forth on my cock. Which throbs and itches to break free of my pants, dying for a taste of her heavenly cunt.
“Sweet haven, you keep this up, and I’ll be coming hard enough for us both.” So lost in pleasure, she doesn’t even hear me. This shows me that she’ll be ready for our bodies to connect one day.
“You always call me that,” she pants against my lips, the moisture from her breathing teasing my tongue. “Why?”
“’Cause you’re my haven. Without you, I’d go fucking insane.
” Her sharp inhale tells me that wasn’t the answer she expected.
“You are everything to me, Lake.” Raking my fingers through her thick blonde hair, I hold her steady for this next part.
“When you were hurt, they couldn’t tell me how bad until I was home because they knew I’d go insane and kill anyone in my way of getting to you.
” Brushing my nose across hers, I attempt to lessen the intensity of my words.
“Every damn time you begged me to end you…your suffering…I knew if you ever went through with it, I’d follow you. ”
“No,” she gasps, tears streaming down her face as she covers her mouth with her hands. “You can’t do that.”
“Lake.” I keep my tone low and calm so she doesn’t freak out. “I’ll always be wherever you are.”
Shaking her head, she sobs and drops into a kiss so steamy, I feel cum leaking from the tip of my dick as she slowly fucks my mouth. We breathe together as her hips thrust, matching the movement of our tongues.
Our breathing grows heavier and wetter the more we move, and my hands run down her back, slowly starting to remove her clothes.
I toss her shirt over her head and slip off her bra, exposing the silky flesh to my fingers to explore.
Gliding them down to her ass, I push her leggings and panties down just enough to cup the juicy cheeks in my palms. Her moan becomes a whimper when I press her harder into my dick.
“You’re going to make me come so fucking hard,” I grumble into her mouth, standing up and carrying her to the hot tub.
With her back against the siding, I plunder her mouth while she squirms in my hold.
Shoving her pants all the way down, Lake is now nude before me, but I can’t tear myself away to admire her. I bet she glows in the moonlight.
“On me,” she gasps, surprising us both. “Please, Saint, will you give it to me?”
Jesus, yes. I’ll fucking give her anything she wants.
Her hands work at my belt and jeans, and my hips pin her to the wall as I whip off my shirt. As soon as my dick is free, it seeks her out, slapping against her soaked lips, making the obscenest sound. I bury my face in her throat and groan, “Fuckkkk.”
My lips envelop the cord in her throat; I bite down like a rabid dog and hump against her pussy.
The tip leaks like a burst pipe and bumps against her swollen nub with every stroke as Lake scrapes her nails up and down my back, along my shoulders, and into my hair.
When her body tenses, I know she’s about to plummet over the edge.
Pulling back to watch my girl come apart, bliss, pure and innocent, crosses her features, and I’m enthralled by it while she silently screams out in ecstasy.
Pleasure flushes her skin. My eyes roam her body, noticing my dick weeping against her clit, and my own release barrels forth like a freight train, unable to quell my cursed shout as I watch my semen squirt all over her pussy and stomach.
Jets shoot like a missile, claiming their spot on her creamy skin as my knees weaken.
Barely holding us up, my frame shudders when her hands massage up and down my chest, twisting a nipple between her fingers while fisting my chest hair in her hand as she watches me come unglued for her.
“Jesus,” I groan as one last, long spurt spews up and lands between her tits. Her scars are covered in my release, and it’s the sexiest fucking thing I’ve ever seen in my life. “I love you. Fuck, I love you so fucking much, Lake.”
The intensity in my stare transfixes her in place as her fingers play on my chest, moving down, closer to where we’re still connected, and swiping across the tip of my dick before bringing her finger up to her mouth. The sight of her tasting me has my dick ready to explode again.
Lowering my lips to hers, I sweep my tongue into her mouth to capture a taste of us, and my hips eagerly thrust against her. “Saint!” she sobs as another orgasm courses through her body.
“Cry pretty for me, baby, give it to me.” Fuck, there is nothing more intoxicating than my girl shattering to pieces for me. “I can’t fucking wait to get my dick buried deep inside this beautiful pussy and release with you.” Kissing along her throat, I murmur in her ear, “Inside of you, deep.”
“Saint,” she whimpers into my ear, “I want that too.” I press her head onto my shoulder at her whispered, “Do you think I’ll ever be ready?”
“I think your body already is, your mind just needs more time to catch up.” Kissing her temple, I move us towards the hot tub and slide a leg over the edge. We sit in the water together, warmed up from the chilly air.
“What if…”
Dissolving her doubt with a kiss, I turn her body around for her to look out at the starry sky, clear and pebbled with tiny shiny diamonds. “How about you just enjoy the moment, Lake. Allow your mind and body to savor what we just did.”
She sighs and relaxes into me as my dick stirs, nestling itself tight between her ass cheeks. I stifle a groan as Lake takes my hands and places them on her exposed breasts.
“Maybe you can touch me?” Her head tilts up to study my face.
Flashing her a wicked grin, I express my pleasure. “Anything you want.”
She wiggles and happily sighs in my lap, which is all I need to know that she’s definitely healing and heading towards becoming the woman she once dreamed of.