Chapter 5
Theo
“That girl was nice. I knew this dress would be a hit.” Claire was so delusional—even I knew that woman was looking at me. I felt something, but couldn’t put my finger on what it was. It was taking away the darkness and I couldn’t let that happen. Push it down, Theo.
But there was something about her that intrigued me. Hell, I even felt my dick twitch to life, and that hasn’t happened in a long while. I couldn’t take these mixed emotions. This night needed to be over quickly, but something was telling me to find the dark-haired green-eyed vixen.
I looked over the crowd and I spotted her over by the bar and I just stared. Her hair ran straight down her back and she wasn’t wearing a lot of makeup. Her heels put fantasies in my mind of how she could be wrapped around me with nothing but those on while I fuck the life out of her and make both of our demons go away. She had demons too. I saw them in those vibrant green eyes; she was just better at hiding them than me.
She grabbed a drink and turned and already there was another guy waiting to talk to her. She knew she was hot and used it to her advantage. He paid for her drink. Smart girl.
“Theo, what are you looking at?” I shook my head and looked down at Claire, but lucky for me, she was barely five feet tall.
I pointed ahead. “The bar.” Short and sweet, that’s how I was with her.
“Goodie, let’s go get drinks and start to walk around so I can show off this fantastic dress of mine.” God, I couldn’t stand her even more now, but unfortunately I was stuck in this situation because she knew things about me that if anyone else knew, I would be screwed.
I followed as she guided us through the crowd and toward the bar. When we got there, she ordered for us and I just stood silent. I turned my head and heard laughter. It was my mystery lady. I didn’t know why I felt the slightest bit irritated when I saw her laughing at whatever that douchebag next to her was saying. I felt my hand flex in and out until it was in a full on fist. Rage, that was the only thing that I was feeling now.
Chill out, Theo, you don’t even know this chick. My head kept trying to calm me down, but it was not working so well. I was starting to get hot and a little dizzy now and didn’t know if it was this suit or her. What the fuck did Claire give me?
“Now, what the fuck is your problem? I told you not to mess this night up for me.” Claire pointed a finger at me like I was her child.
“I need to grab some air. I’ll be right back.” She studied me and I knew I would pay for this later, but I needed to get out of this room.
“Fine. There is a balcony over there.” She pointed to the side of the room where there were large curtains drawn. I nodded and went to turn, but she stopped me in my place.
“Don’t fuck with me, Theo. You know how this night could end.” She was serious now, but I wouldn’t mind if one of these days she ends all my misery. I’m getting exhausted holding all of this on my shoulders. I nodded again and started to walk across the floor toward the balcony. I started to feel dizzy again and rammed right into someone.
“Hey, watch where you’re going, guy.” I held my hands up placatingly.
“I’m sorry.” That’s all I said and I kept walking. Finally, I saw the curtains and I walked out. There was no one out there which made this that much better. Nothing compared to fresh air and silence. I walked over to the ledge and stared off into the distance. I wondered if I would die if I jumped off right here or if I would survive. I know it’s a very selfish thing to consider, but when you feel like you have nothing and no one left, what more can you do? With everything that had happened this past year, I still didn’t know why I was here or what purpose there was for me in this world.
Shaking my head, I looked down and saw people talking out front and having a good time. I missed that, being normal. Having a conversation with someone and sharing a laugh. I would give anything to feel that normal again, but it would never happen. My arm started to shake a little and I went to hold it down and cursed under my breath.
“Fuck.” Breathe in, breathe out. I started to calm down, but had the realization that these pills would not last all night. I needed to get back in there so Claire doesn’t decide to ditch my ass, then I would get no money for tonight. I closed my eyes and I thought I was going to see Camie but I didn’t—which is another punch to the gut. Instead, it was the dark-haired green-eyed angel who had cast this spell on me. Those eyes bored into me and I knew she was seeing me for me, not some drug addict who lived on the streets.
But what would she do if she did know that side of me? Run away? Judge me? Who the fuck knew? I opened my eyes and looked out in front of me once more and decided that it was time. I needed to get my ass back in there and get to Claire, but that was when the curtain moved and there she was. My dark angel and she was walking towards me.