Freezing Bonds that Tie our Hearts (Blood and Water #2)

19. Aiden

Nova was sitting on my bed, seemingly lost in thoughts by the time I turned around after finding what I was looking for in my closet.

“Here, you can wear this.” I tossed the t-shirt at her and it fell in her lap. I knew it was probably going to be a little too big for her, but I didn’t care and I doubted she did. The idea of seeing her dressed in my clothes had me on edge.

“You sure you’re okay, little star?”

She looked up at that and gave me a small smile. “Yes. Just a fight with my dad, you know?”

I didn’t, because I never had a dad, but I said nothing and simply sat down next to her. “Did you eat? I can make you a sandwich or—”

“No, I’m okay. I ate before coming here.”

“Do you wanna talk about it?” She fell silent at that but I saw how her hands clutched at the shirt in her lap.

“Can I get comfortable, first?”

“Of course, the bathroom is—” before I could finish, Nova was up, giving me her back, and pulling her shirt over her head.

I gaped a little, especially since she wasn’t wearing a bra, and the long braids cascading down her back, stopping a few inches shy of her ass, made the view all the more enticing.

She quickly put my shirt on, it stopped a little lower than the skirt she had on and when she bent over to take it off from underneath the makeshift pajamas, I had to look away. I could already feel myself getting hard and an erection was hell to hide inside gray sweatpants.

Nova looked back at me over her shoulder, biting her lips with a shy expression on her face. She pulled her hair out from where it got stuck under the shirt and pulled it to the side, over her shoulder. My eyes traveled from the long, fine braids, to the cotton pillowcases on my bed and I mentally cursed.

“Wait here.” Getting up, I made the quick trip from my room to my sisters’ before coming back with two satin pillowcases in hand.

When she saw them, Nova looked surprised.

“My sister always keeps spare ones, she never has enough of these.” I smiled when she took one from my hands to put it on the pillow closest to the wall. I put the second one on too, even though this pillow would be mine, you never know. Maybe she was an agitated sleeper and might end up on my side.

“Is me being here okay? I mean, won’t your sisters and your mom freak out?”

“My mom and youngest sister are out of town to see family, they were supposed to be back yesterday but my aunt begged her to stay a few more days. My oldest sister lives on campus and the last one went out with her friends. She’ll be back later but she won’t snitch.”

Or at least she better not.

Nova nodded, her lower lip still caught between her teeth so I said, “Wanna watch something?”

“No, I just want to get to bed. Is that okay?”

“Of course,” did she really need to ask?

I went to close the door while she got under the covers, clutching the sheets. I got in behind her after turning off the lights, making the only light in the room coming from outside my window.

Tension grew within the room as we both laid down, our arms brushing against one another given how small my bed was. I could feel how tense she was, but at the same time, energy buzzed off her and I was dying to touch her and feed off of it.

“Do you wanna talk about it?”

When my question was met with silence, and that silence stretched for a few seconds, I thought she would just ignore me and start sleeping.

I was wrong and nothing could have prepared me for what came next.

“My mom killed herself, three years ago.”

I stopped breathing, definitely not expecting those words to come out of her mouth. Nova’s voice was small, almost a whisper. Like the mere mention of her mother’s passing hurt.

“That’s the whole reason why we left the city to come and live here. Nobody knows and I don’t want anyone to know the circumstances of her death so… please, don’t tell anyone.”

“Of course not, Nova. You know you can trust me.”

I felt her nod from next to me but couldn’t bring myself to look at her, afraid she’d feel scrutinized. Instead, my hand simply grabbed hers and squeezed once, to which she answered by interlacing her fingers through mine.

“She was schizophrenic. My mom. She went through some really bad depressive episodes and she could get… neglectful at times. She had to take some really heavy medication, and even if they made her more stable they also made her forgetful.” I said nothing, caressing the back of her hand with my thumb, “Then one day, she stopped taking them. Her meds.

“She said she felt better without them, that they only made her sicker and, honestly, we all believed her. I know it sounds awful but, my dad, he’s from a family and a generation that didn’t really believe in mental health and I guess we just followed his lead. She’d been taking those meds since she was sixteen, she and my dad met when they were seventeen. I guess he assumed they didn’t work if, even with them, she was still depressed and having episodes. So, when mom decided to stop her meds, he was okay with it and even encouraged it.”

I gulped, closing my eyes. I didn’t like where this was going, and I hated the detached tone she was speaking in right now.

