Chapter 267
still didn’t come to me. You let all this time pass, and now you mad, cause a nigga didn’t fall apart. I moved on—”
“Cause you never loved me like you were supposed to” Her face turned beet red. “Ask yourself if you’d let that bitch walk away without fighting for her! You never even pulled up, once I didn’t come get the kids. Cause you didn’t give a fuck!”
Hearing that, I took a deep breath. I could go back and forth with her, but low key, she was right.
At the time, I honestly thought that I loved Tera.
At least gauging from what I thought love was.
But I could never seem to show up for her how she needed.
And I honestly just assumed that the way I moved was just naturally in my nature.
However, now, with more experience under my belt, I doubted that I’d ever really been in love with her.
I had love for Tera, and always would. But there were never any major sparks between us.
She didn’t drive me wild conversationally or sexually.
She was just a pretty face, who I’d chosen at the time.
Then she had my first baby, and those circumstances dictated our relationship.
And had she not had my kids, then we probably would’ve never lasted as long as we had.
I had thought about it some, and I understood that I had never connected with another woman the way that I naturally meshed with Babi.
Maybe it was timing, or Tera was simply never the one.
I couldn’t call it, and now I just wanted everybody happy.
In different ways. I realized that I couldn’t keep apologizing to Tera about how I treated her in the past, because there were only so many ways that I could show her that I was sincere, without violating my relationship.
I was trying to be a good baby’s daddy, but it was becoming apparent that Tera wanted me to move mountains, like I was still her man. And I knew that if I wanted Babi, then I couldn’t allow Tera to fully have her way.