28. Cade
Harris
How’s the trip going? Still breathing?
Had you asked me this question yesterday, the answer on the breathing part would’ve been debatable.
Harris
Well, at least I have proof of life.
But how is it? How’s Gwen?
Perfect. It’s all perfect.
Heading into the day of my parents’ party, I’m feeling happier than I’ve felt in… well, at least ten years. I woke up with Gwen’s mouth wrapped around my cock, both of us still naked from the night before. She may not have let me fuck her, but that didn’t stop me from spending the entire evening showing her everything I’m feeling, using my body to tell her all the things I’m still too scared to say out loud.
But this morning, it felt like she was trying to tell me the same thing, communicating the only way we know how, with our bodies.
My entire family has been showing me they care—in different ways, obviously—but it’s everything to me. Everything is feeling more relaxed. Hell, I’m not even bothered by Kylie’s incessant directions or bossy self because I know she’s so focused on making sure the celebration for my parents goes well tonight.
I’m actually really excited about the party, which is a far cry from when I wouldn’t even agree to come. But now, having cleared the air with my family, I’m excited to be here.
I mean, yes, there have been some tense moments, specifically between Vince and I, but we just needed to hash it out—verbally and slightly physically—but I let him. I knew he needed to unload on me. He’s right. I wasn’t there for him. He was fourteen when Veronica died, he had so much growing up to do, and I bailed on him. I was supposed to be his protector, his older brother, and I abandoned him.
My brother has looked up to me from the time he was born and when he needed me most, I left. It’s going to take a lot for me to forgive myself for everything I’ve done to my family. All I know is that I’m thankful they’re sticking around. At least this way I can spend the rest of my life letting them know I care.
If everything goes my way, Gwen will be by my side the entire time.
“Are you just going to stand there staring at the lights or are you going to finish hanging them?” Kylie snaps as she walks by with another couple of vases of flowers, some sort of decoration, or whatever, and places it by the table.
Shaking my head, I snap myself out of my thoughts. “Sorry, just keep thinking.”
“Care to elaborate?” she asks dryly. “Like, are we talking about Gwen in a roundabout way because you’re not ready to admit it… or are we openly talking about how hopelessly in love with that girl you are?”
I’m stunned, not sure how it has taken me so long to realize all of this. I mean, this won’t be news to anyone back home. The couple of times I’ve gotten text messages from the guys, hell even Sawyer texted me once, they all told me not to fuck it up, that this could be it. Sawyer’s version was much more colorful and might’ve included something about cement shoes. She’s a little scary.
Just what Rex needs, though.
“I guess we’re openly talking about how hopelessly in love with that girl I am,” I grumble, but I can’t help myself—I smile.
Kylie squeals and gives me a hug like I just told her I got her a puppy, all because I’m in love.
“Have you told her yet?” she asks excitedly. “If not… you have to. That girl is just as in love with you. Gwen’s feisty, but her family isn’t great. Not a close one, but I’m sure you know all this. Being here with you, she said it’s the most at peace she’s ever felt. I think you need to make sure she knows you feel the same.”
I smile because I know exactly how I’m going to tell her… or at least where I’ll tell her.
“I will.”
My parents aren’tthe people who always get dressed up and go out, so we’re throwing the party here in the backyard, just making it a black-tie event. They tried to fight it, but even I agreed their fortieth anniversary should be celebrated in style.
Kylie planned this party weeks ago, so I knew I had to bring my tux. Thankfully, when I asked Gwen to come with me, I warned her about it, so she came prepared.
And boy, did she ever. She looks perfect in a flowy, emerald green dress with a slit up the middle. I can see just enough leg to drive me wild. Her teasing touches and seductive glances have me desperate to get her out of here. I made a promise to myself that I would wait until after dessert to sneak off with Gwen, but damn, it’s been difficult.
Thankfully, they just passed out cake, and Gwen’s heading back from talking with Kylie and my mom. This is the perfect time to sneak off for a bit.
“You okay?” she asks as she walks back to me with a drink in hand for each of us.
“I am much better now that you’re here,” I tell her, leaning down and stealing a kiss, loving the soft mewls she makes as my tongue slips between her lips. My cock starts to harden, already craving her. It’s been weeks since I’ve been inside her, and I’m dying to spend the night showing her just how much I love her. I’m desperate to feel her fall apart around me, to make sure she knows she’ll always be home when she’s with me.
“Slow your roll, Mr. Williams. There are children around.” She smiles, but I can see the blush on her cheeks, and by the way she’s squeezing her legs together, I can tell she’s as affected by me as I am by her.
“About that, can I take you somewhere? I want to show you something,” I say to her. My voice sounds more uneasy than I had hoped, but I can’t help but be a little nervous.
What if she doesn’t feel the same way? What if this is all for show because my family is around, and when we get back home, she breaks my heart? Should I wait until?
No.
It happens tonight.
“Won’t people notice?” she asks nervously, but I just laugh.
“Have you looked around? I’m pretty sure everyone from town is here. My parents won’t even notice. And I don’t really give a shit if anyone else does,” I tell her with a shrug.
Her eyes twinkle as she looks up at me, her tongue darting out to lick those lips I desperately want on mine. But I want to talk to her, I need to tell her, and then hopefully the next time I kiss her, she’ll know how much I love her.
“Lead the way,” she says as she places her hand in mine.
The soundof the river has always been soothing to me. Any time I was upset or frustrated when growing up, I would end up coming out here. I would usually just throw rocks into the river, but it was always enough to take my mind off everything and just be.
Some of my best thinking was done in this spot, some of my best listening too.
“What is this place?” Gwen asks, sitting in the back of the 4Runner, her feet dangling as she looks up at me, curiosity filling those dark green eyes.
