Chapter Eight – Lilibeth #2
The entire room felt like it tilted. That brief kiss felt more passionate than any other I’d ever experienced. I wasn’t sure what it was about Caden that made me feel such a strong connection to him. Was it purely sexual, or was it something more? Deeper?
I didn’t want to think about that right now.
Caden cleared his throat. “How far do you want this to go? I need to know because I’m afraid once we start, I won’t be able to stop.”
I pressed my lips together tightly and closed my eyes. When I opened them, he raised his brows.
“I have to tell you something.”
He nodded. “Okay.”
“I, um…I’ve never slept with anyone. I mean, I’m a virgin. Well, not really…I do have a vibrator, so I don’t know if that really counts as me saying I’m a virgin? You know, ’cause I put it inside me and all of that.”
He closed his eyes and groaned.
“I’m so sorry. I don’t mean to lead you on.”
Snapping his eyes open, he grinned slightly. “I’m groaning because the idea of you using a vibrator on yourself is the hottest fucking thing I could ever imagine.”
“Really?” I asked, surprised.
His finger ran along my jaw as he said, “Really. How in the world are you still a virgin?”
I shrugged one shoulder. “I wanted to wait for the right person.”
He frowned. “That’s the thing, though…I don’t think I’m the right person, Lilibeth.”
I bit my lower lip before I replied, “I believe you are.”
A painful expression appeared on his face. “Sweetheart, I can’t give you anything more than sex. I need you to know that.”
Nodding, I replied, “I know you’re not looking for anything, Caden. But I’ve never felt like this before. That’s how I know I want it to be you. I think the moment I first saw you, I already secretly hoped it would be you.”
His face softened. “Are you sure you want to do this? It’s not your frozen, thrown-off-a-horse-and-hit-your-head brain talking, is it?”
I laughed, then looked at him seriously. “I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life. I never planned to be a thirty-year-old virgin. I want my first time to be with you—and I want to experience it all.”
His brows shot up. “All?”
I could feel my cheeks heat. “Women talk, so I’ve heard things.”
Before I knew it, Caden’s body was over mine. He smirked. “What do they talk about?”
Closing my eyes, I willed myself to tell him what I wanted. If I was going to do this, I wanted to try everything I could. “I’d want to experience oral sex. I’d like to try being on top, maybe.”
He dropped his head and groaned again. “You’re going to make me come before I even get my damn boxers off.”
I giggled. “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t ever be sorry for saying what you want. I’ve actually never been with a woman who’s willing to just tell me what she wants from me. I think it’s sexy as fuck.”
“You do?”
He leaned down and snagged my lower lip with his teeth, gently biting before sucking it into his mouth.
Then he kissed me so deeply, my toes curled.
I wrapped my legs around his waist and moaned when he pressed his erection against my sex.
His hands slipped into my hair and tugged, igniting my entire body in flames.
Drawing his head back, he studied my face. “Where do you want me to start?”
“I don’t know,” I said with a nervous laugh.
He lifted to his knees and reached for my hands, helping me to sit up. He reached behind my back and unclasped my bra, letting it fall down my arms. I took it off and tossed it to the floor.
The way Caden looked at me then, made me feel something I’d never felt before—desired.
I’d always imagined I’d be embarrassed doing this in front of someone else, getting undressed, baring myself, but with Caden, it simply felt right.
“Lie down, Lilibeth.”
I did as he demanded, my chest rising and falling quickly with my shallow breaths. Caden leaned down and took one of my nipples into his mouth, and I arched my back in shock.
“Oh my,” I whispered, as I immediately shoved my hands into his hair. “That feels so good.”
He looked up and winked. “We’re just getting started.”
Caden moved to my other breast and gave it the same attention, but his fingers pinched my other nipple, causing me to gasp. I was praying things didn’t end too quickly. If this was going to be my only time with this man, I wanted to drag out every single moment, and memorize each one.
When his mouth moved slowly down my body, I held my breath. His tongue swirled in my belly button, and I didn’t know if I wanted to laugh or moan.
He put his hand on my stomach. “Breathe, Lilibeth.”
I exhaled, drawing in a few deep breaths. He pushed the covers off of us and sat up again. When his hands touched my hips, I jerked.
“Sorry,” I gasped.