“I swear, Aiden, she was so happy the weeks before her death. She was the best mother, the best wife. My dad, he couldn’t stop praising her for being strong enough to stop her meds.” She chuckled humorlessly, “She killed herself three weeks after. I discovered her body and I—” she pinched her lips together, “I had to get under medication too. Just like her. I still take them. My dad has never forgiven himself for his role in my mom’s death. He blames himself constantly for not taking her mental health seriously. He’s so scared that I’ll end up like her that he doesn’t even see me anymore. It’s like she wasn’t the one to die that day, I was.”

My head whipped towards her in surprise, “Nova, you’re not your mother. You went through something traumatic that you’re still dealing with. There’s nothing shameful about PTSD. You’re your own person and just because your dad is too stupid to see it, doesn’t mean it’s not the reality.” She was silent for a while, just staring at me tearfully, before she answered.

“That’s what I’ve been learning lately. I hate those meds, but I take them religiously. I’ve never had any… suicidal thoughts. I always do my best to rein in my emotions, especially stronger ones, like anger, because they can trigger episodes. But he acts like I’m unstable and I usually don’t say anything, but I’ve had enough.”

“You deserve to live life to the fullest and feel whatever you wanna feel, not some diluted version of natural emotions.” I was angry on her behalf, and when she fell silent, like she was thinking about what I’d said and was contemplating it, I wanted to punch her father for making her feel like she had to restrain herself from feeling things.

“Aiden?” She broke the silence.

“Yes?”

“When you look at me, what do you see?”

Her question took me a bit by surprise and when I turned my head in her direction, her eyes were staring straight at the ceiling, avoiding my gaze.

From the moment she had knocked on my door earlier, I could tell something was wrong. Her eyes were red and puffy, as were her lips. There was a subtle shake to her hands and her smile was fake and wobbly, but she wasn’t crying and hasn’t cried since getting here. I knew she’d had a fight with her dad, and if it was anything like what I’d witnessed that morning, then I understood why she seemed so frazzled.

“When I look at you?”

She hummed and I rolled over so that I was on my side with an arm under my cheek, staring at her unabashedly. There wasn’t an inch of her that wasn’t perfect in my eyes. Her side profile highlighted her high cheekbones and long lashes, the curve of her nose and plumpness of her lips. There was a mole right underneath her left eye, and another one on her right cheek.

She was so beautiful it hurt looking at her, sometimes.

It hurt because I knew that I could never have her. Not permanently, at least.

She would leave after we graduate and accomplish great things, meanwhile, I’d stay here and continue working at the garage so I can help my mom with the money.

“I see a beautiful, strong and sweet girl.” That brought her attention to me as tears shone brighter in her eyes, “I see a soft-spoken, intelligent little star who shines way too bright for this small town and the people in it. I see a girl who’s tired of hiding behind coy smiles and dainty manners.”

She bit her lit and my hand came up to cup her face, “I see you, Nova. I always have.”

My head came down on hers at the same time she came up for me and our lips met in a soft kiss. She moaned in my mouth and her arms wrapped around my neck, pulling me to her, her legs parting so I could lay between them.

Our position made the fact that she wasn’t wearing panties under that shirt pretty fucking obvious. I pulled away, pushing my forehead against hers and looking through her eyes.

“Fuck, are you trying to kill me? No panties, really?”

“Took them off while you went to get the pillowcases. I want you, Aiden. I like how I feel when I’m with you.”

“How do you feel?”

“Like myself. Like I can finally be me.”

I kissed her again, our tongues moving together, learning, tasting one another. My hand moved down to cup her tit through her shirt and I pinched the nipple hard, causing her to whimper.

I had no fucking clue what I was doing, just that I had to touch her, everywhere. Quickly, touching her through her clothes was not enough and I pushed it over her chest until her perky tits were revealed.

Nova looked up at me, a mix of uncertainty and desire etched on her face but I wasn’t focused on that. My mind was on the realization that Nova Starling laid mostly naked in my bed. Her breasts were the perfect size, she was probably a bit bigger than average, but as I cupped them, they fit my hands perfectly.

My eyes found hers as I slowly lowered my mouth to one brown nipple, sucking it into my mouth, as her breath hitched.

“Aiden.” She moaned, throwing her head back.

