Epilogue
Zachary
The rich, comforting smell of roasted pecans and spiced apples is a thick blanket in the air, chasing away the late November chill that seeps through the windows.
I pull the oven door open, feeling the blast of heat on my face, and carefully slide the pie dish out, placing it on the cooling rack on the counter.
I’m wearing one of Maya’s ridiculous holiday-themed aprons—a cartoon turkey trying desperately to escape a platter—and I wouldn’t trade this moment, this life, for anything.
“Okay, you beautiful thing,” I murmur to the pie, a perfect, golden brown pecan specimen. “Cool down before you break my heart.”
I close the oven and turn to find Maya sitting at the kitchen table, meticulously peeling sweet potatoes, her sketch book and colored pencils within arm’s reach.
She looks small and focused under the warm glow of the pendant light, her brow slightly furrowed in concentration.
Frida is under her feet, playing with some of the peel that fell onto the floor.
“Did it survive?” Maya asks, not looking up.
“It survived. It's a masterpiece. I almost feel bad eating it.”
She laughs softly. “Don’t be dramatic, Zachary. Everything you make is a masterpiece. But seriously, thank you for doing this. Planning, cooking, hosting, all of it.”
I walk over, scoop up a few of the peels she’s already tackled, and toss them into the compost bin.
I lean down and press a kiss to the top of her head, inhaling the scent of her shampoo and the faint, sweet smell of the potatoes.
I take the potato peeler from her hands and get to work peeling as she goes back to her sketch book.
“That’s the point, isn't it?” I say, winking at her. “You use your spoons for the things you love to do. I’ll handle the root vegetables and the pies.”
The term “spoons” is one I’ve adopted easily since Maya and I moved in together a few weeks ago. The “spoon theory” is a simple way to explain the finite, daily limit of energy a person with a chronic illness has.
Her health is still a roller coaster. There are days she wakes up feeling fantastic, ready to paint or plan lessons for her elementary art students. And then there are days, like yesterday, where she feels like she's fighting through wet cement just to make it from the bed to the sofa.
But seeing her now, doing something she enjoys without burning herself out on basic chores, fills me with a quiet satisfaction that runs deeper than any professional accomplishment.
Being able to just do the energy-intensive things—carrying the heavy grocery bags, scrubbing the bathtub, getting the stiff jar lids off, or peeling twenty pounds of sweet potatoes—has been a complete game changer for both of us.
She gets to spend her energy on the things that truly fulfill her: painting the vibrant landscapes she loves, designing those fantastic, messy, exciting art lessons that the kids rave about, and, most recently, organizing the massive New Year’s art auction with her mom.
That project, a benefit for lupus patients, has taken up all her remaining “spoons” and then some.
And I love it. I love supporting her. I love living with her.
“How are the invitations coming for the auction?” I ask as we work on our respective tasks.
“Sealed, sent, done,” she says, her voice humming with accomplishment. “Mom is handling the donor follow-up. We already have commitments from twenty artists, not just the chronic crafters. It's going to be huge, Zachary. We might actually hit our funding goal for the patient scholarship.”
She looks up, her eyes shining with that fierce determination I adore. In moments like this, all the self-doubt I still carry about my career choice seems insignificant.
Switching careers, leaving the stability of a corporate job to teach elementary science, was hard.
It was terrifying. Moving to a new state and starting from scratch felt like leaping off a cliff.
There are still days, when the students are rowdy and unfocused and I’m pretty sure they don’t learn a single thing, that I feel like I have no idea what I’m doing.
I question my lesson plans. I question my impact. I question if I made the right choice.
But then, I look at Maya. I look at the life we are building here.
I look at her thriving creativity, her resilience, and the sheer joy on her face when she talks about helping someone else.
I look at our collaborative science and art lessons, and the collaborative lesson training we developed so that other teachers can do the same thing.
I look at the fact that I am teaching something I genuinely care about, and I am coming home to the person I love most in the world.
It turned out better than okay, I think, a deep, easy calm settling in my chest. It turned out perfectly.
I finish the last potato and put the peeler in the sink.
“All right, sweet potato duty is done,” I announce, wiping my hands on the turkey apron.
“I'm going to set up the drinks. Everyone should be here soon.” Maya’s friends and their partners insisted on coming early to help get everything ready.
Even Tim and Patty were showing up early.
Just as I reach the refrigerator, a sharp, authoritative rap sounds on the door.
“Right on time.” I laugh, walking to the door and pulling it open. Flick and Sebastian are the first to arrive, with Devin and Oliver coming up behind them.
“Happy Thanksgiving!” Flick yells, her voice soaring over the general greetings. “We're staging a hostile takeover of your kitchen!”
“What can we do?” Devin asks, maneuvering a huge casserole dish past my shoulder.
Her voice trails off as Maya answers from the table.
Oliver and Sebastian shift off to the living room, awaiting orders, letting the women have the kitchen space.
I take a couple steps toward them when there’s another knock at the door.
Hannah, Michael, and Katie greet me with big smiles and loaded hands, then Alexis and Noah with little Sterling in his arms. Tim and Patty bring up the rear.
Once everyone has arrived, the apartment transforms instantly. It swells with warmth, conversation, and the clatter of incoming dishes. I stand there, momentarily stunned by the sudden, overwhelming joy of it all. This is it. This is our life. A messy, loud, complicated, wonderful chosen family.
I find myself swept into the action, taking coats, directing people to the crowded countertops, answering Tim’s questions about the pecan pie.
I hear Patty and Maya instantly launch into a discussion about the upcoming auction.
This is the first time they’ve seen each other since Maya was in the hospital on the day we were supposed to have our double date.
I’m laughing at a one of Hannah’s jokes when I feel a subtle shift in the crowd near me. A pair of small, warm hands slip around my waist from behind, and Maya leans her head against my back. “Happy Thanksgiving, astronaut,” she murmurs, her voice soft against the clamor of the party.
I turn in the circle of her arms, bringing her around to face me. The kitchen light catches the soft highlights in her hair, and her eyes, though still tired, are bright and full of a love that makes my chest ache in the best possible way.
“Happy Thanksgiving, world traveler,” I reply, my voice dropping for her alone.
She looks around at the packed room. “Look at this,” she says, her voice husky with emotion. “I am so thankful for all of this. For them.” She tightens her arms around me, holding on for a solid, grounding moment.
Then she pulls back just enough to look me in the eye. “And I am so, so thankful for you. For the pies, for the potatoes, for the spoons, and for making this home. I love you.”
My voice is soft with emotion. “I love you too, Maya,” I say, pulling her in for a long, slow kiss, letting the noise of the party fade into a background hum.
This right here, surrounded by love and warmth and good food, is exactly where I’m meant to be. My scary, hard leap of faith led me right here. To Pine Island. To Maya. And this is exactly where I plan to stay. Forever.
THE END
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