Chapter Three Whip
Thanksgiving
Thanksgiving, the time everyone is thankful for everything in their life.
The time that I am thankful that I have this family that adopted me as their own for a majority of my life.
Ever since I met Thorn, they basically took me in.
A majority of the Jacobson clan knows about my family and how not so thankful I am for them.
My childhood was far from perfect and before I met the Jacobson’s family I spent a lot of time avoiding going home for many reasons.
Heading over to their home today knowing that shit is still rocky with Thorn because I pushed his buttons in a way I know I shouldn’t, doesn’t feel so great.
I don’t know if Peyton is going to be there today or not, none of them would give me a straight answer when I asked.
It leads me to believe she is going to be there and they probably didn’t tell her I was coming.
I’m still up in the air about how I am feeling about seeing Peyton, knowing that she is still with that Fang fucker is really hard.
I know I’ve got no room to talk, I have been with other people, I definitely stopped after Thorn caught me getting that piss poor blowjob last month.
But he doesn’t know that. He’s stayed clear of me since our run in and honestly that sucks.
I know I pissed him off and I know he’s hurting and has been hurting for a long time because Lizzy vanished, like it’s crazy how she just up and disappeared.
I shouldn’t have said that, we really don’t know what happened to her.
They had a home together, they were in love and he went on a run and she was gone when he came back.
There was no security footage, nothing. So I know I’m going to have to apologize to him and hope that we can get back to some semi-normal situation.
I want to be there for him too. He doesn’t open up to many people.
My thoughts and feelings have been all over the place.
I’ve been pacing around the clubhouse like a caged animal for hours.
Lash at one point came up to me to ask me if I was okay.
I don’t know why the fucker asked me that, of course I’m not okay.
I fucked up with Peyton the last time I saw her, said a shit ton of fucked up shit that I have no idea why her family still talks to me with everything I said and did to her.
I don’t really think any of them know the whole story.
I know for a fact Bulldog would have my ass if he knew how I spoke to his princess.
I know I should head over to their house, maybe if I walk there I will be able to calm down a little bit.
I don’t know. My thoughts are honestly going a mile a minute and who even knows if she will talk to me.
All I know is it’s going to kill me seeing them together.
If I can’t have her, I don’t know what I’m going to do. This whole situation is so fucked up.
I begin my walk to the Jacobson household and I think I need to figure out what to say when I see her, do I hug her?
Do I even talk to her? Is she going to want that?
Is Knox even going to let me anywhere near her?
I don’t even know the dynamic of their relationship.
They’ve been together since April when I fucked everything up.
At first I thought she got with him out of spite.
I mean seeing her come out of his room that day after our argument about wrecked me.
I know I asked for it, but it hurt so much.
It was like a gut punch. I know they had interacted before that, but I knew she had eyes for me.
I mean I know she wasn’t a virgin when I had her the first time, but the age gap that we have made it so she had boyfriends before.
I hate thinking about that. I hate thinking about the other men that touched her before me.
It really does bother me thinking about this guy touching her now.
I haven’t heard anything about him making her his ol’ lady, but that could be because everyone avoids talking to her about me anymore.
They know it’s a sensitive subject and they know that I have struggled.
Most of them act like they are unaware of everything, even at the Untamed Rebels.
When I left and called Bulldog telling him I was heading home, no questions were asked after he talked to Grim.
It is like everyone knows there is something, but they are afraid to put into words what has gone on with Peyton and I.
As I get to the driveway a truck pulls in behind me that I don’t recognize.
As they park I get a better look and see that it is in fact Peyton and Fang.
What a coincidence that I’m strolling up the drive as they pull in.
Looking through the windshield it looks like they are having a discussion before you can almost see Peyton sigh and turn to get out of the car.
I walked up to her side of the car to give her my hand to help her out of the vehicle.
Which I am shocked she took. She seems unsure of her body right now and that’s different.
She looks a little fuller in the face, but still so damn beautiful it hurts.
“Hey there. How are you?”
She doesn’t make eye contact with me and removes her hand as soon as she feels like she is comfortable on the ground.
“I’m fine, thank you.”
“You look good, Pey. I’ve missed you.”
She rolls her eyes, but still refuses eye contact and mumbles, “Yeah I bet.”
Knox is standing next to her and puts his hand out for me to shake the other hand goes to her lower back.
