6. Davina
6
Davina
P art of being on lockdown means stocking supplies. Charlie was completely on board. Mason, not so much, but he wanted me to have protection and everyone else was busy.
“So, he just shows up out of the blue? I mean, he never called you or made contact with you this whole time?” I ask.
“I thought he was dead, so no, we haven’t been in contact. I would’ve told you that.”
I know he would have, which makes keeping my relationship with Collin a secret from him so damn hard. I almost told him last night. Wanted to. But I couldn’t bring myself to say the words.
“No candy,” I say to Charlie.
“But all the guys love candy, right, Mason?”
“Seriously? Trying to use the club to your advantage?” Charlie grins and I cave. “Fine. Just don’t get too much.”
“Softy.” Mason smirks.
“You’ll be the one complaining later when he’s bouncing off the walls.”
He tosses a few more bags into the buggy and I roll my eyes. We head to the register to check out and Charlie sneaks in another chocolate bar.
It’s hard to believe there was a time I thought about abortion. When I found out I was pregnant, Collin had been gone almost two months. I was a seventeen year old kid and had no idea what I was going to do. I felt helpless. Now, I feel that way again.
“All right, kiddo. Let’s get out of here,” I say to Charlie, while Mason pays the cashier. He’s already unwrapping one of the chocolate bars as we walk outside.
Mason is close behind us and pops the back hatch so we can load the groceries. It’s that moment that I feel eyes on me. This eerie feeling that someone is watching me and I can’t shake it. I turn around, scanning the parking lot.
Collin. He’s standing across the lot, arms folded over his chest, cigarette loose on his lips. He watches me for a moment, then climbs into a Chevy Silverado and drives off.
I open my mouth to tell Mason he was there. Give him an opportunity to go after him. Put an end to all of this.
But I can’t. Not because I don’t want this war to be over. Because I do. The club has suffered enough devastation at Collin’s hands.
But because I want answers. Why did he leave? Why is he back? And most importantly, why is my heart hammering in my chest?