Sinful Touch : A Dark Professor Romance

10. Jaxon

Iwas so fucking stupid to let her leave my office. I have never wanted more than what I have had before. She makes me want to change the rules, not all but some. That is fucking dangerous, the rules I have set for myself for a reason, but she is making me want to throw me all out of the window.

She makes me want to change it all for her.

I first need to tell her I am sorry for letting her go, I was stupid, and she did nothing wrong.

I saw the rejection in her eyes clear as fucking day, and I let her believe the rejection.

I open the side door of her dorm room make my way up the stairs and stop at the top, I see the cleaning cart a few feet away, it is late so no one is awake, and if they are they aren’t paying attention to who is coming down the hallway.

I pull out my professor card and make my way down the hallway, stopping at the last door on the right. I take in a deep breath as I slide the card over the lock; the light turns green. I hear the door unlock, so I grab the handle and turn it, pushing it open slightly, just enough for me to get inside. I close the door behind me.

Her bed is empty, but I can hear the shower running. Fuck.

I take in a deep breath as I put my professor’s card into my back pocket I make my way across her dorm room and stop at the bathroom door, I knock lightly, but she does not say anything I slowly push open the door and step inside.

“Lil, it’s me,” I say calmly.

The steam from the shower has escaped and taken over the room. I look down and see a small metal box, it is open with a bloody razor inside, my eyes scan the floor there is a blood trail leading into the shower, There is blood on the sink and counter.

“Liliana,” I shout as I make my way over to the shower ripping open the door. She is standing still underneath the water, her hands are resting against the wall, and blood is streaming down the wall and making its way down to the drain, the water trying to wash away the evidence of what she has done to herself.

“What have you done?” I ask as I step into the shower. She opens her eyes and takes a deep breath.

“I just needed it to go away.” She confesses through her tears.

“What?” I ask, trying to calm down my racing heartbeat.

“The throbbing pain in my chest,” She says, letting out another sob.

My heart aches as I make my way over to her. Her eyes stay on me as I stop in front of her. I look down at her hand and take it into mine. Turning it over, I see six cut marks going down her forearm.

Six marks allow for blood to leave her body. Six marks that allow her to release the throbbing feeling in her chest, but from what I can see, it is not working, not the way she wanted it to. We all can build a tolerance to anything, mine is alcohol, and hers is physical pain.

I want to, I really want to help her. I want to help her see that she doesn’t need to run anymore, not now that she has me.

“Lil,” I whisper, hearing my voice crack.

“I will be okay, Jaxon.” She says my full name, making me ache even more.

I try to ignore the sting in my heart when she uses my full name. I don”t know why it is bugging me so much, but it is. I really don”t like hearing my full name come out of her mouth.

I pull her arm up and lean down, gently licking away the blood from her arm.

“You didn’t have to come here,” She says as I pull back and release her arm.

“I know, but I needed to,” I say, trying to calm myself.

She shakes her head and gives me an irritated chuckle.

“You don”t have to worry about me. I will be fine. You can go back to whoever you were with Jaxon,” She snaps with venom.

The fuck.

“Stop calling me that,” I snap back.

“You can go back to whoever you were with, Jax,” She says softer, but I can still hear the irritation in her voice.

I don”t know where the fuck she got that I was with someone else, but I am going to correct her right now. What she thinks happened didn’t fucking happen.

I walk into her pinning her against me and the shower, I place my hands on either side of her head and lean in, her eyes never leave mine.

“You think I was with someone else?” I ask, needing her to tell me that is, in fact, what she is talking about. What the fuck does she think happened? She left my office, and I grabbed the first fucking woman to walk by and fucked them. I am fucked up, crazy, and maybe even a little unstable, but I would never fucking do that after what has happened between her and me.

She doesn’t respond, but I can see it in her eyes.

“I wasn’t Darlin, I promise,” I say softly, trying to put her anxiety at ease but I don”t think it is working, from the look in her eyes she doesn’t fucking believe me, but I don”t blame her. If she is a fan of me and my books she has probably heard all kinds of shit about me and women, and until her, it was all true, since her she has been the only one that has had my attention and the only one that will have my fucking attention.

