Chapter 15
Theo
I stopped when I was about halfway to Claire’s and opened the pill bottle. I dropped the last two in my hand and looked at them.
”Bottoms up!” I jokingly said to myself before I tossed them back dryly. I took a big gulp, then they were gone. I threw the empty bottle in the trash nearby and kept walking.
Let’s get this shit over with.
I decided to pull my phone out and contemplated calling Serenity. I would love to hear her sassy voice before I had to do this. Before I found the dark again.
I turned my phone on and realized that I need to charge it soon. Maybe I could plug it in at Claire’s without her knowing. I wasn’t allowed to touch her personal things. I’d done it before though. I just needed to make sure I was somewhat coherent when I got there.
I scrolled through my handful of contacts and found her number. I put her name as Angel. It made me smile when I saw it. I paused for a second thinking this might be a bad idea. I pushed the thought out of my head because I needed her voice so I could make it through this night. I hit the call button and waited. It rang once, then twice. Shit. Then a third time. Just when I was about to hang up she answered.
”You know when you call me you should just call me with your number. I won’t stalk you, much.”
That was exactly what I needed right now. That mouth of hers made me crazy but secretly happy.
”Hi.” That’s all I could push out. I was a fucking idiot.
”Still trying to play the silent type I see. Maybe come over and I bet I could make you say more than one-word answers?” And my dick was jumping. The thought of being around her alone made my mind go wild but I knew it would be gone soon. The darkness would come along with the quiet.
“I want to see you.” What the hell was I doing? I couldn’t see her. I had to go see Claire and who knew what that was going to entail. Why did I say that? I could already feel the numbness creeping in, but I tried to keep it together. I looked up and saw Claire’s house. Perfect timing, but something was holding me back. I didn’t want to get off the phone.
“Well, what are you waiting for? You remember where I said I was staying?”
Of course, I remembered. I remembered a lot about my life and most of it was pretty great until that night. I shook my head to get rid of those thoughts.
“Yes.” That’s the only thing that I could say, because the darkness was coming faster now. I hope to god I would remember talking to her later.
“I’ll see you soon, Theo.”
The way she said my name sent a shock straight to my balls. I swear if I squeezed any tighter, I would break my phone.
“Goodbye, Serenity.”
Why the fuck did I just call her? Fuck. I took the phone from my ear after I heard her hang up. I turned my phone off and put it in my pocket. I really needed to charge it when I get in there. Stay focused. I walked to the back door and knocked. It took a few minutes but to my unfortunate luck Claire answered the door.
“Took you long enough.” I bowed my head because I was in the I don’t give a fuck mode. I walked in the house and took my shoes off.
“You know where to go. I’ll be up there shortly.”
I nodded and started to make my way upstairs. When I got up there, I saw all the items that she planned to use tonight but it didn’t bother me thanks to the pills.
But something deep down was creeping up in me. I saw the charger in the wall and hurried to plug my phone in. After plugging in my phone, I took my shirt off and sat in the chair. My eyes started to get heavy but I needed to stay awake so I could get the rest of the money.
“Wake up, sweety. It’s going to be a busy night.” I didn’t realize I already closed my eyes. I pushed them open and looked at her.
“Are we ready for some pain?”
Fucking sadist. I think more and more she killed her husband.
She took the knife from the night stand and came over to me. The first time that I was with Claire, it was very much about sex but each time since has evolved into something that was so much darker. She has become more obsessed with causing pain than pleasure.
“Go put the cuffs on and get to your knees, you disgusting boy.”
Fine. I wished she would just end my misery which was probably what her husband wanted. I grabbed the cuffs and latched them around my hands and got to my knees. I bowed my head because I didn’t want her to see that my eyes wanted to close. She liked to know that what she did affected me because she got off on that. Fucking weird. Suddenly, I felt the blade in my back near my shoulder blade.
“Fuck!” I flinched but tried to take it. The pills weren’t working the way that I wanted.
“Did that hurt?” I started to breathe in deeply.
Then another cut on the opposite side. I groaned and bit down on my tongue. I tasted the metallic tang of my blood in my mouth. She made a small moan.
Then again and again. She did this for what felt like forever until I was laying on the floor and the darkness was gone. All that was left was pity for myself and how I had gotten myself here. I knew I couldn’t do this anymore.
“That was great, sugar. Always know how to show a girl a good time.”
I turned my head to see Claire. She was now standing naked with my blood on her hands. I tried to control my emotions because she wouldn’t get that from me.
“Get yourself cleaned up and don’t get anything on my carpet. I mean it. I’ll deduct what I’m giving you if I have to have someone come clean the carpets.”
Fuck her. I got up and headed to the bathroom and got in the shower. I cringed and let the water run down my back to slow the bleeding. I put my hands on the wall and I let a tear fall.
Just one, that’s all that I would allow myself, no more. Deep in me I wanted to scream but I knew that I wouldn’t be heard.