“Good to see you again. We didn’t know you’d be here today. So it’s a nice surprise.”
Which I highly doubt he means that, I mean what kind of man wants his woman to be around another man she’s fucked? Made love with? I know I’d be losing my shit if rolls were reversed. They do some messed up shit there at the Untamed Rebels.
“Good to see you again too.” I shake his hand even though all I want to do is punch him in the face.
Despite the fact that I have no right to do that.
I cannot take my eyes off Peyton. She is still as beautiful as ever.
After seeing her for the first time in months it is like I can finally breathe and I realize that no matter what I’ve done and how I feel about myself and the family I come from, I need to do everything in my power to win this girl back.
No matter what it takes. As this awkward exchange is happening Terror is walking up the driveway with his three kids, Noah, Nash and Natalie.
Peyton then clears her throat and looks uncomfortable.
“Well, I think I’m going to head inside.” She says as she looks up at this fucker.
So they begin to walk inside and I am left to follow like a sad little puppy dog that is basically looking for a bone that I want this girl to drop. We make it into the door and Bulldog walks out of the living room with Delaney.
“Hey sweet girl, we missed you.” Bulldog says as he pulls Peyton in for a hug and a kiss.
“I miss you guys too, daddy. You remember Knox?” Peyton replies to Bulldog.
I can’t believe that if she has been seeing this guy since April they have not interacted or seen each other that much.
I mean yes, they live in North Carolina, which I hope changes soon, but you’d think that when you’re with a guy for seven months you’d make more of an effort to make your family be a part of that life.
Maybe they aren’t all that serious and that is why there hasn’t been much interaction with the family.
That thought makes my heart leap a little bit and I hope that while she is here I can talk to her and clear some things up.
I definitely need to make amends with a lot of the Jacobsons.
Bulldog turns to Fang and shakes his hand, “Good to see you again.” He then turns to me and I still cannot take my eyes off Peyton. Bulldog starts talking to me and it takes a minute for everything to register because I do not want to take my eyes off this girl in front of me.
“Cooper, thank you for coming, we are glad to have you here. You’ve always been family. Can’t imagine Thanksgiving without you.” I nod my head and look back at Peyton as Bulldog walks over to Terror and the kids who are taking off their coats and stuff.
“Hey Big Dog, Little Reaper and Peanut. Glad you guys are here. Davis and Declan are downstairs doing who knows what. The rest of the kiddos are in the playroom. Well I guess all but Tills, she’s in the kitchen. So you guys feel free to do whatever.”
It was like in no time that those kids all took off to their respective places in the house, it looked like Noah and Nash headed downstairs which isn’t surprising.
I mean it’s a boy's dream down there. They have videogames, a mini hockey net and a bunch of other sports stuff.
Natalie headed for the kitchen. Terror looked at all of us and smiled.
He goes over to Peyton and pulls her in for a hug that I have been dying to give her.
I want to feel her all close to me so I can breathe her in.
“It’s good to see you baby sister, you’ve been missed.”
Then he pulls away from the hug with a confused look on my face and I watch the exchange between the two of them with concern. “Pey?”
Peyton finally glances my way and what I see in her eyes makes me take notice.
What in the world is she nervous for? What is she hiding, is she okay?
What the fuck is happening. Knox walks over to her and puts his arms around her waist and again I am met with rage that I want to beat him with his arm for touching her like that.
I know I shouldn’t feel this way and again super hypocritical, but fuck I just don’t care.
He gets to have her and I don’t. I hate it. I hate it so much!
“I guess I should just get this over with.”
I watch as she shrugs her coat off and see that she is wearing a tight sweater dress.
But that is not what gives me pause and suck in a breath, it is the bump, the swell of her stomach.
What in the fuck?!? My brain feels like it is going to explode, she’s fucking pregnant!
That mother fucker got her pregnant! I glance between Fang, Terror and Peyton watching all of this unfold feeling like I am an intruder in this situation.
“Let’s go to the kitchen since that’s where the other adults are, Parker is going to kill me because I didn’t tell her before anybody else.”
I then have to stand here and watch as Knox goes up to Peyton and places a kiss on her lips.
Lips I wish I was kissing. Lips that are so beautiful and feel so good wrapped around my cock.
Fuck! I need to not think that way right now.