“When I was younger, I used to come out here. With Veronica. It kind of became our little hideout. She told me that she found this spot one day after she got frustrated with our parents for some reason or another and decided to go on a walk. After that, any time I got frustrated, I would come here.”
“It’s beautiful out here, I can see why this would be your peaceful spot,” Gwen says as she kicks her legs back and forth, her dress slowly sliding up with each pass until I can see more of her legs and I’m just dying to spread her wide.
Stay focused, Cade.
“It was my spot growing up, but now it’s not the only place that I find peace,” I tell her, hoping she can feel the sincerity in my words. “Gwen, when I’m with you, I feel the same peace that I felt here growing up, my brain can stop being so loud, and I can actually think, can actually feel.” I watch her eyes start to widen at my declaration, but I’m not done.
I won’t leave this spot until she knows I’m in love with her.
“You drive me crazy, but before you, I was merely existing. Even before we became us, back when we were just friends, you still brought me to life. The time I spent with you would be the highlight of my month. Look… what I’m trying to say is that without you, I’m a shell of a man. With you, I’m alive. I feel like I can breathe for the first time in a long time. I’ve fallen in love with you, Gwen Murphy, and I’m tired of fighting it.”
She lets out a soft whimper as my lips crash into hers for a quick kiss before I drop to my knees in the middle of her dangling legs.
“What are you doing?” she asks, her voice barely a whisper.
“Proving to you in another way how much I love you,” I tell her, gripping her panties and sliding them off, putting them in my pocket with a wink. The music from the party can still be heard here, but we’re far enough away that I know no one will find us.
Not that I’d exactly care, I just don’t want anyone else seeing her like this.
I start pressing kisses up her thighs as my hands adjust her dress, opening the center slit just enough to show me her pretty pussy, bare and glistening. She’s already so wet for me.
“Is all of this for me?” I ask, as I slide one finger through her core, dragging her wetness down her thighs. With my tongue, I follow the path, lapping it up as I make my way to her pussy. “Answer me, Tink,” I demand.
“Yes… it’s all for you,” she croaks out as my tongue flattens, sliding from her center all the way to her clit, her screams only pushing me to go harder, rougher, giving her exactly what she needs.
“Good girl,” I growl. I turn my head and bite down on her inner thigh, earning me a yelp that morphs into a moan as I press my tongue against her clit.
I make slow movements, my tongue flat as I explore her, taste her, doing everything I can to get her ready. When I think she’s close, I stop. Standing up, I unbutton my pants, slide my zipper down, and pull my cock out, precum already glistening at the tip.
I need her.
“I’m going to fuck you now,” I tell her as I take a step closer, sliding the head of my cock through her folds.
“Wait!” she says as I move to reach for my jacket, thrown on the edge of the truck. “I… I don’t—do we have to use a condom?”
Not use a condom? I’ve never done that in my life, never, not even once. I’ve always been too terrified of a fuck up. The idea of getting someone pregnant has always been enough to scare the shit out of me.
But with Gwen? The idea of one day getting her pregnant and starting a family with her… that doesn’t seem so scary. Being able to fuck her with no barrier is a dream come true.
“Are you sure?”
“Yes. I’m on birth control… and I’ve been tested,” Gwen says, as she toys with her lower lip, worrying it between her teeth.
“Me too, Tink. I’ve never fucked without a condom before,” I whisper, one hand sliding up and down my cock. The thought of fucking her like this already has me ready to come.
“Me neither,” she says, grabbing my arm and pulling me closer. Lining my cock up with her entrance, I lean forward, kissing her, hoping she can feel how much I love her.
“I love you,” I tell her as I slowly slide in.
“I love you too, Cade Williams,” Gwen starts, but her words end in a yell. Hearing her say I love you is all it takes for me to lose control, thrusting all the way to the hilt.
The sensation is like nothing I’ve ever felt before. The feel of her squeezing my cock is so intense I have to hold still.
“Hey, Cade?” Gwen starts cautiously, her breathing ragged.
“Yes?”
“Will you fuck me now?”
Her words set me on fire, and I have to do everything in my control to remember that if I get hurt, if Gwen has to explain to her coworkers that she fucked me and injured me, she’ll never forgive me.
I kiss her slowly, my hands gripping her hips as I continue to thrust deep and slow, lifting her hips up enough to hit her in just the right spot to make her toes curl. With every thrust, her moans get louder, her nails biting into my skin as she holds me tight. I smother her cries with my tongue, drinking them in as I’ve earned each and every one of them.
I can’t tell you how long we spend near the river in the back of my truck, but before I know it, we’re moving into the truck bed—where, thankfully, I was smart enough to already have pads down, although earlier, I thought they’d be to look at the stars.
I’d prefer to make her see stars.
Laying her down, my cock still buried inside her, she matches me thrust for thrust, her body rubbing small circles against me as I drive into her, over and over. She moves one hand, interlacing it with my own, and in this moment I feel like we are finally, truly understanding each other.
Gwen is mine.
I am hers.
“Don’t stop, I’m… I’m so close” she whines, her breathing ragged as she frantically races toward her finish. But her next words push me over the edge. “Finish in me, Cade. Fill me with your cum.”
That’s all it takes, and with the last few thrusts and a thumb on her clit, we detonate. Her body starts shaking, her cheeks pink, and her pussy clenches down on me, milking every last drop until we lay there, completely spent, in the back of my truck.
It takes us a moment to catch our breaths, neither of us moving as I still inside her.
“That—” I start.
“Was the best fuck of my life,” Gwen finishes for me, and I have to chuckle.
Nothing has ever felt like that before, ever.
Maybe because I’ve never fucked someone who was mine before.