Chapter 207
spite. Then one day, Tera dropped the girls of, and never came back.
Naturally, I went smooth the fuck of. Called her everything but a child of God.
We could never hold a conversation without me cussing her out.
I felt like she’d gotten with a new nigga, didn’t want the baggage of taking care of my kids.
So, she dropped the girls of to start a fresh life with her man, kid-less.
Then the fact that she’d moved out of town, and hadn’t seen the girls physically in nearly two years really enraged me.
But also forced me to grow up tremendously.
I quickly realized that being the wallet, while hustling and running the streets wasn’t gonna cut it.
Plus, even though I paid all of my mama’s bills, she stood "rm and told me that I was keeping my own kids. Not pawning them of on the next person. She pointed out how the girls were going through emotional turmoil, as Tera up and left them. Especially because she’d always been a very involved mother.
My girls would often cry and question how could their mama leave them.
And I had to be there to wipe those tears.
Having the girls full-time had changed everything in my life, down to who I decided to fuck with.
The women who’d I been screwing were nothing like Tera.
They were usually "ne as fuck and worldly. They weren’t interested in parenting my kids.
Or would pretend to like my kids, before I’d catch them on camera being weird, when they thought that I wasn’t looking.
Which was why I eventually stopped bringing women home altogether.
I was forced to look deeper into myself, and release a lot of my selfish tendencies.
And sometimes, late at night, I’d watch my kids sleep, and question how Tera could just walk out of their lives.
Eventually, I realized that if Tera could abandon the girls, then she was never really the woman I thought she was.
“Nothing is more important than my girls,” Tera’s voice trembled. “You already know that.”