“Don’t apologize. But I do want you to tell me if there’s anything you don’t like. Okay?”
I nodded.
“Use words, Lilibeth. You promise me if you don’t like something, or if anything feels uncomfortable, you’ll tell me.”
I crossed my heart, did the sign of the cross, and I’m pretty sure I held out my pinky for a promise. “I swear, Caden. I promise. Just don’t stop.”
I didn’t even recognize my own voice. It sounded heavy with desire.
He slowly inched my panties down, then dramatically tossed them over his shoulder, causing me to laugh. But my laughter quickly faded when he ran his hands up my legs, spreading my thighs and crawling between them once again.
Lowering himself, his eyes were on mine, he placed a soft kiss on the inside of my thighs before he broke our gazes and stared between my legs.
“Christ, you’re stunning.”
I had to lift up onto my elbows to watch him. His fingers spread me open, and when I felt his thumb on my clit, I immediately dropped back onto the pillow and moaned.
“Has anyone ever touched you here?” he asked, circling his thumb over the bundle of nerves.
“No,” I managed to say.
“I’m the first?” He sounded surprised.
“Yes.”
Growling, he leaned forward and touched his tongue to my clit.
“Oh my God!” I cried. “Do that again!”
He chuckled low and slipped his finger inside of me. “No one has ever done this, either?”
“Never,” I breathed, as I shook my head and willed him to do more. He was going so slow, I swore I was about to combust.
“I’m going to taste you now, Lilibeth.”
“Yes! Please! Oh God, please.”
Then his mouth was there, and his finger moved inside of me in the most sinfully beautiful way. Could something be sinful and beautiful?
I gasped again. It felt so good, so all-consuming. No wonder all my friends loved oral sex. It was like Heaven on Earth.
“Caden! Oh my…ohhhh…oh yes!”
I could already feel the buildup of my orgasm and knew it was going to be a strong one.
My hands went to his hair, and I pulled him closer. My hips were lifting of their own accord, and I should have been embarrassed, but all I could think about was the delicious way he was making me feel with his mouth and tongue. Lord, the man knew what he was doing.
“Caden—oh my God. Oh God! I’m…I’m going to come!”
And then it happened. The most intense orgasm of my life ripped through my body as I cried out his name repeatedly. His hands had slipped to my ass, and he held me closer, sucking and licking as my body shook with intense pleasure.
Soon, I was using my hands to push his head away. It was too much. Too much pleasure. Too much of something I’d never experienced before. It felt almost painful, but in a good way.
“Stop! I can’t…no more!”
He drew away and looked up at me. His eyes were hooded, and he wore a lazy smile. “Did it feel good?”
My head fell back against the pillow as my entire body relaxed. “I think you know by the way I was screaming your name that it felt good.”
He chuckled, and I felt the bed move. I had zero energy. “I think I died and went to Heaven.”
After a few moments, Caden’s body was over mine again.
“Wait,” I said, as I pushed up on his chest. “I want to see you.”
“You want to see me?”
“Yes! You know, your…thing. Your penis, or the little soldier, or whatever you call him.”
Caden laughed hard, and something inside of me beamed with pride that I’d made him laugh like that. He pushed up and knelt between my legs. “I don’t call my dick anything, and least of all, he’s not little, thank you very much.”
My eyes went wide, and I sat up as well, reaching for him.
He grabbed my wrist right before I could make contact. “If you touch me, Lili, I’m gonna come.”
My eyes jerked up to his. I wondered if he even realized he’d called me Lili.
Shaking his head, he said, “This can’t be the first dick you’ve ever seen.”
“This close, it is. Please, let me touch you.”
He closed his eyes and let go of my wrist. I reached out and ran my finger across the wet head, and Caden sucked in a breath. Then I wrapped my hand around his impressive length and licked my lips.
“For the record, he would for sure be a general, not a soldier. And you’re right, he’s not little by any means.”
Caden laughed again, but it sounded slightly strained.
“I’m going to be sore tomorrow.”
“Lilibeth…you’re playing with fire.”
Releasing him, I lay back down and closed my eyes. “I want you, Caden.”
I heard a soft shuffling sound, a crinkling, then a moment later, he fell forward, catching his weight on his forearms. I opened my eyes to find him studying my face.
