Chapter 32 #3
Tucker arched into my touch with a broken moan and nodded his head frantically, making the soft curls of his hair splay wildly around him on the mattress.
We were going to have to deep clean this thing once we were done, but I couldn’t much care about the mess we were making as I pulled back slightly to snap my hips.
The slaps of skin on skin and the schlick-schlick of my hand shuttling over Tucker’s length echoed throughout the room, mingling with our combined grunts and groans of pleasure as we quickly worked into a fevered pace.
Calloused hands wound around to my ass, Tucker’s abs clenching as he sat up slightly to grip me, but those intoxicating whiskey eyes stayed locked on mine.
His mouth was parted, cheeks flushed, and sweat glistened along his temples from our exertion.
All I could think was how lucky I was that this man loved me.
How grateful I was he chose living for his future.
Suddenly, Tucker cried out, his head thrown back and features contorted in the most exquisite pleasure-pain. “Fuuuck, Jackson! Right there. Right there! Don’t stop!”
There was no way in hell I’d stop, even with all the sensations rocketing through my nerve endings inching me toward the cliff of my own release.
The pressure from before had never waned, but instead only intensified, and I could tell I was getting close to the point of no return.
Desperate to get Tucker there first, I gritted my teeth, railing into him.
“I love you.” It fell from me in strained gasps, but I barreled through. “I love you so fucking much, Tucker Legare. I have never loved anyone the way I love you, and I will never take for granted what it means to have you love me back.”
His eyes snapped to mine from the moment I started speaking, a little blissed out but hanging onto every syllable.
“I can’t promise forever.” I continued, needing to get this all out. “But I can promise you that as long as there is breath in my lungs, I will love you. I’ll use every molecule of oxygen I have to tell you, and every ounce of blood to show you.”
Tears welled at the corner of his bright brown eyes, and I bent my head knowing I couldn’t get rid of the bittersweet feelings I was sure my words were evoking but hoping to soothe them with a quick kiss.
My hips had slowed just a little as I spoke, but my shifting must have angled my dick to hit his prostate because he gave a strained cry into my mouth.
A full-body shudder wracked him as his hole clamped down in dizzying waves, and he spilled his release all over my hand and his chest. My groan was deep and guttural, and it tore through me as my own orgasm slammed into me with sudden force as I finally let go.
Tucker’s legs fell away from my body, flopping haphazardly around us as we panted and slowly came down from our respective highs. His arms moved to loop around my neck, and he pulled me back into slow, tender kisses that were almost as drugging as my climax.
When he pulled away, his eyes were still bright with unshed tears. “I love you, too.” They were soft, whispered words, and I smiled against his lips as he said them. I went to kiss him again but he pulled back slightly. “No, I have more I need to say.”
I straightened up, resting my weight onto the flat of my palms after dropping down to my forearms when he pulled me to him. “Okay.”
Tucker’s throat bobbed as he swallowed before he continued.
“We both know life is unpredictable, and there is no way to promise each other the world because of it. And I can’t tell you I won’t have days where the fears and anxiety of losing Raleigh won’t win me over, but I’m going to keep moving forward. ”
His eyes dropped down to the tattoo on my inner arm, slightly obscured in our position, and lingered there for a moment before rising back up.
“I don’t know if I believe in fate or a higher power anymore, but I know you were always meant to be here.
You have always been the ray of light that brightened my world, ever since you first showed up on this farm.
And I can truthfully say I never would have been able to pull myself from my grief if you hadn’t been here by my side.
There will be days that I’m going to struggle, I know that, but that idea doesn’t scare me as much anymore. Do you know why?”
My heartbeat slammed against my ribcage as he spoke, everything inside me swelling with all the love and affection I held for the man under me. “Tell me.”
“Because I know you’ll be there. I know everyone on this farm will be there. You helped me realize that I can’t do anything about my past, but I can mold the future into one I want to live. And I want to live mine with you by my side, Jackson.”
The visual of Tucker below me began to blur, and I let out a watery chuckle as he reached up to swipe away a tear that’d slipped free. “Did you just propose to me while I’ve still got my cock inside you?”
He gave an amused huff, rolling his eyes as he pulled me down into a gentle kiss. “You’re a fucking goof.”
I just laughed against his lips, both of us knowing I was mostly teasing with my words, but as I slipped free of his body and went to collect things to clean us up, I knew if Tucker was ever interested in marriage again someday, I wouldn’t hesitate.