Chapter 283
attractive sometimes. I knew that I didn’t wanna risk losing you.
So, I was careful. Never flirted with anybody you knew.
Didn’t regularly step out. Just occasionally knocked somebody down.
It was always purely sexual, and would only happen if I had a run-in with them, if I was already outside.
Bitches didn’t even have my phone number…
and I know now that’s the reason I lost you.
Because I did that shit behind your back, knowing that I was wrong.
It never sat right in my spirit. That had me insecure.
Especially when I’d go to jail. Had me tripping with you, when you’d never given me a reason.
So, in hindsight, I paid the ultimate price.
I left you susceptible to looking elsewhere for the peace I couldn’t give. ”
“Okay. I guess I can accept that,” I claimed.
“Right. Look, I know that I fucked up. Then you literally broke a nigga’s heart. I aint lying. Never imagined touching down, and not seeing you waiting outside of those gates. Was the most humbling experience of my life. Went from having the finest rider in the jailhouse to nothing.”
I gulped, recognizing the heaviness in his voice. “Ion know what to say. You know that I loved you.”
“I know,” he admitted. “Yet you been living your life with another man.”
“Yeah—”
“But I heard that he’s in jail now.” “Yeah, for now.”
“Right, right. I’m sure that he’ll make bond. Eventually. But it sounds like he’ll do some time.”
“And how you came to that conclusion? His sister?” “Nah, nah. Ion even fuck with her like that.”
“Shit, I can’t tell. You was fucking her raw,” I couldn’t help pointing out.
He lightly chuckled. “Listen. Let’s just say that shit aint