I continued sucking on it as my hand pinched the other taut peak between two fingers. Her hips started moving of their own accord, I could feel her wetness grinding against my stomach, making my cock hard as fucking granite.

I couldn’t wait anymore, I just had to taste it, to taste her.

Releasing her nipple, I went back up for a quick kiss to her lips, before peppering them all over her skin, from her neck to the valley between her breast, to her taut stomach, until I finally reached the place I’ve been wanting to taste since I knew what sex was.

“What are you—”

She didn’t get to finish that sentence, her words turning into a moan as I spread her pussy open with my thumbs, looking for that bundle of nerves that was apparently hard to find, according to locker room talk. Spoiler alert, it really wasn’t.

I didn’t wait any longer, sucking her little clit into my mouth the way I had earlier with her nipples and the reaction was immediate.

Nova’s hips bucked off the bed as she let out a loud, high-pitched moan. Her hands immediately came to tangle in my hair, and I really thought she would push me away at first, but it was the opposite.

“Yes, oh fuck, Aiden, just like that. That felt so good.”

So I did it again, sucking and lapping at her clit as she writhed on my bed. Slowly, because I already knew how fucking tight she was, I pushed a finger inside her, my mouth still on her clit.

The combination of both had her thrashing around, grinding her cunt against my face like she fucking owned me. Like I was there for her pleasure only and I fucking loved that.

Adding another finger, I fucked her slowly why furiously sucking and flicking her clit, the contrast seemed to drive her mad. She thrashed on my bed, her own fingers coming up to play with her tits, pinching the hard tips.

“Are you gonna come for me, little star?” The vibration of my voice against her most sensitive part made her whimper loudly as she nodded her head in a frenzy. “Do you think you can take a third finger? I need to stretch you for my cock.” I blew on her clit and she bucked her hips, desperate to have my mouth back on her. I smirked.

“I can take it!” Her voice was breathy, more so than usual. I decided I could make it breathier even.

“So desperate for my touch, aren’t you? You really are a little slut under all those cute clothes and shy smiles.”

“Fuck, Aiden…”

I tsked, “Look at you swearing, what would people say if they knew that Ravenbridge’s good girl was moaning on my bed, begging me to fuck her with three fingers.”

“Please— I need it.”

“Of course you do, little star. And I can’t refuse you anything.” Slowly, because the last thing I wanted was to hurt her, I added a third finger. She was so fucking tight and small, she strangled my fingers and I couldn’t wait to feel her around my cock.

Once the third finger was in, I went back to sucking her clit while thrusting in and out of her leisurely. The sounds filling the room were driving me insane, her moans and whimper, the wet flesh-on-flesh sound of my fingers.

And then with a cry, she finally came, all over my face. Her whole body was trembling, thrashing around as I kept on licking her sleek cunt until she calmed down. She was dripping all over my hand and mouth, her cum smearing my chin and lips.

Slowly pulling my fingers out, my eyes caught hers as she came down from her high. She looked so beautiful right then, the shirt pushed up to reveal her tits, nipples hard and legs spread around me.

I couldn’t resist and gave her clit one last lick, which seemed to jolt her awake.

“Aiden! Too sensitive.” I chuckled and moved up to kiss her, momentarily forgetting about the fact that she’d just come all over my lips.

She didn’t seem to mind, not even when I sucked her tongue into my mouth. I moved to kiss her neck and she held me tighter. “I want you, Aiden.”

“You have me.”

“No, I want you inside of me. I want us to— I want to give myself to you.” Her words were music to my ears and I doubted she would ever know just how much they meant to me.

“You want me to fuck you, Nova?”

She nodded shyly, hands tangling in my hair and bringing my face closer to hers for another kiss. We had to break it so I could take my clothes off, starting with my shirt which ended up in a heap on the ground, quickly followed by Nova’s. Her fingers immediately trailed over my abs as she let her eyes roam over me, biting her lips.

“You have no idea how long I’ve been thinking of you like that.” Her confession surprised me and from the way her eyes widened a bit, herself too.

“I knew you liked me, little star.” I goaded and she rolled her eyes playfully, before bringing her mouth to my pec and kissing me there, holding my gaze.

Fuck, I wanted her so much it hurt.

Then her hands moved down to my pants and she started tugging at the waistband, obviously wanting them off. To be totally honest, the idea of Nova seeing me naked was nerve-wracking. Nobody ever had, not since I learned how to shower alone when I was a fucking kid.

