Knot Her Reality (Heated Book 3)

Chapter Thirty-two

Leaning back in my chair, I swirl the whiskey in my glass before lifting it to my lips. It’s a damn fine whiskey, but right now, I don’t give a shit about it.

All I’m thinking about right now is Koda and Evangeline—who are officially late to our date. They told me to meet them on the back deck beside the pool at six—which was fifteen minutes ago. I don’t mind that they’re late. I’d wait as long as they need me to so that I can spend time with them.

The problem is I can’t stop thinking about why they’re late.

Neither of them is able to keep their hands to themselves even when they’re around the rest of us. There have even been a few times we’ve caught them having sex in very public places. So my guess is that they’re late because they’re fucking, and I can’t stop picturing it in my mind. Which is why my cock has been rock hard for the last fifteen-plus minutes.

My head jerks up at the sound of the sliding glass door gliding open.

Koda and Evangeline step out, hair mussed and clothes askew as they laugh with their heads bent together. They look gorgeous.

“Conrad!” A smile lights up Evangeline’s face as she hurries over to my table. “I’m sorry we’re late. We got distracted.”

I chuckle because that’s already clear as day. “It’s okay, omegas. I’m just glad you can join me.”

They sit on each side of me but before we can say anything, the door opens again, and Millie is leading the staff out onto the deck. They’re only there long enough to set a plate and drink in front of each of us before they’re marching back inside.

“They’re so efficient.” Koda grins, lifting the lid off his plate. “Mmmm, steak.”

I pull Evangeline’s lid off before my own, nudging her to start eating when she just looks at me.

“You look tense, Conrad,” she says, leaning her chin on the palm of her hand.

I shrug. “I usually am. It’s one of the perks of my job.”

She shakes her head. “But you’re not working. You shouldn’t be this tense.”

Not knowing what to tell her, I start eating, only to freeze when her fingers trail up my arm.

“I can help with that tension, alpha,” she says coyly, looking at me from beneath her eyelashes. All I can do is blink at her as I try to decide if she’s saying what I think she is.

“Mmm… we can both help with that,” Koda adds, his fingers running over the back of my hand. Their combined scents are almost overwhelming me.

Shit. They’re offering exactly what I thought they were. We’re not even five minutes into the date, and I think I’m going to come in my pants like a boy going through puberty.

Squeezing my eyes shut, I can’t seem to force any words from my lips even as disappointment sinks into me as they remove their hands from me. I don’t want them to think I don’t want them. I just wasn’t prepared for this.

My eyes pop open when I feel hands on my thighs. My jaw drops open when I find both omegas on their knees under the table, making quick work of undoing my pants and pulling out my swollen cock. I didn’t even hear them move, but when Evangeline’s lips close around my head, a groan is forced out of me. Koda’s hand is wrapped around the bottom of my shaft, stroking it in time to Evangeline’s movements.

“Omegas—you don’t have to—Fuck!” My hands strike out and thread through their hair as Koda’s mouth joins Evangeline’s.

Their scents that were already overwhelming me, spike as their arousal feels the air. They’re too close together for me to be able to tell, but I’m fairly certain they’re picking up notes of each other’s scents. Right now, I can’t even smell the delicious dinner before me over the blackberry, cinnamon, cloves, waffles, and maple syrup.

Their combined scents are like alpha catnip, and I don’t think I can fight it and the way they’re touching me.

She pops off my cock with a grin. “We don’t do anything we don’t want to do, Conrad, but I think you need this. Let us help you release some tension so we can all enjoy this date.”

Koda’s mouth closes over me, and he sinks down, almost taking all of me in one go. I might not have the biggest dick out there, but it’s nothing to sneeze at. The fact that he can take so much of me without even a hint of a gag?

Fuck me.

I can’t help jerking up further into his mouth as he hums around me. My hand tightens in his hair when I release Evangeline as she ducks back down, pulling my pants down further so she can drag her tongue along my balls.

“I’m going to come,” I warn them, not even embarrassed about how fast I’m coming.

Koda hums again, his hot mouth still sliding up and down my length. With one last thrust of my hips, I spill down his throat and into his mouth as I gasp and groan.

When he pops off with a grin, all I can do is stare at him. He sticks his tongue out, showing there’s cum sitting on it, before he turns to Evangeline and hauls her in for a kiss. They moan together as they share my cum, and it’s the hottest thing ever. Though something tells me that anything these two do will be hot.

“Holy shit,” I breathe out as they pull apart and shuffle back to their chairs. Shaking my head, I tuck myself back into my pants. “I don’t know if I should thank you or spank your asses until they’re red.”

They look at one another in consideration before nodding and turning their attention back to me. “Both,” they say together before all three of us burst into laughter.

“The both of you are trouble,” I finally say before focusing back on my food.

“You look a lot less tense,” Koda notes. “That was an excellent idea, babe.”

Ignoring him, I focus on my food, grateful that my dark skin hides the blush creeping up my neck. They both seem to get the hint that I don’t want to talk about it, and we eat in a comfortable silence.

Once I’m full, I push away my plate to see both omegas staring at me. “What? Do I have something on my face?”

“No, alpha. We were just waiting for you to be done so you would pay us more attention.” Koda winks as he leans back in his chair.

“I was hungry,” I grunt, frowning.

Evangeline reaches over and takes my hand in her much smaller one, intertwining our fingers. “Don’t mind him. Koda likes to be the center of attention.”