“I’ve never wanted anyone the way I want you,” he said, licking my lower lip before kissing me.
He adjusted his body, and I lifted my hips until he was there, at my entrance.
“I don’t know if it’ll hurt or not,” he said, moving his hips and pressing into me so slowly. A pained expression moved over his face. “You’re so fucking tight! God, I’m not going to last.”
My legs wrapped around his hips, and I dug my heels into his lower back. “More, Caden. Please, I need more of you.”
He eased out, then pushed in deeper, and I held my breath as I felt him stretch my body to fit him. It burned slightly, but it wasn’t truly painful. He was going too damn slow, however, and I was ready to scream.
When he pushed all the way in, we both moaned.
Caden buried his face in my neck. “Jesus, Lili…you feel so damn good.”
My fingers moved lightly over his back, and when he drew out and slowly pushed back in, I gasped.
“Does it hurt?” he asked, as he stilled.
“No, don’t stop, Caden. It feels amazing.”
His mouth covered mine as he moved again. I could tell the moment his patience had run out. He began to thrust faster, and I rocked with him.
He reached between our bodies, and the second he touched my clit, another orgasm hit me.
I ripped my mouth from his and cried out.
“That’s it, Lili…you’re so fucking beautiful, coming around my cock. That’s it, sweetheart. Fuck.”
His words stirred another wave as I arched and dug my fingers into his back.
“I’m going to come, Lilibeth. I’m coming!”
Caden buried his face in my neck as I wrapped my legs tighter around him. His movements started to slow, and he held himself up on his forearms, his face still in my neck as we both fought to catch our breaths.
I lightly stroked my fingers along his back as my entire body relaxed into the bed. He eventually lifted his head and smiled at me. I loved how our bodies were hot and sweaty, and I silently wished the night would never end.
Leaning down, he cupped my cheeks in his hands and kissed me tenderly.
It was slow, and I had the feeling he didn’t want this to end, either.
The moment was special, but I couldn’t describe how.
Was it because it was my first time? Had it felt as good for him as it had for me?
By the look on his face, I’d guess the answer was yes.
He kissed along my jaw to my ear. “You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever laid eyes on, Lili. I want you to know that.”
I squeezed my eyes shut and willed myself not to cry. Had he said that to other women after sleeping with them? His words already felt like a goodbye that I wasn’t sure was coming or not.
When he lifted his head and met my gaze, I forced myself to smile.
“That was…it was… I can’t put into words how amazing it was. Thank you.”
He tapped the tip of my nose. “I’m glad, and you don’t need to thank me, Lili. I enjoyed it as much as you.”
Moving slowly, he pulled out of me and quickly got off the bed. I watched as he pulled a condom off and headed toward his bathroom.
Chewing on my lower lip, I realized I hadn’t even thought about protection. My face heated at how swept up I’d been that I would have completely forgotten that. At least one of us was being responsible.
Caden returned with a washcloth, crawled onto the bed, and grinned. God, he had the most beautiful smile.
“Spread for me and let me get you cleaned up.”
Okay, this is hot. Do all men do this after sex?
I’d have to ask the girls. No, I’d ask Moreen—because how weird would that be to ask Caden’s sisters?
“Are you sore?” he asked. “Do you want to take a bath?”
I screwed up my face and said, “I’m actually starving.”
I was gifted with another smile. “It’s five in the morning, so I’m not surprised you’re hungry. I can help with that, too.”
He headed back into the bathroom and emerged with a robe.
“So we slept all night?” I asked, as he handed me the robe.
“We did. Put this on, it’ll keep you warm while I make us something to eat.”
Slipping out of bed, I put on the robe and watched as Caden put on sweatpants and a T-shirt. The fact that he had nothing on underneath the sweatpants made me want to drag him back to bed.
He reached for my hand, and I placed it in his. Drawing me close, he kissed me, and Lord, I could get lost in his kisses if I wasn’t careful.
What in the hell was wrong with this Rachel woman? If this was Caden not giving himself to anyone, what would he be like when he was in love with you? My stomach did a little flip at the unthinkable idea—or maybe the possibility.
Then a traitorous thought popped into my head. Was he this sweet and tender with Millie?
I frowned.
Caden chuckled. “Oh boy, you’re frowning. Let’s get you fed.”