It all felt so real right then, I was about to lose my virginity and take hers.

When she gave the joggers a tug, I decided to help her and took them off myself, my cock springing up and hitting my stomach. I was rock fucking hard, touching and tasting Nova had me on edge and it took all of me not to come inside my pants like the sad virgin I really was.

Nova’s eyes were set on my dick for a few seconds before she finally looked up at me, a worried look on her face. “You said I could take you if I took three fingers! This is way bigger than that, you would have to put your whole fist in me to prepare me!”

I smirked, because what guy didn’t like to hear about his cock being too big?

“We’ll make it fit, baby.” I pecked her lips to reassure her, but then something crossed my mind that brought my whole mood down. I groaned and let my head fall on her shoulder, “Fuck.”

“What’s wrong?”

“I don’t have any condoms.” I wanted to fucking slap myself, angry that I wasn’t better prepared, when I felt Nova chuckle lightly underneath me.

“It’s okay. I’m on birth control. I’m clean, never been with anyone and… well, neither have you so—”

“You want me to fuck you bare?” The surprise was impossible to hide from my voice and Nova looked at me sheepishly, biting her lips and shrugging.

“I trust you, Aiden.” My heart felt tight, she looked so beautifully vulnerable, I would never forget the pretty picture she made right then.

I said nothing and simply pecked her lips instead, lowering myself between her spread legs. She was so wet, my cock nestled against her cunt as I gave a tentative thrust, making the head of my shaft bump against her clit. Nova hissed, nails digging into my arms.

One of her hands moved between us and fisted my cock, she looked at me, unsure of what she was doing, but I said nothing, my eyes strained on where she was squeezing me.

“Use your cum to stroke me.”

She did so, her hand briefly leaving my dick so that her fingers could rub against her clit, making her moan. They came back wet enough to lather my cock in, making it easier for her to glide her hand up and down my shaft. It felt so good I knew I had to stop her because I’d come all over her stomach if she didn’t and I’d rather be inside her when that happened.

I grabbed her hand and put it on my shoulder instead, pecking her lips just because I could.

“Ready?” She nodded, “Tell me if it’s too much, okay? I’ll stop if you want me to.”

She nodded, her eyes in mind. I could tell she was as nervous as I felt so I kissed her to ease both our nerves. She deepened the kiss, her hands in my hair while mine grabbed her hips firmly. I positioned the tip of my cock against her opening and eased my way inside, slowly but surely.

Nova whimpered a little at first, breaking the kiss and threw her head back, squeezing her eyes shut. My eyes didn’t leave her face, looking for any sign of pain. So far, she looked slightly uncomfortable, but not in pain.

I kissed her eyelids, “You’re doing so good. You’re such a good girl for me, little star.”

“Aiden,” she moaned, “more.”

“You want me to feed that greedy cunt more of my cock?”

“I love it when you talk like that.” She bucked her hips, taking me off guard and causing me to slip further inside her pussy. We both groaned at the sudden sensation.

The sensation was nothing like I’ve ever felt before. It was so warm and wet, so tight it strangled my cock in the most delicious way. My biggest fear was busting before she came, which was not fucking difficult given how hot she looked right then. Her braids spilled onto my pillow, head thrown back in delight as she moaned softly. I gritted my teeth as I started moving in and out of her, slowly at first, but taking up more speed as I went.

I couldn’t look away from where my cock disappeared inside her. The sounds of flesh against flesh, the feeling of her soaking my dick, it was all too much. Even better than my fantasies.

Knowing I wouldn’t last much longer, my fingers found her clit and I rubbed it fast, applying pressure as I went. Nova cried out, her legs started shaking, nails digging into my arms as she came all around my cock like the good fucking girl she was.

I finally allowed myself to follow suit, the release like nothing I’d ever experienced before.

My whole body tensed, as I emptied myself deep inside of her. She chanted my name over and over again as I whispered hers. The arm that was holding me up gave out, making me collapse on top of her.

She hugged me to her, my head against her chest, her arms around my neck as my hand on her waist tightened. We breathed heavily, basking in the silence and the aftermath of what I knew would be the best sex of my life. We both came quickly, we probably lacked practice and stamina, but still, I knew nothing would ever compare to this first time.

It became obvious to me at that moment, feeling her heartbeat against my temple, her fingers playing absentmindedly with my hair, that I was in love with Nova.

I was so far gone I knew there would be no coming back from this.