He sticks his tongue out at her and rolls his eyes. “We both like to be the center of attention. It’s an omega thing. But seriously, I feel like we haven’t gotten a chance to get to know you well enough yet. You’re always so broody and growly, never talking.”

“I am not broody and growly,” I growl before realizing what I did and frowning. “Okay, I’m not broody. I just don’t talk much.”

“You talk just the right amount,” Evangeline encourages me. “Koda really is just messing with you.”

I shake my head. “Keep it up and you’ll end up with a red ass.”

“I thought we already agreed that would be fun?” Koda offers as a smirk slides across his face. “If you keep mentioning it without following through, I’m going to start thinking you’re a tease.”

I’m surprised by his words, yet I don’t know why. Out of the two of them, Koda is definitely the flirt. My head is just having a hard time computing this. I know Tessa shared their bed just a few nights ago, and it’s clear that they’re keeping one another satisfied. Why are they coming on so strongly to me?

I’m not the hottest alpha here—that’s an honor that goes to Tessa and Ronan, who I know they’ve both slept with. Not that I’m judging them. They should sleep with anyone they want to. I just don’t know why they would want me—which is a me problem, not a them problem.

This isn’t the first time in my life I’ve dealt with self-doubt. It’s something I’ve dealt with more than I should. I know I’m attractive, and I look like the typical alpha, which is attractive to a lot of people. But the reason I’m still single at the age of forty is because I can find people to sleep with me but not to love me. I don’t want just sex with these little omegas. I want to be a part of the pack they’re building. I want someone to love and take care of, someone I can provide for. I would love nothing more than to do that to these two before me, but what if they’re only looking for a quick fuck and knot?

I don’t think I can deal with that.

We might not have known one another long, but there’s something about being stuck in a house with the same people day after day that makes it seem like it’s been longer. At this point, I could see being a part of a pack with all the remaining suitors. I can even see there being something more than friendship with a few of the others—and that’s without acknowledging the omegas I’m on a date with right now.

“What has you so lost in thought?” Evangeline asks, a frown marring her face, and I hate that I’m the one who put it there.

“I just—“ I break off, shaking my head. “Being here is hard, you know? Like, we’re all getting to know one another, and the goal is to leave here as part of your pack. But not everyone will. I’d be devastated if I got sent home at this point in time, and the blowjob is the first thing that’s happened between us sexually. I’m afraid of what would happen if I slept with you and then you decided I wasn’t what you wanted. I’ve always been enough for others to have sex with but never more than that. I don’t want to be just sex to the two of you.”

Not wanting to see the looks on their faces, I duck my head. I hadn’t meant to spill out everything I was thinking, but it’s like the moment I started talking, I couldn’t stop. Now I’m almost afraid to know what they’re thinking. That was very unalpha-like of me.

“I’m sure you’re not the only one who has had those thoughts,” Evangeline says gently just before her fingers catch under my chin, lifting it until I meet her eyes. “We don’t have to do anything more than what we just did, but I can tell you that it’s more than sex we want you for, Conrad. We had every intention of inviting you back to the suite tonight, but if you’re not comfortable with that, we can wait.”

Koda clears his throat, drawing my attention to him. “I’m sorry for all the blatant flirting. You’re just too damn sexy for your own good. Plus, I think bonding with Evangeline did something to my hormones. It seems I’m completely out of whack since then, always thinking about sex.”

I shake my head, reaching out to squeeze his hand. “You have nothing to apologize for. I like that you flirt. It’s just hard for me to get out of my head. I like the two of you, and I’m not averse to the idea of us having sex, it’s just…”

“That you’re afraid we’ll sleep with you and then reject you.” Evangeline nods. “Well, I have an idea. How about instead of inviting you back to the suite for sex, we invite you back for a movie and cuddles instead? If something more happens, that’ll be up to you.”

Glancing between the two of them, I consider my options. I definitely don’t want to say no. I want to spend more time with both of them. I’d love to watch a movie and cuddle, but I know if I go back to the suite, we’re most likely going to sleep together. But if I tell them no, will that ruin my chances with them? I just don’t know what to do.

“Hey, Conrad,” Koda says gently, squeezing my hand that never released his. “Whatever is going on inside your head, let it go. I promise you that if all you want to do is watch a movie and cuddle, that’s all we’ll do. I happen to love cuddles—just ask Evangeline.”

“He really does, and so do I. Please, Conrad. I’d say we could watch a movie in the theater but I know the others are up there tonight since we were going to be down here.”

Shaking my head, I realize I need to get the hell out of my head. Just because we want to sleep together doesn’t mean we have to. We’re all more than our designations, and I want to cuddle the two of them. I want to show them I’m good for something more than sex—though I am very good at that, and will happily show them that at a later date. Maybe when we bond. Would that be weird? To not sleep with them until we bond?

I don’t know, but I like the sound of it.

Having made that decision, I smile. “I think I’d like that. Thank you both for understanding. I know it might seem like a weird thing given the day and age we live in, and our designations—“

“You don’t have to explain yourself to us, Conrad.” Evangeline pushes to her feet. “But it sounds like you’re saying yes to a movie and cuddles?”

“I am, and maybe there are other things we can do besides sex, right?” That makes both of their faces light up, and I feel lighter.

This was the right decision.

I stand, pulling Evangeline under one arm and wrapping the other around Koda’s waist as we head inside. Tonight might seem dull to other people, but it’s just what I need.