Knot So Broken: A Dark Mafia Omegaverse

19. Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Nineteen

I watch Kennedy like a hawk during the entire doctor's visit. It’s impossible for her to not be in my thoughts but something is different as she walks out of the x-ray room.

I can see a fire has been lit inside of her. It shines brightly through her eyes and it only fuels me with excitement.

I can’t help but also feel her emotions through the bond. While there is some part of her that still seems to be scared, another part of her is determined.

I feel proud of her.

I want my Omega to take control of her life. I want her to make her demands of us. To tell us how she wants things versus just listening and obeying like it is clear she has done all of her life. I want to give her a safe space where she is able to advocate for herself. Just like her, and any Omega, should be able to do .

It has always infuriated me whenever the guys and I have gone to events to show a professional front for the Syndicate. Overhearing just how fucking sick some of our fellow designation are is truly baffling. It has made me despise what I am. Maybe that's why finding my Omega wasn’t important to me, until we found Kennedy.

I didn’t want to put pressure on a designation that is already under so much stress.

The need to be prim, proper and perfect in order to appease their Alphas. To be the ones that stay at home, keep a house and provide babies.

I don’t want that. I want a partner.

I want someone that wants to stand beside me. An equal. Someone that will challenge me to be the best I can be. Someone that I am able to have a deep-rooted connection with.

I want all of that with Kennedy.

I’ve never wanted anything more in my entire life to be honest.

I look at my Omega in an entirely different light to how I did only ten minutes ago. While it is still with the same adoration and affection that seems to be growing by the second, there's something new there now.

Admiration. Not only for her because she is the one that is destined for me, but because she is so incredibly strong.

Pain laced my entire being during her explanations to us about just how bad her father’s abuse was. I’ve never been so undecided on whether to storm her old house and find that motherfucker or hold her until I am able to some how take all of her pain away.

I wish that I possessed the kind of fight that she does. The ability to get back up again and continue to soldier on. I see it in her right now as her eyes blaze. She looks around the room, almost like she has a different outlook on the world now.

It's exciting. I already am looking forward to standing beside her in the fight to give her her life back.

Ledger and Theo must be able to sense the change in her as well as they both look over to me for some kind of confirmation or assurance that we are all witnessing the same thing. I give them a small nod of my head.

Our Omega’s time for revenge is coming.

Maddox must sense the change in the room as well as he rushes over towards his laboratory to finish collecting the blood results. We all sit around his desk patiently waiting. I can feel a static in the air as energy charges through our pack.

Ledger bounces his knee, almost like he can already anticipate the fight. I know that he is ready. Thirsty for it just like I am. Theo isn’t as hungry for the fight like we are but judging by the way his fists are clenched at Kennedy’s hips, I know he isn’t going to step away and let us handle it all on our own.

Our Omega’s back is ramrod straight compared to the slump form she had when we first walked into this room. I can almost taste the tension, it is that thick in the air.

After what I feel like is hours but it is most likely minutes, Maddox comes back over to the desk with - what I assume is - the results. He sighs before looking up at us.

“I have both good news and bad news.”

It's impossible for all of us to not tense up. The last thing any of us wanted was to hear bad news but we knew that it was a possibility .

“Bad news first, please.” Kennedy's voice is strong as she breaks the silence in the room.

Maddox nods his head as he looks down at the results.

“You have traces of a heat suppressor in your system. I have no doubts that is what has prevented you from falling into a heat. From what I can gather, you have been on them for quite some time now.”

I turn to look at Kennedy who keeps her gaze on Maddox. Her face is perfectly blank as she takes in the information. I admit, she is doing a mighty fine job of not letting the news break her, even as her pain is evident through the strings connecting us.

She chews her lip for a moment before replying, “I don’t understand. I’ve never taken heat suppressants before. How could they be in my system?”

Maddox sets down the paperwork as he clenches his hands together on his desk.

“I’ve seen a lot in the time that I have been a doctor, Kennedy. Your case isn’t the first one that I have seen and I have no doubts in my mind that it won’t be my last. From what I can gather in regards to your father, I would assume that maybe he has been slipping you them.”

Anger boils inside of me. I have no doubt that what Maddox is saying is not all that far from the truth. Calvin Hayes seems like that kind a sadistic fuck who would do something like that to her. In his eyes, control is the ultimate power.

Kennedy clenches her fists and grits her teeth, “What does that mean for future heats?”

“Well that's where the good news comes in. Heat suppressants won’t permanently stop your heats. It's only a temporary thing. While it may take some time for you to get your first one as your body adjusts back, you will get a heat.”

Kennedy sighs and instantly relaxes into Theo’s lap. It’s only for a moment before she is shooting back up again.

“Does that mean I am able to fall pregnant? Will I be able to have a baby?”

The desperation in her voice breaks my heart. It's clear just how much she wants to have a baby with us. While I love the idea of having a family with her, I hate the idea that she is already putting so much pressure on herself.

Maddox gives her a sad smile, “Yes Kennedy. You still have every chance of falling pregnant.”

Kennedy begins nodding until eventually a sob chokes her and her tears begin to fall.

Instantly, I’m right at her side. Grabbing her hand, I pull it to my lips and kiss it. Her grip on my hand tightens as she pulls me into her. Ledger grunts as he too is pulled into Kennedy’s arms.

“We can have a baby. One day we can have a baby. Have a real family.”

Her words spoken through sobs that break my heart; I can’t help my own tears from falling for our Omega. When she is ready, I know each one of us will not stop until she gets her wish. We won’t spare a single cent on bringing what is clearly a dream of hers to life.