Chapter 38
Ishika
He has marked his skin with my name as he had promised. If my head wasn’t reeling from my orgasms, I would have reacted better. But seeing my name ‘Ishika’ engraved on his flesh, in hues of purple and red, has stunned me in all the good kinds of ways.
He has given me a place in his heart and on his skin. It’s humbling. He gives me what I never even think to ask. He seeks me when I wish to hide. He sets me free when I want to remain chained. This man demands my love without restrictions then gives me his all without hesitation.
This gesture feels so much more intimate. So much more ceremonial. And to think I ran away from him. It makes me feel shameful that I doubted his intentions. Last night I had accused him of not loving me.
“Does this mean you got in, they want you on the Fantastic Feasts show, don’t they?
” I ask, overwhelmed with emotions that make me want to kiss him and giggle with mirth, but I also want to cry my guts out.
I don’t know why I am like this. I missed out being there for him again. We could have done this together.
He nods giving me his million-dollar smile, dimple and all. When he kisses my nose, relief washes over me, he looks excited for the opportunity. I want this for him. This cooking show will give him some prospective.
“I’m so proud of you, Ryan. You’re gonna be phenomenal, I know,” I say, turning my body so I am completely on top of him, my pussy is crushing his sleeping cock and making it stir.
“Your confidence scares me, babe. Don’t know about winning, but I’ll give it my best shot.”
My pointy chin rests in the middle of his wide chest as I stare into his eyes. “Whatever happens, we’re in this together.”
“Tell me everything. How did it happen? When do you have to leave?” I ask.
“In a month. I had to go through six rounds of group auditions and one interview. They called me in two weeks ago and handed me the contract. I got the tattoo done immediately. I was coming home next Sunday to give you the news. But you beat me to it. I was so shocked to see you last night. And when I saw you turn and run, I was this close to losing my shit. Did you know all I wanted to do was haul your ass to my bed and take you over my knees? I was thinking of tying you to my bed and punishing you for hours.”
My shaky breath reveals how he affects me.
Your punishments make me salivate.
“Hey, I’m not the only one to blame. What about all that stuff you made up about friendship last night?
What was that? I show you my seduction skills and you offer me a lame-ass friendship.
That push up bra itself costed me two hundred bucks.
I’m not even going to mention the mani-pedi and the pain of waxing.
And I didn’t even manage to turn you on. ”
“Turn me on? I was fuckin’ hoisting a tent in my pants the minute I laid my eyes on you.
Your seduction skills were stellar, babe.
I didn’t know what you wanted from me. I was trying to show you, I’m a patient man.
That I can behave like a gentleman, most times, even when in my mind I’m undressing every bit of your clothing. ”
I giggle, kissing the ink that spells my name.
“Hey, thanks for coming back to me. I’ve a lot to apologize for. For a long time, I was so mad at you about the USB. About how you said you wanted to go back to Brent. I honestly didn’t know what to believe anymore.”
“Brent and I were never together. It was all a lie to make you leave town. I have a lot to apologize for too. I should have talked to you. I should have tried to explain.”
He nods then kisses my hand.
“Talk to me about your arrest. How I wished I could have been there for you. But my father was hell-bent that I should stay away. I was on lockdown. My father wouldn’t let me see you.
He had me believe that he was paying for your lawyers, and all I thought of was to clear your name so you could be a free man. ”
My father didn’t necessarily lie, but he misled me to believe that he was helping Ryan. I later got to know Ryan had refused to take his help for the court case.
“Your father offered to help me find a good lawyer. He did offer to pay for my legal fees. But Mason had already taken care of that. M had a team of the best lawyers in the country by my side. But don’t fight with your father, Ishika.
He was shielding you from the gory details of my past. He was keeping you away from a man who has trouble following rules.
But, as much as he loves you, Ishika, I understand he wants the best for his princess.
He won’t win if he tries to come between us next time.
And my mother, the woman loves me to death, but I hate her for manipulating you and breaking us up. ”
He rolls me over so he is on top of me. His arms grip my wrists and cage them above my head. He gently thrusts his now semi hard cock, rubbing it on my sensitive skin.
“You’re not fucking going anywhere, babe. You’re never again going to refuse me of my right to love you,” he growls, shifting his hips. The head of his cock tickles my wet entrance and desire wreathes in my lower belly. I am all taut and ready for him again.
“Don’t make me cry, Ryan, that’s my only demand.
I can’t go through another heartbreak. Next time you think I hid something from you, ask me questions.
Don’t just block me out. When we started going out, you kept believing that it was temporary, I would hurt you one day.
So when I did hurt you, even if it was a lie, you fell for it because that’s what you were afraid of. ”
“I was fuckin’ stupid. But, no more tears. No more heartbreaks. No more misunderstandings. Only pussy worship from now on. I fuckin’ still can’t believe that I got so lucky. I get to have you. I get to call you mine.”
“You ain’t dreaming.” I pinch his bicep hard making him yelp. “Do you believe your luck now? Anytime you need a reminder, just ask.”
“Ouch, fuck. Okay. Stop it.” He swats my arm.
We both grin. His hand travels to my hair and gently massages my scalp to relax me.
“When you go on that show, I’m going to send you naughty messages. There’ll be some dirty videos too.”
“Hmm.” He buries his face in the valley of my breasts and groans. “I’ll be gone six weeks, Ishika. Six weeks of hell. Six weeks of missing you.”
“It’ll all work things out. I’ll be waiting for you. Cheering for you the entire time.”
“I want to make you the happiest girl in the world.” I notice his cock growing and hardening.
“Your cock plunging deep inside me would make me very happy right now.”
“Like this?” He thrusts inside me making my head jerk and hit the headboard. Soon his hand is cushioning my head and we are moving gently, softly. He is kissing me in a way that causes my body to break out in goosebumps and make my toes curl.
This is how he makes love to me.