CHAPTER NINETEEN
KAYLAH
]It started a week after after I left him at that hotel room.
I kept up appearances in front of the team and Coach, who looks more disappointed he has no excuse to call us idiots than anything.
Bumping into Julius in the kitchen one day could have been awkward, but he was quick to say, “Thank you for the food the other day,” with a cute smile.
I told him he was welcome and I thought that might get be it for us.
None of his behaviour pointed to him texting me once we were home and I was in my room, “Do you want to watch a movie?”
So I was surprised when that’s exactly what happened. And then I was side eyeing myself for heading straight for his room.
We didn’t speak about what happened. We didn’t speak to each other at all.
We simply just slipped back into the comfortability we had the last time we did this, but this time with an ending that didn’t involve him coming into my mouth.
It would be pretty hard to do that with neither of us touching each other.
We fell into a pattern at the same time each day, but after the first two days he didn’t need to send the text anymore.
Now we’re on the fourth day, a few minutes into the Rom Com I chose after the Thriller I also chose. He said he likes anything the other day, and knowing that he can’t fake interest makes me believe in his few facial expressions I try not to watch, as each movie progresses.
But I just don’t know why he’s happy for me to choose every movie.
But he has to like them, he wouldn’t be here watching them with me if he didn’t.
Or maybe I should just go with the idea that makes the most sense.
It’s not lost on me that, other than the very first one, these silent movie sessions started after I explicitly told Julius that I only want to know him sexually.
I saw how he looked as if he had been gut punched when I said the words.
I saw how earnestly his eyes matched his apology the next day.
And now I’m seeing often he finds something to fixate on other than the screen.
I’m seeing how my reactions get his attention more than the actual scenes on the screen, and he always looks…
pleased to know that I’m finding it interesting enough to react.
I think I knew this all along. He never actually said which genres he liked, or that he was a fan of Musical Theatre.
All he said was that Demetrius plays it, which is a tactic that almost got me.
But it doesn’t matter who likes what, it matters that we’re here because we want to be.
It matters that we’re here without having sex.
And even without the sex, it feels so good to be here.