“Promises mean nothing when they are empty,” She says so fucking low I can barely hear her.

“What the fuck does that mean?” I snap at her, feeling my control starting to fucking slip through my fingers.

She shakes her head and takes a deep breath. “Never mind.”

“Darlin, what the fuck does that mean, empty,” I ask again, on the edge of demanding her to tell me.

She takes in a deep shaky breath.

“It means I understand why you wouldn’t want to do anything with someone like me,” She confesses with confidence, so much fucking confidence.

“Someone like you,” I say softly, even the words leaving my mouth fucking sting.

“Yes, ugly, disgusting; I am not like other girls, I know that,” She says, more tears building up in her eyes.

I cup her face in my hand and lean into her more.

“Lil, please, you are none of those things,” I say to her, needing her to listen to me, for her to fucking believe me.

“Chad thinks so, and so does my mother,” she says with pain.

“They both can fuck off,” I snap. My blood starts to boil, even thinking about them saying that shit to her.

“You are wasting your time, I never even kissed someone until tonight,” She says, confessing a piece of her to me.

My heart races with her confession.

“You mean I was your first kiss?” I ask.

“Yes,” she says, looking into my eyes. I see shame and guilt in her eyes. All the pieces are starting to come together inside my mind.

She is looking at me like I should be disgusted with her confession, but I’m not, and I never will be. I am honored to be her first, and if I have it my way, I will be her fucking only.

“Have you ever been with a man Lil?” I ask calmly.

She shakes her.

“Darlin,” I whisper.

Where the fuck did she come from?

“Don”t look at me like that, don”t feel sorry for me. I get it. Just let me be Jax,” she says, her anger starting to come back to the surface.

“What fuck no, I am not going anywhere,” I say, shaking my head. The thought of leaving her here like this, fucking kills me inside.

“You don”t want me, Jax; you don”t want this damage,” she says, pleading with me to understand.

“The fuck I don”t,” I say, looking her in the eyes.

“You don’t.” She screams.

“What do I have to do to prove to you that you are wrong?” I ask.

She doesn’t respond as I lower my hands from her face.

I was her first, I plan on being her first for everything. I take in a deep breath as I grab onto her hips and slowly start to lower myself to my knees.

“What are you doing?” She whispers.

“I am proving to you that you are about me and yourself. You are beautiful, Liliana,” I confessed to her.

“Don”t lie to me,” She begs me.

“I would never lie to you. Do you trust me, Darlin?” I ask, looking into her eyes.

She looks at me for a moment, then nods.

I keep my eyes on her as I lean in and gently kiss her pussy, her head falls back against the wall as I lick between her folds, she is so fucking beautiful.

I take her clit into my mouth and suck and pull softly, her body moves forward pushing her pussy into me.

I pull back just a little.

“You’re such a good girl, Darlin,” I whisper.

“Oh my God,” She says as I lean back in, licking and sucking again, slowly making my way to her already wet entrance. I place my hand on her stomach slowly moving it up her body as I push my tongue into her waiting pussy, she grabs onto my hair and pulls making me moan into her as I grab onto her breast, gently playing with her now hard nipple, her walls wrap tightly around my tongue.

Fuck she tastes like heaven.

“Be my good girl Darlin and cum into my mouth.” She starts to rock her body as I continue to fuck her with my tongue.

“Jax.” she moans as she closes her eyes; I can feel it. She is so fucking close.

I suck and lick, fucking her hitting the right spot over and over again.

She pulls back on my hair.

“I’m gonna cum.” She says, trying to catch her breath; I continue to fuck her with my tongue, and her walls wrap tighter around my tongue, and then her entire body shakes and trembles against my face as her juices flood into my mouth.

She lets out a scream.

I slow down my pace and slowly pull out of her pussy, I stand up and lean against her grabbing her by the throat; she lowers her head and opens her eyes,

“That’s my good fucking girl; good girls get rewarded,” I whisper as I smash my lips to hers, she opens her mouth, and my tongue enters her mouth, forcing her to taste herself on my tongue.

I will show her just how beautiful she is, I will show her that she has nothing to fear with me, and I will take care of her. I will always take care of her.