Please Be Mine

February 12, 2025

february 12, 2025

My Shelly,

I know you’re scared, because I am, too. But, Shelly, you will never, ever lose me. I’ll always be here. Whatever happens, whatever you need, I’ll be there for you. You have been there for me, and these six years of silence have made me realize that I never want a moment without you in my life. If friendship is what makes you happy, then I’ll be the best friend you ever had. If something more will make you happy, then I am all yours.

I have to actively remind myself as I write this that being with you would be a very good thing, because there is a part of me that wants to shut it all down. That voice in my head is telling me that I don’t deserve this…especially not someone as sweet and loving and drop dead gorgeous as Shelly Carson.

But you reminded me that it’s okay to want things, to smile and laugh and be happy, even when darkness looms in the shadows. To stay on the chessboard of life, as you put it.

If we meet and realize there’s nothing there, at least we tried, and at least we’ll know. Or…what if we find out that we’ve been wasting precious time?

It may ruin everything. You’re right, we’re stepping into something that is completely new. But…Shelly, doesn’t it also feel like we’re stepping into something right? Something that maybe should have happened long ago?

Please think about it.

Please let yourself be happy.

Please be mine.

Yours, for as long as you’ll have me,

Jakey Jake